ASK ASK ANSWER

I have nothing to write so i copied a list of questions haha.pls hit me if you can and want to..i will accept it ;p


1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? 
- yes,cos the last person who said she loved me is my lil sis XD
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
- yes,cos i'm 18 too~
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
- hmm..i don't remember anymore..haha
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
- yes if they smiled at me first..
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
- nope.all those people around me are cool at each other*i hope*
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
- heard alot of songs that reminds me of SHINee,does that count?
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
- black tee,olive shorts.
8. How often do you listen to music?
- almost all the time if i'm not watching TV..
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
- jeans,i hardly ever wear sweats.i prefer shorts ;p
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
- change,yes. dramatically, no~
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
- depends...[?] well yeah depends on the crowd.if i like the crowd,i'm social~~
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
- no idts unless i kissed my preschool sweetheart XD
13. What about ‘R’?
- nope.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
- no i drive auto only~
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
- honestly? YES. i care about everything people say about me. 

16. Are you going out of town soon?
- maybe..i rly want to go to SG to shop and meet my bebe iew and go shopping~~
17. When was the last time you cried?
- hmm last night[?] or maybe in the afternoon..
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
- yep.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
- hmm..nope..black is naise
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
- now, i dont think so..
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
- today? i hate it when i found out i got no envelope for my documents.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
- it's more sweet than cute~ 
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
- no..who's the last person i talked to? my maid?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
- a chair..[?] obviously
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
- not rly..well my bebes do that sometimes teehee
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- yes.just recently..he belongs to someone else ;p and yes everyday i want my jjongkey.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
- my dad and mum..
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
- no i'm a healthy baby.
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
- a shop called net..i got it in taiwan lols.
30. Does anyone hate you?
- idk.ask them haha
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
- no i don't drink alcohol and i don't dissect animals in my room :)
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
- i have a love hate relationship with scary movies ;)
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
- nooo..i'd prolly swallow the piercing in the middle of my sleep eeew~
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
- eh?a whole year?? hmm...i only got 18 years..which one..i love each year :( but 2005?
35. Did you have a dream last night?
- i forgot..it must be about something unimportant then..haha
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- a few days ago?
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
- the question should be, do you think you'll have a boyfriend in 5 years lol. idk,nope?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- nope.
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- yes..maybe.. haha
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
- no yesterday kinda sucked abit.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
- no.
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
- yes with my lil sis.does that count?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- yes
44. What’s the best part about school?
- my friends *d'uh*
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
- yes quite a lot haha
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
- yeyeye that's like what everyone did for one year at school.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
- yes every single day.every single detail.
48. Were you single over the last summer?
- yes i was single for 18 years of my life.haha
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
- nope.2 years ago i was a student studying hard and playing hard.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- to go to the bank! i almost forgot!!!
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
- nope.why would i?
52. Are you nice to everyone?
- NO.why would i have to be nice to people i don't like

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- yes.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
- well if looking at other guys and smiling at them is not considered cheating,then yes.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- not really..it's sorta written all over my face.
56. Do you think you like someone?
- i don't think..i feel~~ and yes..
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
- nope.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
- both has their advantages ;p
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
- yep..like cried real bad.
60. Do you hate anyone?
- well maybe..i'm not sure. but if i hate you,be careful....

