hi. i'm back again lol. thanks to this cutie KimJongin. look at those lips the way they move.. 

well actually not really because of him. i'm just bored haha. i decided to stay away from twitter today... why? i don't know. maybe there's someone i'm trying to avoid. maybe i'm just trying to get my followers to unfollow me. haha. why do i want them to unfollow me? no particular reason actually... i just..... i actually have no legit reason for this lol. 
so this is one of those "just because" things i do. 

by the way it's one of my bebes' birthday today haha. 
yes jessy fransiska. you. yes i have just put your full name in my blog. go google her out people lol. she's taken tho so. sorry boys :D
babe you're finally 19 too~ i'm so happy for you haha. if you're reading this i love you lol. i'll make sure you read it anyways. since it's her birthday let me tell you who she is then... 
jessy fransiska. born on august 16th 1993. eldest. just like me keke. 
strong willed, always know what she wants. very into tough love *with friends tho* how she acts when she's with her boyfriend i don't know. i don't think i had the chance to witness it yet..... have i? i have the slightest idea... i missed all the fun. tsk. i can't believe it~ but from what i heard they are doing real fine. maybe she'll be the first to marry from our class. who knows~ ;p i'm srsly waiting for a bomb wedding invitation sent to me. pinning all my hope to my friends who are older than me tbh hahahha. i'm still waiting. 
i'm getting off the topic again lol.

so this bebe of mine.. we've been in the same school since forever but only got reaaaally close to each other... at senior high[?] i think so.. cos we have our own *groups* on junior high i guess.. i seriously don't remember how we even got so close to each other... but it felt like we've known each other forever. haha. 
she'll always be some kind of an inspiration for me. always admire how she always knows what she wants and how hardworking she is. we're so different but i'm always comfortable with her. i might not always agree with what she thinks yet i just love hearing her thoughts. she'll always be one of those bebes who i can talk to about almost anything. that's how comfortable i am with her. i miss how we would go to the mall, just the two of us, spending the whole day walking around that small mall. haha. we would then find a corner to sit and observe everyone, or walk into every store looking at clothes. usually i'll be helping her choose some clothes since i could never find clothes that fit me in that damn island. the clothes they sell look so small ide. i still feel indignant about that lol. i'm sorry but i'm a big girl okay. 173cm and xxkg. *i'll let you fill those x with any number you like. if you think i'm 99kg i'll just surrender to you then* 
i miss those days ide. 

so what shall i wish for this bebe of mine then?
i can feel that she's really happy today tho. haha. i can't believe she's happy that she's getting older /cries/ but then again if you have a lot of people celebrating it for you i guess you'd feel happy haha. i'm just a bit sensitive about age lol. i'm just a bit too afraid of turning 20. 
so i wish our jessy fransiska a happy happy happy birthday. i hope you'll have a great time while being 19. wish you good health, don't tire yourself out babe. sometimes i feel that you work too hard, but then again maybe i'm not working hard enough. i'm sure you'll get prettier so i don't have to wish that. should i wish that your relationship will last long? i think it's more appropriate to wish for that on your anniversary.. so skip that. i wish that everything will go smoothly for you in every possible aspect. and that you can get whatever you wish for. haha. 
in short, i love you. ♡

hmmm... i still owe my iew bebe the "confession" post keke. shall do it one member at a time haha~ i haven't change my mind about it yet so don't worry *or worry if you hate kpop* i still won't get why you would want to read my blog if you hate kpop tho. so. haha. too bad



i'm done for the night.......or morning.. it's 2:35 am keke
*did not proof read so might not make too much sense and pls forgive all the misspelt words*

annyeong~♡

aha

haha nothing just wanna share this gif cos i simply adore his smile~ gif not mine tho credit to gif maker!i'm sorry i just took it please dont hit me.

ah yes~ that baby of mine.. i treat him more like a maknae than i treat the real maknae, ohmija..
and oh how i miss the rain. living in this part of cali means rain is hard to come by~ i truly miss batam that small wretched island. i miss how it would be really sunny and it'll suddenly rain. i just miss home so much i can't wait for class to start. then time would fly and i'd be home in no time. 
aaaaah all my feelsssss you people better pick me up from the airport. bring a fanboard or something. i'll wear my shades when i walk out lol. living my idol dream ide. 

