and it's our jonghyun's birthday!!
jonghyun.. i can't believe you're 24(23) this year.
it's almost 5 years since i first saw you on screen and heard your voice and i'm proud to say that i'm very very very glad that i found you and SHINee.
kim jonghyun.
i don't know how to explain how much i love you. you are very very precious to me.
you won't know how much different things i learnt from you.
your beautiful voice, the emotions and passion you put when you're singing, it's amazing.
although you're not the world's greatest dancer, i always love looking at your random little dances. because it's so you. it's so kim jonghyun. silly, fun, energetic, sometimes plain dumb. but i love it. cos it's you.
i always loved your puppy eyes, your little nose that has uneven nostrils, and your thick bottom lip. you just recently turned buff.. i was surprised haha! are you trying to make up for your lack of height??? hahahha. you suddenly turned all sexy on us too last year! i was shocked, but i gotta admit i'm pleasantly(?) shocked hahaha
i love how you have a really really soft heart. a beautiful heart. and you always put your heart into everything you do. you always feel as if you're not doing enough for the people who loves you, but trust me, kim jonghyun. trust us fans, when we tell you that we can feel how much you love us back.
it always breaks my heart when i see you cry, but you must know that you look beautiful even when you're crying, cos that's how we all can see your rawest emotions displayed on your face. our crybaby.
i love how you're always being so obnoxious, sometimes you look like a 5 year old. how you're always making weird expressions, say the weirdest things, do the weirdest stuff.
and how your confidence is just jaw-dropping. always claiming to be the most good-looking member from time to time.
your amazing amazing sense of humor and impeccable logic that always makes us feel torn between confused and laughing our ass off. my witty witty jonghyun.
my witty yet dumb dumbhyun, even tho you're really witty, you do things that are so dumb yet so endearing i think dumbhyun is one of your nicknames i love the most. together with your jinki hyung, our dumb and dumber duo. haha.
but even after seeing your obnoxious, dumb, over-confident self, i still know, will always know, that you someone who's thoughtful. and you always love with your whole heart. live with all your passion.
i remember all the times when you were hurt.
i cried so much every time anything bad happens to you because i'm always worried about how you'll blame yourself. it's not your fault. it never was. things happen. we'll make it through together.
BUT i can't believe you got into an accident a week before your birthday.. my dumbhyun.
please get well soon! we all miss you!!!
i think every year for your birthday, i always wished that you'll never ever change.
cos kim jonghyun. you are perfect. let me repeat this.
kim jonghyun, you. are. perfect.
even with all your flaws. because they are not flaws, they are the things that make you our jonghyun.
thank you for teaching me to never give up my dreams. no matter how hard things are.
thank you for teaching me that i have to be brave to choose what i want. to be what i want to be.
thank you for teaching me what passion is. how to be passionate about what i do.
thank you. for being you. this wonderful, amazing, crazy, lovable, beautiful person.
someone, who i will never ever forget.
you might never ever ever read this post, kim jonghyun. but it's okay. haha!
i just hope that you'll be able to feel my love for you HAHA.
happy happy birthday.
please take good care of yourself.
i love you, kim jonghyun.
♡