61. How’s your heart?
- eh?it's working fine..[?]
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
- yes, probably a lot..
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
- yes i've cried a lot for super junior ;p
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
- hmm..someone who hates me[?] does anyone hate me i rly want to know haha
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
- nope
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
- eh??? i hope not... ><
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
- not really.depends on the reason and occasion[?].if they cry for no reason i'd rather get a baby as my boyfriend ;p
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
- nope..
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
- erm..i think it was my mom..haha
70. How do you look right now?
- i look like what i look everyday..thankfully i don't look like shit today haha~
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
- yes.
72. Can you commit to one person?
- i don't know,but i do hope i can.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
- yep
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
- replaced?hmm..yes
75. Did you wake up cranky?
- YES.i was woken up at 6am when i got no school no nothing whatsoever.. :(
76. Are you a jealous person?
- jealous? not really, but envious yes
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
- i've never been in one tbqh haha.judge me people~~
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
- nope
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
- yeah i'm waiting to see my bestie slash super duper busy girl.
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
- send my documents via airmail~it's flying to the states~byebye
81. Last person you cried in front of?
- no one.i cried in front of my laptop okay?
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
- yes, a lot actually.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
- idk.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
- together? idk,chatting on the couch or going out on a trip sounds good. ;)
85. Are you over your past?
- not really.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
- yes
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
- yep..a few bebes i trust should know everything about me.haha
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
- why would he have to apologize?
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
- 3AM? i would still be at Xanderland,busy doing stuffs..
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
- nope.only someone my friend thinks is not worth it.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
- nope.
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
- yes one of my cousins.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
- nope i don't even know a Matthew
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
- nope
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
- nope
96. Is the last person you texted attractive?
- erm..my cousin? hmm..to his gf he's attractive ;p
97. Who do you have texts from?
- a lot of people.do i have to list it out?
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- nothing...i don't think there's anything left to say. 

okay maybe that.. XP
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- idk haha no?
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
- myself harhar
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
- nope.but that sounds romantic,or noisy and smelly and full of people's sweat. ;p
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
- eh?is this the butterflies in the stomach or real butterflies?




i know it's pointless but then again...

do you think i care haha~


annyeong~ ♥

it's been so long since i've posted anything so first of all,
forgive me dear readers,for i have neglected you for a month!
i don't even know whether there will be anyone reading this post of mine but whatever i'm going to write it anyways cos it's not an important post,i'm just going to blabber nonstop about myself..


and as if some of you don't know me at all,i'm going to tell you guys about myself..*again for the 19308th time*
now i'm going to talk about my zodiac,astrology or whatever you call it..
but first of all i need to tell you that i'm not the type who reads daily zodiacs or horoscope readings before i do anything. i'm only interested in the part about the traits of each sign.
so i'm born on March 14,a pisces..
like here are some examples of pisces traits that i think is so me and i will also write why i think it matches my personality