and yeah i've been watching a drama and i simply love it!
it's called A Gentleman's Dignity. yes it's a k-drama. wait stop complaining first. haha. 
it's centered around the life of four 40-year old ajusshis~ like yeah i love middle age love storiesss they are so straightforward at it. yes i'm tired of those shy 20 year old love it's like so annoying why won't you say what you feeeeeel. but those 40 year old ajusshis just say whatever they think i'm like yesssss finally... plus the lead actor, JangDonggun is hot as hell. well unless you're not into 40year old man. i'm into hot guys whatever the age lol. but before you argue with me, i don't think wrinkly 70 year old men are hot. okay. i'm not into wrinkly men, i'm into hot men. tsk. 
and i'm into cute dongsaengs as well~ 
i just have different standards to everything. yes i have not just double but i don't even know how many different standards so just accept it. there's no such thing as a single standard in this world. i love you, but i will still tell you that i have double standards if not more. imagine if i used one standard for everything. damn. i would be so unhappy with the people around me. constantly screaming why are you not as hot as that guy i saw on youtubeeeee. so yeah. take it like a human. /preach/

lol. i'm starting to rant again. so

kthanksbyeeee lol
*escaping after putting inappropriate stuff on blog aha*

annyeong~♡

32 kpop related Q&A *get lost if you hate kpop*

hello there i'm bored again.... and this is a kpop-related post so kindly stop reading after this paragraph ends and close the tab if you have zero interest on kpop. i will not tell you twice and will not accept any complaints made and will not be responsible for any type of self inflicted injury or discomfort this post have caused you since i already told you not to read it you freaking idiot. 

and for those who actually continued reading, HIII~~ haha. yeah so i'm bored and decided to post something kpop related just for the sake of it. my freaking feelsss~ 

LET'S GO!

1 : First ever kpop group

i think it's super junior... i saw them in a magazine and when i saw kim heechul i was like wow that guy is so pretty~~ but lost interest for a year or two before rediscovering them performing on mtv. and fell for their "sorry,sorry"

2 : Kpop group that made you keep on listening to kpop

must be SHINee.. i lost interest in super junior since hangeng decided to say goodbye to SM and kibum decided to go missing. SHINee kept me going with their songs and adorbs personality

3 : Favorite Boy Group

hands down SHINee. 4 years together means something haha. 

4 : Favorite Girl Group

hmm.. i don't rly know... it's between SNSD, 2ne1 or 4minute i guess haha.

5 : Favorite solo artist

hmm.. i'm not really a big fan of solo artists.. BoA is real good tho she's not my fave haha.

6 : Top 5 Guy biases

-SHINee Key

-SHINee Jonghyun

-SJ Kim Heechul

-BigBang GD

-BigBang TOP

wow it's so hard to choose actually lol. but there you go. my top 5.

7 : Top 5 Girl biases

-4minute Hyuna

-SNSD Taeyeon

-2ne1 CL

-Lee Hyori

-f(x) Amber

8 : Top 10 Songs

-SHINee - Lucifer

-SHINee - A-Yo

-B2ST - Lightless

-SNSD - Genie

-Hyuna - Change

-BigBang - Haru Haru

-GD - Heartbreaker

-TVXQ - Mirotic

-CN Blue - I'm a Loner

-infinite - Come Back Again

9 : Top 5 most played songs on itunes.

-SHINee - Sherlock

-SHINee - Honesty

-MissA - Lips

-B2ST - Beautiful Night

-Big Bang - Fantastic Baby

10 : Every artist/group you listen to .

this will take forever...

B.A.P, B1A4, B2ST, BangYongGuk, BigBang, Block B, BoA, BEG, Dalmatian, EXO, FT Island, f(x), GD, G.Na, GD&TOP, Hyuna, Infinite, Jay Park, JYP, JJ Project, Lee Seunggi, MBLAQ, missA, Primary(k-indie), se7en, secret, SHINee, Sistar, SM the Ballad, SNSD, Super Junior, Taeyang, TRAX, TroubleMaker, TVXQ, Wonder Girls, U-kiss, xia junsu, Zion.T(k-indie), Leessang, BuskerBusker(k-indie), Boyfriend, BtoB, Song Jieun, IU, Sunny Hill, CN Blue, Urban Zakapa(k-indie), Ulala Session(k-indie), Tablo, T-Ara, Teen Top, HuhGak, Hwanhee, 2AM, 2PM, 2ne1, 4minute, Nu'est, girl's day, Lee Hyori, Rain, KARA, Baek Jiyoung, K.Will, and a bunch of others ohgod i listen to everyone okay.

