i'd walk swim and fly just to get home!

yes i'm finally back to the island where i came from,Batam!!!
i used 3 mode of transport,land,air and water,just to travel from Hualien to this small island where my house is at! i must say it was quite a journey~haha


i was planning to leave Hualien on Friday the 20th but my mom made sudden changes and decided we would leave Hualien for Taipei on the next day.that meant i had less time to shop in Taipei,which i was thankful for,as i barely have any space left in my suitcase.it looked as if it was going to explode any minute and send my clothes flying out everywhere.haha.
well i did manage to go to XiMenDing for a while after i got to Taipei.it was such a pleasure for my eyes even though i wasn't able to buy anything.haha. everything there looked extra shiny and attractive it was soooo tempting..even the humans are so shiny! but the thought of my extremely heavy luggage just made me lose all my desire to buy those things.it was better just to pamper my eyes a bit.haha.well i did get a pair of shades which i think is real nice!i figure if i had to get myself a pair of shades now that i'm 18*like wth does being 18 has to do with buying shades?okay i was just making things up* i just liked the shades a lot so i bought it! i was planning to take a pic of me wearing the shades but then again,it's 12 midnight here and my hair is filled with plastic stuffs that's supposed to make my hair curly,i'm not going to take a pic with those stuffs on my head,i look like MEDUSA!
okay so i did take a pic of myself in all those plastic thingy and i'm going to show you guys anyways haha!

okay cos i still want to protect my image*or what's left of it* i put a bear in front of my face haha! *yeah as if it would work haha* does that look like medusa or what?haha!


okay i've strayed too far from the topic!i almost forgot what this post was about,rly!
so okay after a night at XiMenDing,went to Taoyuan International Airport the next noon to catch a 14.20 flight back to Singapore.and after that 4 hour flight,directly headed to the harbour to catch the last ferry back to Batam.
and as a result of this plane+ferry trip,my head still spins if i sit too long.i get so dizzy!!! i wonder how it feels after being in a plane for more than 12 hours..stiff body and spinning head.ugh,wonderful combination.haha!




i think i need to stop here,my head is giving me a real problem here >< off to bed i go~
ttyl~♥

latest MV of SISTAR. i do recommend people playing it on a low volume if you don't want to get a headache from the song cos this song has got the special characteristic of K-pop songs that makes head hurts if you're not used to it.but then the MV is quite eye candy~especially for guys haha ;p  well for girls as well cos their outfits are love! pretty stuffs in the MV. the only thing i don't approve is the company's choice of guys.oh come on,not that i'm biased against old men,but then again,i think the whole MV would be nicer if they used younger men in the MV haha!
but the MV is a stereotypical kpop MV that has a story line that doesn't make any sense or no storyline at all.just people dressed to the nines dancing and singing haha~


i love this song more though~





ah and i found a rare treasure among the kpop MVs.

THAT IS A VERY PRECIOUS MV! and the song is LOVE~!i recommend this to non k-pop listeners too~~ i'm starting to love this group.SUNNY HILL.
the story is painfully beautiful..i was totally creeped out by the 'creature' at first,but at the ending of the MV,when the creature was shot and it cried,i totally cried with it..it's simple love for it's captor..BEAUTIFUL~!
and of course thumbs up for the wardrobe crew,the props crew,the director of the MV and of course,the actor who acted as the creature.i can't explain how i love this MV.i think i might cry everytime i see this MV.haha.


there's another treasure MV from SUNNY HILL that i absolutely ♥

this too, is LOVE! i always love things that are a little bit on the creepy side.
the song has got a really carnivall-y circus-y feel to it.it took quite some time for me to fall in love with the song though,but once it stuck i can't get it out of my head..
the whole MV is love.the props=best i've ever seen up till now.haha. i totally love the ringmaster's shades.and the really pale make up.ah...what to not like in the MV.haha




it's really really hard to find quality MVs like that in K-pop.this is an honest opinion from an avid kpop listener cos most of kpop MVs are BLEH~! i mean,most of the MVs shows only people dancing and singing while changing backgrounds.gosh,no storyline..boring~!well,not really boring if the people dancing in the MV is extremely hot.i mean i can stare at an MV for hours if it has got hot girls or guys in it.hahaha. blame it on my love for beautiful beings.




and oh my feeling is quite good already..took a breather yesterday after that post..went to watch my friends play soccer.even though only 4 of them were playing,i had fun watching.haha.i always loved watching soccer games,a habit since senior high,thanks to my friends at school haha!
and now i'm enjoying melons from my precious roommate~! forever indebted for all the food she gave me haha! i love my friends here~

and that kiss is for all my bebe friends,those from birth,from school,from back home,those i met in taiwan,and last but not least my bebe readers~


annyeong~♥

feeling quite emotional in the time being...
i know i shouldn't post anything when i'm feeling emotional,yet...i need a place to put a load off my mind...