• The Pisces memory is legendary -> well i gotta say,if it's about things that matters a lot to me,or things that stirs my emotion a lot,i'll remember it for life.which means i will forever remember someone's kindness as well as someone's mistake.i do bear grudges hehe
• Pisces won’t smile in your face if they’re unhappy with you but they also can’t hide when they’re deeply in love with you -> truly the truth,it's been a common fact when i was in highschool that when i'm unhappy most of my classmates knows it,and they know how many metres they have to stay away from me.well for the part for deeply in love,i'm not rly sure..have i ever loved someone deeply[?] haha
• Pisces understands people’s love and losses, and can become overwhelmed with the weight of the world -> well,yes.sometimes i can be overwhelmed with stuffs that aren't even my problems to begin with..so bad..
• Your mean words have a stronger effect on the sensitive Pisces though they might hide it -> yes,i'm ULTRA sensitive..pls be careful when you tell me your opinions about me,i mean,you can rly hurt my feelings.and yes most of the time i just swallow the pain and pretend it's okay.i prefer to keep things that hurts to myself.
• Pisces are prone to intense emotional breakdowns -> THIS IS LIKE THE ULTIMATE TRUTH.haha. i am soooo prone to emotional breakdowns,big or small.sometimes i feel like what is life..or what have i done to myself..so random but yes it's a breakdown.
• Pisces is the sign that is most considerate of other’s feelings -> i am most afraid of hurting someone else's feelings and will feel very guilty when i think i might have said something bad,even though the other party felt that it was nothing. 
• Pisces hate criticism and can be very lazy -> yesyesyes.i hate to be criticized.like once my mom said: why you cut the carrot like that? and i became so sensitive i just stop cutting and left.that is after i fling the carrot to the floor twice ACCIDENTALLY*harhar as if~yes i'm evil*
• Pisces weaknesses - oversensitive, moody, escapist -> yes,yes,YES! escapist is like the worst out of worst weakness i have..my mom pointed it to me for a gazillion times that i tend to escape from things or works i don't like.i just run away..i need to face the facts that life is not all fun and games sometimes. UGH!
• Pisces usually don’t see flaws in people, they will love and understand you at your absolute worst -> yes i tend to have that 'oh he must have a reason to act like that' kind of thinking..i never rly see the worst in people unless they rly piss me off,then i will see only the worst side of them.
• As a Pisces you have difficulty saying no, and it can take a lifetime to learn how. -> i gotta learn how to say no.like for real.i just can't stand disappointing people by saying no,although i know that when i bail out last minute i will make them mad.but how to say nooo?
• Pisces tend to live in a constant state of confusion -> yeah,confusion,or what my parents and people around me like to say, BLUR! idk sometimes when i drive it feels as if it's my subconscious driving,and my mind is somewhere else.rly dangerous.haha
• Pisces are very friendly and open -> well that's what i think,i'm not sure how people will see me.but i'm think i'm open enough to be friends with different types of people.*except for rly pretty girls,i seem to have biased opinions about them ;p*
• Pisces greatest fear is being alone for the rest of their life -> yes i might die in fear just by the thought of it..the truth is i cannot seem to be able to do anything alone.i get stressed out if my friends haven't been contacting me for days.it's so easy for me to feel neglected.constantly thinking: did i offend that friend,why isn't she contacting me?
• Pisces love a home cooked meal but have fast food patience -> haha.that's true.i get so impatient sometimes i just breakdown in the middle of cooking*well specifically it's BAKING* and say i quit! then go cry at the dining table.
• Pisces can walk into a room and instantly feel the vibe. -> this is true and it's the way i choose the shops i usually visit..there was once when i went to a photo studio and i immediately hate it..i just wanna get the hell out of there,i don't even know why.i ended never going to that place anymore,i just go to one thats a few blocks away.i like the energy that place has and the photographer there is naisss~ ;p
• When upset, Pisces refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone -> yes,i'm the worst person when i'm upset.i'll just cry and cry and never listen to anyone's advice,not even my mom's.i just talk back and try to make my unreasonable answers reasonable.
• Pisces have an intuitive and psychic ability more then any other zodiac signs. -> not sure about the psychic but i do agree a bit on the intuitive.i trust my instinct like it's the only truth.i rarely use logic,i use my gut feelings haha. well i'm still alive till this moment,so it shows that using my intuition is not such a bad thing haha.
• Pisces treat their true friends like family -> yes,if i adore you,i will adore you for life.there's quite a number of friends that i treat as my brothers and sisters just because i adore and care for them so much.
• Pisces love to shop for shoes as if they collects them. -> yes i love shoes more than clothes..but still for a girl with a feet as my size,it's hard to find shoes i love in my city.or to say in asia..i got huge feet..soooo? the trick i have to use everytime i see a pair of shoes i like but i dont plan to buy any is to avoid trying it on.once i try a pair of shoes and i love how it looks on me,i'll immediately buy it.like how i bought a pair of platforms that i love but never really get to wear.i mean i'm 172cm,the platforms are at least 7-10cm.i live in indonesia,a small island to be exact.even when i wear flats i still get stares from other human beings.*rolls eyes*why cant they accept the fact that they are short?how i hate the human beings in this island sometimes.
• Pisces can be a random narcissistic. ->what?can't i love myself? can't i look at myself in the mirror while driving?can't i take 7862653 selcas a day?
• Pisces always have a song for their mood.

ugh i can't continue any longer i'm too hungry.and it's almost 3AM..

so hungry i would totally love it if someone brought me some food right now~

yeah this is a crazy post.truly pointless for some but yeah it's just somekind of guide to my personality and ways to avoid pissing me off :3 i'm such a nice person harhar.