11 : #1 Bias in each group

freaking flipshit lol. i'm so gonna cheat in this

-SHINee - JjongKey lol

-EXO - i can't choose even if you kill me now. but i think right now it's DoKyungsoo or dansheen masheen chenchen KimJongdae lol.

-B.A.P - BangYongguk.... or busan wonbin JungDaehyun. or baby jello ChoiJunhong.

-B2ST - poppin dragon YongJunhyung

-BigBang - GDTOP

-Block B - Zi-a-Co Woo Jiho

-BEG - Narshaaaa

-Dalmatian - Simon ParkJunho that freaking cute and hot mixed together ugh

-FT Island - ChoiJonghun

-f(x) - Vic umma SongQian or Amber i guess...... but sulli is way cute too akh

-Infinite - yeolchoding LeeSungyeol

-MBLAQ - idiot LeeChangsun or gloomy leader Seungho

-missA - fei cos she's sooo beautiful ide.

-Sistar - idk. bora? 

-SNSD - taengoo KimTaeyeon or Tiffany Hwang...

-TVXQ - i love both choikang ShimChangmin and do you know what time it is JungYunho don't make me choose

-Super Junior - no1 milky skin cinderella Kim Heechul

-BtoB - Peniel ShinDonggeun cos he tweets so much lol and Minhyuk cos he's so cute

-TeenTop - L.Joe Lee Byunghun lol he shares his name with such a hot ajusshi ide. 

-2AM - Jinwoon 

-2PM - hmm... thai prince Khun who has recently got into so much trouble ide.

-4minute - sexy dancing queen KimHyuna or sunglass JeonJiyoon~

i'm so tiredddd why did i even try /dead/

12 : Top MalexMale OTP

jjongkey, kaisoo, baekyeol, taokris, hunhan, dumbanddumber jongyu, junseob, kimheechul with any SJ member as long as they kiss.

13 : Top FemalexFemale OTP

i have nothing on femalexfemale but SNSD OT9 is cute keke. 

14 : Top MalexFemale OTP

hmm.. junhara~ woots. then keykrisber, troublemaker 2hyun, minhoxsulli in the drama *squeals* they look too cute together~~ 

15 : How many albums you own

i have 3 with me here and a lot more at home cos i cant bring them all here ><

16 : How many official posters you own

hmm...... i never counted them so. haha

17 : Idol you look up

Key for reasons i've always mentioned every time it's his birthday or SHINee's anniv. to me he's close to perfection in his own diva ways. 

18 : Group I look up to .

hmm.. i might have to say Shinhwa or TVXQ and probably BigBang. Shinhwa cos they are still together after 14 years. freaking 14 years. TVXQ not DB5K, only chanmin and yunho. i feel that both of them deserve more love i don't know, i'm just biased against JYJ. /shrugs/ and BigBang because whew they have been through so much and almost just went on their own ways but they chose to stick together and create more beautiful songs i just adore them.

19 . A group that you would spend every single penny on

probably SHINee. i invested so much on them i dont even

20 : How many concerts you've been to

1 just freaking 1. i want moreeeee hahahah. it's addictive

21 : How many fan-signings i've been to

0. i live in a country where fansigns are like close to 0. i'm like ughhhhhhh

22 : Best Dance group/solo

dance group INFINITE!! have you seen them dance i mean look at them ohgod.

dance solo.. hmm........... hyuna cos she's so hot haha.

24 : Best Vocalist

hmm.. hard to choose.. i wont choose ;p

25 : Group you consider family

SHINee. haha. they are my boys. and i've just adopted 12 babies.. my 17 kidss ide.

26 : Group that you will be with no matter what

SHINee. haha.