it seemed like for a moment i lost faith to humankind...

credit:http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/2011/aug/08/london-riots-tottenham-duggan-blog

credit:http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/crime/8687177/London-riots-live.html

i read about the riots but never knew it was this bad...
those images i saw online...seem so unreal,as if it was some scene in an action movie..
i always feel so helpless when i see images like this.
really really helpless,i can only cry right now. and yes,pray.for the innocent people's life and safety..
i have absolutely no idea what the real cause of the riot is,no matter how many times i read the articles i just don't get it.maybe my brain is just rejecting the 'reason' behind the riots..i can't seem to find any right reason for doing that.


i can't help but to be reminded of images of hell by those pictures.have they just moved hell to earth?
what are humans doing to this earth...






i can't even think right now...

UGLY *not*? WEIRD *YESSS*

hi bebes~ blog mistress is back!
okay as i have said in my previous post i am going to talk about UGLY~
well before that let me show u guys the song that has kinda inspired me to write this post.



and the lyrics.

[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[DARA] Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold facade inside that patronizing gaze suffocates me

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side

All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Translated by GEE @ ygladies.com

credits: http://www.sandara2ne1lism.com/2ne1-ugly-lyrics-english-translation.html/


and if some of u really went to press play on the video,u might discover that the singers are actually really pretty.well at least if u don't think they're pretty,i do~haha
to me this song is actually singing about what every girl feels inside.even the prettiest or the most confident girl in this world may sometimes feel that she's ugly,and no matter how people compliment them,inside they feel rotten.


i do feel that sometimes..i know i'm not the prettiest being on earth,but still there are times when i feel so pretty that i don't care what people say.and sometimes i feel so ugly that i don't care what people say.
there was once when i felt so freaking ugly i cried almost everyday and cried like there's no tomorrow.i wasn't able to look at a mirror without finding any faults to my face.it stayed like that for about a week and no matter what the others told me,i didn't care.i just went on believing that i'm ugly.

that was like the lowest period of time i had in this year up till now.the stress of the national exams,the stress of looking for a good university,all stacked into one big pile of stress and causing my head to go a bit crazy and made me ultra sensitive.
but after graduating from highschool with quite satisfying scores and leaving home to come to Hualien,i kinda put away all those stress already..well even tho i might be the only one in my class that haven't got a university to attend yet,i can still find one haha.it's never too late*i hope*


i think that the most important accessory a girl can have is her confidence.with confidence even the simplest looking girl can shine.haha. and if u got no confidence,even if u wear the most beautiful clothes on earth,everyone can only see that u got no confidence..

then again,when people talk about beauty,one thing that always pop in my mind is natural and made beauty.*okay 'made' may sound weird but then again blame it on my limited english vocabulary.*haha

okay so i know a lot of people have different opinions about beauty.every cultures have their own beauty standard..but the modern society nowadays have almost the same standards,thanks to the power of MEDIA~!

and the other hot topic is of course plastic surgery..well about plastic surgery,i'm standing in a neutral side.i don't really recommend someone doing it,but i don't mind if someone actually did it,well as long as they don't overdo it.i mean,everything in this world must not be overdone or else it'll have real bad effects haha!

i think it's every person's right to want to look better,but then i suppose they have to do it in a right way.and if u ask have i ever considered undergoing a plastic surgery,i'd have to say yes,but then i'm too scared of the pain.and i kinda like the way i look now with all it's little imperfections haha!

well i should try to go on a diet but then again when LOVE FOR FOOD > URGE TO BE SKINNY,i wonder when i'll get thinner haha!well thank GOD and good genes that i'm tall,at least i won't look like a ball*or maybe look like a huge ball whatever*

ANYWAY~~

i'm going to be back at home soon!

i have mixed feelings about this..

a part of me is like

yeah i'm finally going home~!!! to meet all my favorite indonesian food!!! HAHA

but another part of me is like

aaaw i'll miss all the things i did here......

......okay not really haha!

since my class will be gone in the next term,everyone moving on..so i guess BYEEEEE~ let's meet next time if we're lucky enough or got enough money whichever the way is.haha!

but then before i get home i think i'm going to give everyone a goodbye hug[?] 

and when i get home i'm going to hug people a 'hi i'm back' hug.

haha.whatever i'm just a fan of skinship lol.

and if u think i'm going to hug like

u are wroooong~~ 

cos imma hug like this!!!

or like this~~~

and probably kill everyone....which is so bad..okay i'll reconsider it.....

okay this pic is totally irrelevant but i love it so whatever.it's too beautiful to not love..

my love for visual kei never left me even if now i'm such a kpop fan.

i always loved this song~i don't even know why..i never knew it was sung in english in the first part.haha.

ah so many irrelevant things in this post i think i'll stop here before this gets anymore irrelevant.

annyeong~~~