annyeong~ ♥

SWC SG FAN-ACCOUNT

hi theeeerrreeeeee~~
this is my first and maybe the only fan account i'm going to make in my whole fangirl life,cos i'm not that optimistic about going to another concert. GOD this is like the first time i actually ask YOU to give me lots of money...to go on concerts...... aaand i think i'm hearing the sound of rejection there..a big fat REJECTED stamp on my proposal.
and if i was to work my ass off to get a lot of money,i don't think i'll have the time nor mood to be a fangirl haha~there goes my plans...of to the drain.


so i'm not going to start directly at the day that marked the official start *or maybe end* of my fangirl life,i'm not really sure myself haha.i'll start from the day i went to Singapore with my bestie and half sister,shery..well not sure if shery will love her name being here,but then again,she might not even care :p 


i went to SG at sept 8th,which was 2 days before the concert..why? of course it's for shopping.haha. it's not like i'm being snobby or anything,i hardly ever buy clothes at Batam and not to mention shoes,i can't seem to find a pair that can fit me,unless it's sneakers.too bad i was born in the wrong country.everywhere i go people will say i have a 'caucasian size' which either implies that i'm FAT or TALL or both.haha.well i don't really mind people saying that,i just take it as a compliment now.let those people envy my SIZE haha! 
and for the following 3 nights i stayed at my other besties and half sisters' place.they are sisters,isey and iwen.isey is a 93liner like me,childhood friends much.and her lil sis is like my lil sis too.a 96liner.both studying at SG currently.
on the 9th,went shopping together with only shery cos isey was sick and iwen had a workshop at school..went to bugis to fulfill my shopping desire*lol desire*
and guess what i saw....

yes it's a picture of a fountain,but if you look closely you'll see a little boy,prolly in the age of 2,playing in the fountain.well that fountain in bugis is usually filled with kids playing water from it,well to be quite honest maybe i was one of the kids playing there.idk how long that fountain has been there,but my lil bro and youngest lil sis sure played at that fountain before.and well that day was a bit special though,cos that little boy standing there was NAKED.yes not wearing anything.well he was wearing shorts at first before his mom decided to take it off,but the kid just ran off and continued playing there.his mom just let him do that,well until there's quite some crowd of people looking at that kid.passer-bys start taking pics of him,and well i'm one of them.and if you can spot a little girl holding a pink balloon in the pink,you should've seen her expression when he saw that boy.she had a shocked face and her brows were knitted together! how cute~ haha.
the rest of the day was mostly window shopping and walking and a bit of shopping.i got myself a long skirt,and 2 tops. i didn't get any shoes cos none caught my eyes..well a few pairs did,but sadly they were killer heels.i don't really need those right now.i want either flat shoes or boots!


and then came the most important day of my whole trip to sg. September 10th 2011.haha.
woke up at 5am even when i slept only at 2am cos i cant sleep at all! barely able to open my eyes in the morn,i cant even look at my reflection at the mirror..took one pic on the way to the stadium.and i looked liek hell! i mean i wasn't even awake enough to care about how i looked haha!

look at that~3 barely awake girls.*first of all sorry to iwen and shery for putting your bare faces online like this,mine was bare too :p*well from left to right it's me,baby iwen and baby shery.you can see it's dark in the windows behind us.yes it's pitch black outside.cos we're in an underground tunnel. haha! okay this is stupid.haha but when i got to the Singapore Indoor Stadium,mr.Sun was just rising from his bed as well but there's already a long line there!talk about KIASU haha!*for those who doesn't know what kiasu means,it's a hokkien word,meaning,afraid to lose* yes and it's somewhat a trademark for singaporeans,i have no means to discriminate or anything,it's a common fact :p

the pic on top is the Pen A group,and the second pic is the line for Pen B,the Pen where i'll be in.all of the people who're lining up were constantly nervous and ready to run each time there seems to be a small group of people,many others will join them.
the whole morning was spent by going to and fro,moving from a spot to another at the queue.and at around 9 or 10am we were finally moved to an official line where we would get wrist tagged so that we can enter the stadium.

so this is the official line~a lot of people before me and a lot after as well..after getting our wrist tagged,me and iwen went to queue for the official merchandises,lightsticks and towels,under the hot sun!it was 12 when we got wrist tagged and both i and iwen ran to the merchandise stand and found a reaaaaaal long line!i was dumbfounded..