27 : Why do you listen to _______ . (I'll just take the blank as Kpop in general. Its a rather long story I can't really get into.

why? i dont really know. people say it sounds crappy but look at who they chose to listen to lol. i guess i just fell for the sparkly MVs and the beats of the song. i love sparkly stuff waaay too much. it's unhealthy.

28 : Favorite album from your #1 Group/Artist

hmm.. i think it's Lucifer.. i just adore it haha

29 : Favorite era

SHINee's fave era? hmm.. RDD? haha cos that's the era i fell for them hard like hard.

30 : Unpopular opinion on ______ .

unpopular opinion on DB5K. *which will get me killed and bashed by OT5 shippers* i hope they never get back together. Yunho and Changmin are finally getting over the whole thing dont you make things hard for them again. never. ever. hurt them. 

31 : Top 5 Boy Groups

-SHINee

-EXO

-B2ST

-BAP

-BigBang

32 : Top 5 Girl Groups

-SNSD

-2ne1

-4minute

-missA

-sistar

ohyes i'm finally done with this god why did i even try to do this lol.

annyeong~♡

i'm so boreddd and i decided to keep my fonts this tiny to torture you guys while reading my posts .... 

i have 2 weeks of break before my fall term starts~ nooooeees i need to buy my books now. or maybe next week. and i need to get my driver's license~ i am too fucking lazy to do anything right now someone save me. 

my readers.....

i wonder how many of you actually care to read my posts. you guys are all silent readers ide. 

only my bebe iwen comments on it srsly. well not in the comment box but on my twitter and it counts cos that means she actually reads my shit haha. 

you guyss in the other hand are so silent ide.. i won't put my twitter account here n.o. no. cos i need to draw a clear line. you can go to my blog from my twitter but no one goes to my twitter from this blog. my twitter is more off limits than my blog cos...... hmm. because of reasons. haha. and the forbidden land is my tumblr of course hahahah. my tumblr is just a mess i'm so embarrassed of it cos i never took care of it hahaha. i just made it then left it like that. i feel bad for those who actually followed my tumblr cos it's just stupid. haha.

i dont know maybe a hate comment would be better than no comment at this moment. at least when people write hate comments they read the post before commenting on what they hate. unless they just hate the world then there's nothing i can do about it i guess.. 

plus i'm so hungry now. i've been eating grapes nonstop since 4pm but i still feel hungry... only ate 1 proper meal today tho >< i'm too lazy to cook please someone cook for me i'll be very nice to you. i will love you long time. home is still the best lahhh~ i want to go home nowww /creys/

i think i ate too much grape tho.. too much sugar in my system i think my body is going crazy. i'm the type of people who gets high with too much sugar. i can't even handle soft drinks anymore. i go crazy if i finish a can of soda myself. i did that at a gathering last time, drank a whole can of soda, ate so much gummy candy and sweet snacks by the end of the night i srsly lost my head i was so touch-y. ide. i did skinship with a guy i just knew. hah. i will not do that again. nu uh. once is enough i shall not embarrass myself further. 

i just ruined my first impression oh. idk if he's lucky or unlucky to have met that part of me the first time we met haha. 

hmm... now that i'm bored let's go on a daydream together. this is complete nonsense so i kindly suggest you reconsider your actions if you decide to continue reading. 

don't you come round and blame me. i told you you don't have to read it..

well i'm just thinking about what i'll do if i have a boyfriend lol. excuse me cos i love to daydream so just let me dream on okay.

well i dont really know what i want to do but wouldn't it be nice to try all those stupid and cheesy things people do on dates haha. i srsly considered asking a random guy friend out just to try things out just so i know how it feels lol.

theme parks are great places for dates i think.. idk. just walking around the theme park trying all the different rides, buying matching accessories, eating yummy food together. taunting each other to go on scary rides, screaming together on roller coasters, i don't mind if my bf screams louder than me haha. people might stare but i'll just scream with him cos he's so adorbs. then when we go to the haunted house i'll cling to him like a koala bear to a tree. imagine him acting like he's not afraid when he's actually really scared. they we scream together in the same high pitched scream hahaha. we'll so not survive it hahaha. we'll use that to make fun of each other till the end of the day.

