how are you? :)

hi readers~ :)
i guess a few of you are starting to wonder how i'm doing right now, whether my problems in my previous post has been solved and so on.. so here i am keeping you guys updated :)


i have finally got into all the classes i need! yay *opens bottle of champagne green tea*
the big stones which was on my way has finally been moved, so are the boulders on my shoulders. now i just have to be really careful so that i won't trip on small stones :)


in the end, i told my parents all about my problems and the magical thing is that, starting from the day i told my parents, everything started to get better. although i got dropped off the waiting list for 2 classes,i got a class at the davis center instead. so no more arriving late at night from the main campus :D 


my parents are the cutest, sometimes i feel that their roles got swapped by accident haha. my dad would be the naggy one and my mom would be the more indifferent one. 
so i couldn't bear telling my problems to my dad at first, cos i know he would be ultra worried if he saw me cry, so i video called my mom and hope she will pass the message to my dad. my mom's reaction when she heard my stories is so relaxed, she said that if there's really no way that you can get the classes, just come back home and find another school. she also kept on joking with me.i felt really really relieved that day.
the next day my dad called me early in the morn *it was 8 am in indo* to ask about my condition, so i guess my mom did pass the message to him. he was a bit more anxious than my mom and i totally thought that it was the cutest >< *i'm such a bad daughter lol* 
this condition applies in almost any cases when me and my siblings are concerned. it's always my dad who tells me i have to lose weight, that i have to watch what i eat while my mom kinda let me eat whatever. sometimes me and dad are the ones who nags at mom when she's not watching what she eat. my mom's a choding ;p but she always says the most comforting words i'll ever hear :)




by the way i'm totally envious of you guys who got to spend the lunar new year at home. this is by far the saddest lunar new year i've ever spent in my almost 19 years of life! there was no LNY feel at all and i have to give so much yummy food a miss~! if i was still at home now i would probably gain a few kgs lol. and i would be able to bake tons of my famous cookies haha. 
i've been telling a few of my bebes to go to my home to 拜年.. i wonder if they have been to my house...hmm~ even tho i'm not at home but my mom is at home.you guys can always visit her okay? haha




ah i went shopping for groceries earlier today with my roommate~ we went to costco. i totally felt that everything here in the states come in super sizes, which is totally scary. i mean chips at the size of dog food bags? *__* even the shopping carts/trollies are bigger than the ones i usually see. i can actually fit inside the trolly... 
i ended up buying a pack of grapes and a bag of fruits and nuts which costs me $17 in total..so expensive >< am going to finish the fruits and nuts real slow, which is almost impossible cos i love to eat nuts. i inherited my love for nuts and oranges from my mom okay? ;p




since i'm talking about so many things might as well talk about everything in my mind now haha. so i haven't really got any close friends yet, nothing strange about that, cos i don't feel confident enough to speak to caucasians, cos i'm worried they might not get what i'm saying lmao. okay that was just an excuse, i just don't talk much in classes and classes are the only places to find friends. you can't possibly walk to a random person in the hallway and try to start a conversation... well, not that it's impossible but i'm not the type of person who does that haha. *another excuse* but i do join the international student club tho..i'm more comfortable mixing with international students cos i kinda feel that we're on the same boat[?] lol. 
ever since i came here i've been mistaken as a korean and japanese. well i'm not really offended by those people mistaking me as coming from those countries but i was offended by the guy who assumed that i'm a japanese and tried to start a conversation with me by saying konnichiwa. 

 if he only asked which country i was from instead of being such an ignorant person and start blabbering konnichiwa to me,i'd probably be nicer to him. and the worse part is that he's an asian as well. wow. amazingly enough this asian guy doesn't realise that asian countries aren't only china,japan or vietnam.  luckily for that guy i was in a good mood that day and just shook my head when he said konnichiwa to me. but then he said ni hao ma? to me in an attempt to keep the conversation going. oh for good sakes what the hell is this guy doing?? 

that guy is so hilariously ignorant that i can't even be bothered with him anymore. so i took my headset out and listened to my iphone to make him shut up. 
my message to that guy would be : bro if you thought that was a good way to start a conversation, you're wrong~! well unless you guessed correctly which country that person is from. but still, by doing that you look like a creep. i'm not even joking or being sarcastic. it's really creepy... 

well i guess that's all haha. a little bit less than i expected but, it's enough haha.
and look! January is almost over~! so quick! i'll be going back to indo in no time! yey
i miss everyone back at home and also all my friends~ gyaaaa~~ can't wait for the time to go back home to come~ keke. 
oh by the way, those people whose name did not show up in my previous post when i was making the dedications, please don't feel that i didn't appreciate your help, it's just that i can't possibly list out your names one by one. i love you guys and girls okay? :) 




annyeong~ ♡

hi readers :)
i think this is my first post in 2012..is it?
i hope most of you guys had a really great start to this whole new year, cos i had quite a start myself..