this was the line in front of me.and it wasn't a straight one,it was curvy,so imagine the number of fangirls and boys there! i would have suffered from a heatstroke if i had not met 4 nice shawols.2 let me stay under their umbrellas.they were so nice~that's how easy we can make friends in fandoms haha. one of the benefits of joining a fandom.making new friends is like too easy haha.

and this is the line behind me..what fans do for their idols..others won't get it.
after queueing for about 45 minutes that seemed like forever,the queue finally starts moving.and in less than 15 minutes i got my merchandise.well i must say the staffs there works quite efficiently haha. then had quick lunch before getting back to the line.
and surely in every fandoms there are fanclubs.i don't know about others,but shawols are waaaay JJANG!!! i mean i saw fans from china,japan,korea and taiwan there,just to share hand banners and photocards to the fans who were queueing.and it's all for free.i got myself 2 banners and a photocard as well.really really nice and devoted fans

and also there were these 2 cute guys carrying two barrels of soda on their back and giving it out for free.the guy with the grape soda was a real cutie.haha! 
and after what seemed like forever,finally got inside the stadium!

cameras are not allowed inside the stadium actually,managed to capture blurry pics of the stadium anyways haha~besides i wasnt the only one snapping away.there were a lot of people snapping away while the concert was going and it was really annoying cos the security will shine their flashlights at those people and most of them were around me.i got annoyed quite a lot i started to find ways to annoy those who were taking pics,like waving my lightsticks in front of their camera lenses.yes i am that kind of a bitch haha! you get on my bad side,i show you my worst ;p
enough of the annoying-ness.now to talk about the boys..