on lazy days we can just hang out at home. enjoying each other's company. sitting on the couch, cuddling while watching some movies we rented. works better in cold days than in hot days tho haha. if the day is cold you'll have more reason to stick to each other lol. what movies to watch? hmm. not sure. horror movies are good i guess unless he's more squeamish haha but it'll still be cute. movies with sex scenes you might want to avoid unless you want to do it after the movie but yeah. i'm not into things like those it just makes things awkward... haha. of just get rid of the movie altogether. just play some nice music that both of us like. some jazz or easy listening or rnb to get into the lazy mood. maybe sleep on his shoulder or lap or whichever part of his body. then cook dinner together. or make him cook dinner if he's a good cook. then clean the kitchen together after dinner. 

other nice cheesy dates includes ice skating, beach dates, picnics, new year's eve parties, festivals and idk what else. i'm not good at stuff like dates i guess. cos i've never been on one before *ooooh*

that's why..friends who always ask me for advice about relationship thingies.... you've been given advice from a person with 0 experience yet you still come back for more. are you sure i'm not the one who's wrecking your relationship. 

okay maybe not, i'm not that evil yet   

then there's always this problems between boy and girlfriends~~ things like guys forgetting important dates or anniversaries haha.

i personally don't know where my stand is in this situation. i mean yeah it's hard to remember all those dates but please what do you think reminders in calendars are for. that precious technology in that precious phone of yours can aid you in so many ways ide. 

what will i do if my bf forgets an important day? hmm.. i don't really know.. it depends on his reasons and by that i mean excuse 

and please i have a very low EQ so you better have a very very very good and legit excuse that actually makes sense *or at least pleases me* or prepare to be either given the silent treatment or face my extreme wrath. but i probably won't be able to stay mad for long if you actually asks for forgiveness.... if you ignore me during that small window of time, i'm sorry but honestly, i might change my mind about you.. and it will be the end. ijeneun goodbye goodbye goodbye~ 

i change my mind too quickly. that's why i can't do long distance relationship either. you have to constantly be in my view to be in my head too... i have such low attention span. i don't advise on cheating either cos i tend to pick things up really easily. if you just had to cheat, do it very very tidily. don't leave clues. just don't. i'm too curious. it applies to my friend's boyfriends too.. if i catch you guys cheating on my bebes i'll cut your dick off. okay maybe not i'll probably just make a really detailed report to your gf..... 

ohgod what am i writing right now... it's almost 3 am so. yeah. okay time for jane to meet bed. 

but srsly that car owner needs a slap. his/her car alarm has gone off for almost an hour now and apparently he's sleeping too soundly to notice. i bet that alarm has woken up half of the neighborhood ide.

annyeong~♡

fucking lemme sleep already

can't sleep....
it's freaking 2:54 am and i can't sleep....
i hate it when my body decides it want to mess up my body clock for me...thank you but i don't appreciate it..... just freaking let me sleep already... 


being awake at this hour just messes with my brain.
i'm having the weirdest urge to quit the kpop fandom right now. i am so fed up with everything. but then when i see pics of my boys and babies i just run back to them shamelessly. 
why am i so attracted to things that are aesthetically pleasing. thirst and hunger. for things that are visually attractive. 

has my view toward the world become twisted. beyond recognition. not knowing what's right or wrong. if there was right and wrong in the first place. where shall i stand. what shall i stand for. 

when did i become so cynical. lost all trust towards humanity. are humans just animals now. did i just realize that the world is far from the perfection i pictured it to be. 






so much nonsense..... 

annyeong~ /creys/

k-indie rec!

hi i'm back again with this small ass font to make your eyes suffer while reading lol. 

so my bebe iwen read my previous post about my /summer session/ and she told me i'm shameless lmao. yes maybe i'm just that shameless lol. i seriously don't know which part of me is the real me i'm confusing myself. miss goody-two-shoes is shameless all of the sudden. but i guess i like being shameless lol. 

i'm so bored right nao that's why i'm here again~ 

by the way i found a new love~ Zion.T! i fell for his voice, it's so sexy. i should listen to more k-indie srsly. he sounds sooo good i wish i knew him earlier lol. i guess i'm getting bored of kpop? haha. i don't know. the whole kpop fandom is messed as fuck i'm so tired of it haha. only holding on for the sake of my boys and my new babies.