yep,as some of you might already know, i started 2012 by being on a flight of 16 hours~ from Indonesia to uncle Sam's country, the States.
and first i would really like to say sorry to my friends who didn't even know that i'm here because i didn't tell you...honestly, it wasn't because i didn't want you guys to know,but i myself is quite shocked that i would be leaving indo that quick.. it wasn't intentional~ 
so please accept my apologies, you may leave some complaints in the comments section later..i will accept all your complaints without any complaints.........*does that even make sense*


i stay in a small town, Davis..maybe a lot of you guys never heard of it before.and it's winter so it's really cold..but then again, everywhere is cold if compared to indo lol.*inaccurate data*
so right now i'm staying at an apartment with 2 housemates..my cousin used to live here,but she moved out to let me stay here instead because she knows that her housemates are nice people and will take care of me if she's busy..
i'm really really thankful for her help, because i'm sure if she's not here to help me, things would be 1000 times harder..
i'm really happy and thankful that i have 2 really nice housemates..they share food with me all the time~just like my previous roommate in taiwan..am i blessed or what? haha


my college is at another city called Sacramento, which is the capital of california~ i bet you didn't know about that..just like i didn't until my cousin told me lol~
and because i have no car,i have to take the public transportation to get there..the public transportation here in america,if compared to those in asia,really suck.hahahaha. i mean,if i was to miss a bus, i might be 1 hour late for my classes because the bus only comes at every 1 hour.so the total of time i need to get to the college from where i stay is approx. 2 hours,but if you have a car,it will only take around 15-20 minutes.. but then again it's better than nothing~~






if any one of you are curious about how i'm doing here, i can say that it's not as smooth sailing as i thought it would be..
honestly,there's a really huge stone that's been trying to make me trip and fall..
so last week i went to the international student center at the college to do all the paperwork and preparation for the start of the term including registering for classes and taking assessment tests..and i was shocked when the staff told me that most of the classes are full.and the problem is,i have to get at least 12 units that term so that i can maintain my student visa..most classes have 3 units so i need to get at least 4 classes.if i fail to do that,the government would send me home..
when i heard about that,i went to autopilot mode,nodding to everything the staff said while my mind just ran wild..i kept thinking,"what??after all i went through just to get here,i might have to go home???" i just kept thinking about what to do and what to tell my parents.i almost broke into tears there and then.. at that time i had to take my assessment tests as well..i was so taken aback by the information that i have just received that i yelped a little when my cousin had to leave me as i was going to take my assessments.. it has been a long time since i felt a fear of that level that even a small thing like my cousin leaving the room made me feel so alone and anxious..it was as if i was trying to say please don't leave me alone..
the test was an english test and on the essay part i went blank for 10 mins while my mind was trying to think of the topic and at the same time suppress all the other problems i had in my mind..but in the end i finished the test..and i just go the results yesterday.it was quite good honestly..i'm proud of myself haha.


after the test i tried to search for classes to register in with the help of my cousin..it was so discouraging to see how many classes were full and at the end of the day i managed to get into 4 classes' waiting list..so far i've only been successful in getting into 1 class but the counselor i met yesterday told me i had around 75% chance of getting all the class i registered for.i just have to go to the classes even though i'm still at the waiting list,who knows if the professor might just let me enroll into his/her class..






i haven't told my parents about all this..i'm still not sure whether it's the right thing to do,but i really don't want them to worry..i'm kinda waiting for things to get better before telling my parents about it.both my parents are busy and the time difference is really making it hard to contact them..i've only skype-d once with my mom and both of us cried once we saw each other's face.she video called me at around 1 or 2 days after i got the bad news from the college so it was really hard for me..i had so much to tell her but i just couldn't tell her..and because i'm so far from my parents the problems felt twice harder cos i can't complain about it to them anytime i want. 
i cried myself to sleep every night since i found out about the college problems..i just cried and cried..i would try to fill my brain with so many other things,i watched a lot of korean variety shows,but still,once i had nothing to do my brain just automatically think about the classes. it's so hard and tiring..but i was the one who chose to come here so i have to solve my own problems..
now,at this moment i still worry about this problem a lot,but not as much as i first did.i guess my brain finally dealt with the blow and starts to let me act rationally..






also in this post i would like to make dedications to people who have helped me went through the hardest week of my first month in 2012 by being there for me..
to shery,who spared a lot of time listening*or reading* to my complaints,stories,nonsense and reassured me that the problem would be over..i still bother her everyday by iMessage-ing her once i wake up haha~i love you bebe! ♡

to my cousin,dewi..if it weren't for her help i think i would not be able to do anything right now.thank you~ i really appreciate your help :) 

to robin,who chatted with me although he was busy..thank you~it means a lot to me when people spare time to listen to me~
to alex a.k.a xiaopang,and jeroen~ thank you for your encouragements~ we shall chat again on fb some time~haha
to the staffs at school,esp pat and monica, who helped me with a lot of the process of registration..thank you~you guys had made the process a lot easier for me to handle.
to my housemates,jen and lisa,who are so nice to me and made it easier for me to adapt to the new environment.thanks guys~ :D
also to my twitter buddies and bebes,thank you for being on twitter and tweeting with me~






i should videocall my parents.....maybe tell them about my problems here..i still think that it's not right to keep it from them..
well wish me luck readers~i'll keep updating my condition~or maybe sulk a little here..haha~






until the next post~
annyeong~~♡