just like the other concerts before,this one started with The SHINee World.gosh it was breath taking.well the whole concert was breath taking,but the start was always the best.adrenaline rushed thru my head like wow..i forgot the sequence of the songs next but i will share about the few moments that got me gasping for air haha!
well there were quite a bit of jjongkey moments in the concert that got me squealing like a little girl there.my fave OTP in front of my eyes~! i mean wow!
the boys were as flawless as i expected them to be.their faces were soooo smooth! porcelain like! if they were to sit still,i would believe if people told me they were mannequins. and i guess i got the lucky spot cos there were quite a lot of fanservice near the spot that i'm standing..and standing in the sea of people there i was soooo happy that i am a 'caucasian size' girl like yeah! i mean standing at 170++ and having quite a big body,i can see well to the stage and push people out of the way so easily haha! 
the unforgettable moments were quite a lot~like how the boys floated like angels and devils haha. the lullaby was the best,i mean,onew really looked like an angel with those wings.and the other boys looked so pure too with the all white attire.angelic!
but the next minute they looked so devilish while performing Lucifer.what can't those boys do?
okay so they started with The SHINee world,then it was idk, RDD? or Hello first?i'm not sure.
their solos were real good as well..
the first solo was Taemin's.he was dancing reaaaaaal good! i was so absorbed to him at that moment~then it was Jonghyun's..tbqh at first i was quite freaked out by jjong's solo.don't get me wrong he's like my first kpop love,i mean no harm.it's just that i felt that there was something weird about his voice that night,idk whether it's him being too tired or there's something wrong with the sound system.but then,only jjong can pull out a performance like that~! although his voice wasn't as airy as usual,it's still really good.i mean what kind of human can sing like that haha. then it was Minho's O.M.G..and yes i must say OH MY GOSH to the perf.tbqh,minho is like my least fave member if i had to choose..cos on screen and in pics,his face shows arrogance of some kind..like he's trying too hard to be cool.but that performance changed my views towards him.his nickname is Flaming Charisma Minho,and after witnessing it with my own eyes,i agree that he has got flaming charisma!haha.he danced to OMG wearing a suit without any shirt inside,and in the middle of the perf he unbuttoned the suit,showing his 8packs like OMG.i was like oh my GOOD LORD!my eyes got glued to his body.and throughout the concert when he walked towards my spot and act all cool,his charisma just sucked me in.really really charismatic! i wonder how T.O.P will be like since his charisma shows in photos as well.haha!
then it was the most anticipated My First Kiss perf by Key starring Taemin as the girl.i was like ohmygosh that BUTT! haha. taemin dressed up as a girl wearing sparkly mini skirts,pink top and stockings,not to forget his yellow blonde wig! i cant take my eyes of both taem and key.it was superb!
and after the solo,they performed A-YO..my favorite song ever~my life battery charger,first aid kit,my lifesaver. this song has magical powers..haha~and i'm not exaggerating.. okay maybe a bit ;p
then there was a pause,and then a lot of sad songs,i can only remember some,like quasimodo,life,romantic,obsession,graze.ah it's all a blur i can't remember the sequence.but i remember while singing graze,key gave a really sad look at my direction,i almost cried lol.so dramatic ;p 
then Replay,Love Like Oxygen..and Up and Down..and...ONEW's solo~ idk when it was but i think it happened before the lullaby part.nessun dorma?was it the name of the song onew was singing?idk,but it was damn good.damn damn good. like the best i've ever heard onew! i mean,onew,how can i not love you!
and the most important song that night was of course Lucifer.it was EPIC.EPIC.with all capitals and bold.haha~really the boys were dancing and then they were floating around.and all shawols were shouting so loud i almost got deaf,for real,my left ear hurt for 2 days after the concert >< they were throwing balls as well i forgot to what song..was it Bodyguard??i think so..i almost got Key's ball,the one he kissed before he threw,a red one.but then it rolled on the ground after someone hit it.i mean i don't want to risk losing my hand okay.it was not worth my hand.my money making tool lol.i was quite dumbfounded when jjong decided to throw his basket of balls altogether at only one direction,that DORK!i almost strangled him mentally lol.Key on the other hand was really fanservicing real well.he kissed every ball before throwing it.really,if only i got the ball haha..maybe next time? ;p
then they went in,everyone was shouting for encore.and they emerged singing Jojo?okay i really cannot remember the song.so messed up this brain!also not to forget,SM's ritual[?] -> water fights.the boys poured water at each other..the cutest things ever.Taem seems to be the one who got all his hyungs wet haha.so cute that maknae~ 
and the last song was ONE.it was the most touching song,i remember crying to it the first time i listened to it.haha~
and then after the song,a lot of the shawols took out the happy Key day banner showed it out,as it was Key's birthday month,so all the shawols decided to do an early celebration.and it was a success.seems like jjong was really excited about it,he took a banner from a fan and brought it to Key.Key seemed to be really touched when we sang the happy birthday song for him.i mean i would too if i were him haha! jjong sprayed his Key with a can of idk what to call it.streamers?strings?idk.it's just a can of stuff you spray and string like stuff comes out.haha.wth is that called. i am most relieved when i see jjong was happy.cos for me his emotions was the most important,idk why.haha.maybe he was the grumpy dino that gets cross so easily haha. the ending to the concert,for me,was the most special ending to any SWC.no other SWCs can compare to this one.even though the number of shawols may not be as much as the one in japan,taiwan or china,but at this concert in SG,Key got a surprise like that.haha.he promised to come back,just like any other artist will,but then again the next time he's there,idk where i'll be.haha.


the concert ended at around 10 pm.the trip home was quite good beside the MRT that's sooooo flooded with people.

that's one very blurry pic cos i took it while going down the stairs.if i was to stop i might get pushed down and die there haha~all oh the colourful dots are humans.fangirls and boys,shawols.and a few lost caucasians thinking,what the hell is this.hahhaha.
but yeah got to iwen's house safely~with dinner and koi~and yeah i didn't know they got Comebuy at SG as well~haha~makes me miss hualien abit.i wish they got Dinggo here.i'll go buy the orange green tea everyday~