soooo yeah check Zion.T out!!!

you won't regret it. but if you do, don't hold me responsible since it was you who clicked the play button.

and if you are slightly interested in more Zion.T go youtube the hell out of him. and also check a band called Primary. cool as hell~

Primary is the ones in the boxes~ arent they the cutest thing ever

and then you have Primary and Zion.T in one song~~~ plus gaeko of Dynamic Duo~ this song is fun as hell~~

while i'm at it i'll just intro all the songs i love. this one features jinsil of Mad Soul Child and kang Gary from Leessang~ i love both jinsil and gary's voice it's perfect for the song. jinsil's voice is just.. i don't know how to explain it but ohgod i just love her voice.

she's featured in Tablo's Bad too~

her voice is so beautiful.. 

oh just listen to every single one of them, they're good. i guarantee you. it's not like my usual kpop thingy that might give some of you headaches. 

lately i've been really into usher too lol. i don't even know why. 

note to my bebe

i dont think i'll be writing my confessions that soon....... haha. lemme grab the feels first then i'll probably come out with something crappy haha

and since that post will be kpop related i'll put some kind of warning on the top of the post so that my other readers won't get allergic reactions. 

look at that dansheen masheen kim jongdae! oh wait no,it's PEDRO lmao. 

annyeong~♡

summer sessions ha!

hi people~ 
i know i haven't been writing a lot these weeks.. and i've been lazing around by answering random questions i found instead of writing stuff properly.. i shall accept everything you throw to me right now..... i am not very sorry~ well i had no excuse tho. my summer session wasn't busy at all. srsly. one class. and it's a psychology intro class. easy breezy~ waiting for my A to show up yay~ 

so in a nutshell, summer session was fun. and very very hot. but i survived YAY. 6 weeks of psychology is done. can't wait for my next psyc class tbh. i loved it! i love my lecturer too~ his humor is... offensive? lol idk. i like offensive stuff so haha.
it's a 10am class and the thing that motivated me to wake up and go to class everyday was not the class itself lol. yes, honestly i'm not that into the class cos the beginning of the class is like senior high bio all over again. i'm like nooooo~ i think we learnt too much bio in high school. srsly indo. haha.
the thing that motivated me to wake up each day to catch that bus at 9:35 is *drumrolls* cute guyssss. lol. yeaaah... as if there's anything else that can motivate me as much, well besides food and sleep that is. 
i know this probably bores some of my readers to the max but i don't care. this is my blog ;p i am a mean blog-owner i know. but there's this one guy that is so interesting. i am very attracted to him, like very. from my observation skill i concluded that he was taking an art related class and he likes orange color. and he could be a deep sleeper or he has really unmanageable hair cos he has the cutest bed hair ever~ plus he wears his aviators every single day to the point that even when i meet him almost every other day for 6 weeks i've only been able to see his eyes twice. and his lips. his lips. haha. i guess i was most drawn to his lips. cos he has lips like Dalmatian's Simon Park's~ 

well this is Simon Park Junho~ look at those lips haha~ well the cute guy in the bus had those lips too~ and i cant stop staring. i really can't stop. and i guess i didn't care whether he ever noticed that i was looking at him cos i can't see where his eyes are looking under those aviators. 
well too bad last week was the last day i could meet him in the bus cos our summer session just ended... last day i met him was last tuesday cos i skipped class on both wednesday and thursday to go to socal lol. don't worry i already asked my lecturer and he let me drop my final YAY for dr.T!
on that last day thank god i was able to get into the same bus as he is as it was always real packed in the morn that unitrans have 2 bus go to our area. and on that last day i decided to be shameless and just stare at him for the last time thru out the whole bus ride. and he wasn't wearing his aviators that day /yay/ so i played a glance stealing game with him. i bet he knew that i was staring at him cos he was standing right in front of me facing my direction, trapped between other students in the bus while i'm sitting there just looking at his face for the longest time ever lol. and cos it was the last day, i decided to just take the chance to save his face in my brain. that guy actually has really nice eyes too, deep double eyelids and long eyelashes. he should just lose those aviators haha. 
he's just such a cute guy. ide. i should try dig up more info about him but i can't~~~ i have 0 lead. so case closed. his cute bed hair tho. so fluffy~ haha. i wish i could see him smile tho~ he never smiles cos he's constantly being sleepy in the bus. 
// simon park's jawline tho. uhuh. best! aaaah simon park is so hot ide his abs omggggg // 

END OF SUMMER SESSION "ATTRACTION AT FIRST SIGHT" STORY lol
there's no such thing as love at first sight. love doesn't work that way haha. 