the next day was liek a blur.i spent the whole day feeling as if i only had half of my soul left in my body.i just walked like a zombie here and there.my arms hurt,my legs hurt.i got a mild headache,but still i managed to get to my fave place in the world,a bookstore!and got myself a book!like yeah baby~~~that's the old me before immersing to kpop,a girl who wears specs,got braces on,no confidence,no make up,hangs out in a bookstore LOL. after immersing in kpop,i still wear specs at class or when i'm too lazy for contacts,braces were off 2 years ago,got make up,and a lot more confidence thanks to my bias,Key, who showed me what real confidence is.haha.i still hang out in bookstores.PUHLEEESS i will die without books.bookstores are my kind of heaven..people who don't read,should really start.really..there are a lot of great nonfictions that are inspirational.a lot of fictions also carry really good messages.i kinda stopped reading romantic cheesy love fictions now,more to the nonfic now.haha. i bought 2 books,one with the title UGLY by Constance Briscoe and the other one was BEAUTIFUL by Katie Piper,2 inspirational women.really.girls should take time to read it~
well i got the book UGLY before i went to Hualien.i digested that book in less than 2 days.the book BEAUTIFUL,i bought it on Sunday,done with it on Monday.the speed i read books i love,faster than i eat.and those books are quite thick too.i need more cash to buy books~ donations anyone?




back to the fan account,these are the merchandises and stuffs i got from the concert~

the official lightstick.pearlescent sky blue is the colour's name.i prefer to call it turquoise..and i'm sure a lot of guys doesn't even know what turquoise is..i don't blame guys.they got limited colours in their lives lol.

the purple wrist tag for Pen B. Pen A got a shocking pink one.i prefer this one~prettier ;p

the slogan towel which my babies asked wth i would use it for.i'm not sure myself,but i'm glad to have it.haha~

and the banners~the red one is the Happy Key Day banner we held up at the end of the concert.the yellow one is jjong's banner.it's iwen's though..i didn't get one~ TT
but still forever pleased to get Key's haha~




i don't know when i'm going to be that close to perfection again..ah..let me save more money first haha~
and yeah i got totally sick after coming back from SG.flu,headache,coughing~pls lemme get well soon :(






annyeong babies ♥
it's 3 am in the morn,stuffy nose killing me indirectly ><

i realise that the old me is fighting her way back into my life..
the wishy washy crybaby who can't even think straight without crying a river...
i hate her..so much..i was so happy to be able to throw her away,maybe letting her take over only after midnight,letting me cry just a bit so that i can sleep better and wake with fugly eyebags..
but i don't want her in my daily life! i'm struggling so hard,fighting with myself every single day here.....the lack of brain activity has just triggered a chain reaction. i even feel that i'm growing fatter every single day since i'm back...it's because i didn't even use my brain for a bit since i'm back.washing the dishes and cooking doesn't really need to use much brain..okay and beside that,food has always been available at home. it still is.i can eat 24/7 nonstop here as long as i have gas on the stove..i love cooking cos i love eating...the evil cycle. *i can't even laugh sarcastically anymore* i feel so mentally challenged and i don't intend to put any sarcasm there.it's real.i feel so dysfunctional~ broken.i need help but i don't really know what kind of help i need. 




well lemme look at the temporary bright side then..i'll be going to my very first concert in my life as a shawol and kpop fan.and i'll go shopping as well.if those 2 stuff does successfully lighten up my mood,i'll be able to turn my intuition on and let it guide me through this mess as it always does..




okay now i shall grab a piece of tissue to wipe the tears on my face...
annyeong~ ♥

i'd walk swim and fly just to get home!

yes i'm finally back to the island where i came from,Batam!!!
i used 3 mode of transport,land,air and water,just to travel from Hualien to this small island where my house is at! i must say it was quite a journey~haha