SIMON PARK IS SO HOT IDE OHMYGOD SOMEONE STOP ME


hmm... what else is there to talk about....... 
so yeah i went to socal last tuesday night. i rode the bus for 10 freaking hours cos i'm cool like that lol. okay no cos i have no money for the flight. 2nd time going to socal and this time i stayed at my aunt's place! plus went to Disneyland and Universal Studios for the first time. it was reaaaally fun~ i wish i came with my bebes. and i went to 85º cafe and bakery again~ i was so hoping to be able to meet matthew again and boy was i disappointed cos i didnt see him there despite going there twice in 5 days! sucked hard but i guess he's not working there anymore cos i saw the other guy with a tattoo on the back of his neck who i saw the last time but i just couldn't see matthew ugh! i miss his face and eyes lol. but yeah i'm kinda obsessed with cute guys so. haha.
apart from that little disappointment, the whole 5 day trip was fun!!! yeah ate a lot of good food too~ i am a very happy person. i know i should upload some pics but forgive me or not i'm not in a mood to upload pics~ so let it pass for this time okay 
oh yeah i had someone draw a caricature of me and it's hella cute even tho i don't think it looks like me~ haha. i'm very happy that the guy drew me with a rly thin face i'm like hell yeahhhhh hahaha. too bad i'm not that thin irl lol. 

i love it tho~ haha. didn't know that i have eyes as big as that either lol~ thank you for drawing my eyes that big and my face that thin haha~


ohgod i can stare at simon for hours................ /creys/
lol random spazzing. i'm tumblr-ing right now excuse me.


what else shall i talk about......
oh yeah. relationships. i guess.... isn't it the most wanted topic? where people talk about their relationships, their bf/gf.. too bad i have none! lol.
well my relatives have been hinting about it to me as well... my uncle at the bay area suddenly asked my cousin whether i have a bf. then my aunt at socal asked me the same thing when i was there. i'm like wutttt? srsly where do they get thoughts like that from~ -__-
another aunt said that college is the time where you self advertise yourself.. trust me, i'm trying quite hard already. people who tells you to wait for your love to come is just trying to kick you out of the game. srsly. send signals out or you'll stay invisible. hahaha. yeah, some people are lucky to find one by waiting but life is no k-drama where prince charming will always fall for the female lead. sometimes the evil supporting lead will get the prince instead lol. i'm sound so bitter about this lol.
idk... sometimes when i see people dating i'm like so envious but then when i think about it i don't think i'm ready to be in a relationship. cos i change my mind every 5 minutes. what if i decided i don't really like that guy that much i just wanted him to be mine. will i be able to look at one guy only. for the rest of my life. like that one single guy. will i be able to love him that much. what if that guy breaks my heart. i'm not ready to let a person mess with my life that hard yet. it's so risky aaaah why am i so whiny and scared right now. ide. 
i blame you people who always runs to me whenever you have troubles with your relationship srsly. lol okay no i don't blame you guys, you can still run to me whenever you have problems. i love you people so i am willing to listen to you guys. haha. remember i love you lol

i don't know lah~ i'm so used to sharing my love with so many people. and also cast my eyes at so many people at once. what if i can't stop doing that. and want every guy i find attractive. 
my future bf, please love me and my boys and babies and oppars. :D it comes as a package. buy one get a lot free. i will let you spazz over snsd and other girl groups too. i don't mind lol. i spazz over them too lol.

well since i got my first legit guyxgirl hug already i'm waiting for my first legit kiss lol. i wonder if it really feels like what people say. i want to have my first club experience too lol. but i have to wait till i'm 21 i guess haha~ my mom won't exactly be happy about it but whatever i have to try it once. haha. 





i guess that's all for this post..idk what else to say. maybe i'll do an "exo: confessions of a fangirl" next lol. something you guys would want to skip reading lol. 
byebyeeee