i was planning to leave Hualien on Friday the 20th but my mom made sudden changes and decided we would leave Hualien for Taipei on the next day.that meant i had less time to shop in Taipei,which i was thankful for,as i barely have any space left in my suitcase.it looked as if it was going to explode any minute and send my clothes flying out everywhere.haha.
well i did manage to go to XiMenDing for a while after i got to Taipei.it was such a pleasure for my eyes even though i wasn't able to buy anything.haha. everything there looked extra shiny and attractive it was soooo tempting..even the humans are so shiny! but the thought of my extremely heavy luggage just made me lose all my desire to buy those things.it was better just to pamper my eyes a bit.haha.well i did get a pair of shades which i think is real nice!i figure if i had to get myself a pair of shades now that i'm 18*like wth does being 18 has to do with buying shades?okay i was just making things up* i just liked the shades a lot so i bought it! i was planning to take a pic of me wearing the shades but then again,it's 12 midnight here and my hair is filled with plastic stuffs that's supposed to make my hair curly,i'm not going to take a pic with those stuffs on my head,i look like MEDUSA!
okay so i did take a pic of myself in all those plastic thingy and i'm going to show you guys anyways haha!

okay cos i still want to protect my image*or what's left of it* i put a bear in front of my face haha! *yeah as if it would work haha* does that look like medusa or what?haha!


okay i've strayed too far from the topic!i almost forgot what this post was about,rly!
so okay after a night at XiMenDing,went to Taoyuan International Airport the next noon to catch a 14.20 flight back to Singapore.and after that 4 hour flight,directly headed to the harbour to catch the last ferry back to Batam.
and as a result of this plane+ferry trip,my head still spins if i sit too long.i get so dizzy!!! i wonder how it feels after being in a plane for more than 12 hours..stiff body and spinning head.ugh,wonderful combination.haha!




i think i need to stop here,my head is giving me a real problem here >< off to bed i go~
ttyl~♥

latest MV of SISTAR. i do recommend people playing it on a low volume if you don't want to get a headache from the song cos this song has got the special characteristic of K-pop songs that makes head hurts if you're not used to it.but then the MV is quite eye candy~especially for guys haha ;p  well for girls as well cos their outfits are love! pretty stuffs in the MV. the only thing i don't approve is the company's choice of guys.oh come on,not that i'm biased against old men,but then again,i think the whole MV would be nicer if they used younger men in the MV haha!
but the MV is a stereotypical kpop MV that has a story line that doesn't make any sense or no storyline at all.just people dressed to the nines dancing and singing haha~


i love this song more though~





ah and i found a rare treasure among the kpop MVs.

THAT IS A VERY PRECIOUS MV! and the song is LOVE~!i recommend this to non k-pop listeners too~~ i'm starting to love this group.SUNNY HILL.
the story is painfully beautiful..i was totally creeped out by the 'creature' at first,but at the ending of the MV,when the creature was shot and it cried,i totally cried with it..it's simple love for it's captor..BEAUTIFUL~!
and of course thumbs up for the wardrobe crew,the props crew,the director of the MV and of course,the actor who acted as the creature.i can't explain how i love this MV.i think i might cry everytime i see this MV.haha.


there's another treasure MV from SUNNY HILL that i absolutely ♥

this too, is LOVE! i always love things that are a little bit on the creepy side.
the song has got a really carnivall-y circus-y feel to it.it took quite some time for me to fall in love with the song though,but once it stuck i can't get it out of my head..
the whole MV is love.the props=best i've ever seen up till now.haha. i totally love the ringmaster's shades.and the really pale make up.ah...what to not like in the MV.haha




it's really really hard to find quality MVs like that in K-pop.this is an honest opinion from an avid kpop listener cos most of kpop MVs are BLEH~! i mean,most of the MVs shows only people dancing and singing while changing backgrounds.gosh,no storyline..boring~!well,not really boring if the people dancing in the MV is extremely hot.i mean i can stare at an MV for hours if it has got hot girls or guys in it.hahaha. blame it on my love for beautiful beings.




and oh my feeling is quite good already..took a breather yesterday after that post..went to watch my friends play soccer.even though only 4 of them were playing,i had fun watching.haha.i always loved watching soccer games,a habit since senior high,thanks to my friends at school haha!
and now i'm enjoying melons from my precious roommate~! forever indebted for all the food she gave me haha! i love my friends here~

and that kiss is for all my bebe friends,those from birth,from school,from back home,those i met in taiwan,and last but not least my bebe readers~


annyeong~♥