hi people... i'm still well and alive....

not in the mood to write stuff...so i'll answer some questions first then

1. What is your ULTIMATE favorite k-pop group?
SHINee

2. What is your favorite food?

hm...don't really have a fave cos i eat almost anything.

3. Who is the funniest k-pop idol you know of?
funniest? hmm.. hwangkwanghee tho he's more of a mix of annoying af and funny haha

4. What is the saddest k-pop song you’ve ever listened to?
saddest?probably some ost by baek jiyoung... i don't know. i'm not a big fan of sad songs.

5. How tall are you?
172? 5'7? idk. i haven't measured my height for a long time...

6. Which is your least favorite k-pop group?
don't have a least fave.. there's too much of them.

7. Who is your ULTIMATE bias?
jjongkey!

8. What is your favorite TV Show?
don't really have a fave one.... 娛樂百分百？or 我猜？ idk. i like 大學生了沒 too haha. all taiwanese variety tho lol.

9. How many relationships have you been in?
none. i've never been in a legit relationship before haha. <- idek what kind of laugh this is.

10. How long have you liked k-pop?
i've listened to SHINHWA before i liked kpop but i think i legitly fell for kpop since 2008.. since i knew SHINee haha

11. How many k-pop albums and posters do you own?

i dont remember but i think i have quite a few haha. 

woots only 11 questions today~

so yeah yesterday i went to UCD's the buzz. so it was okay i guess. the weather was nice and there were a lot of people. and of course a lot of cute guys too. /cute guys/

and yeah i was hoping to meet my "mint pants guy" there.. but didn't see him there. ended up going back to the apt early by walking. omg walking and it's so cold but yeah. had good dinner tho.

then jen asked us out on a sudden target trip and i'm like yeah let's go. and guess who i met there~~~~~ ((mint pants guy)) i was squealing lol. i'm such a creeper....

but tbh i still don't know why i'm so interested in that guy srsly he's not even /that/ cute. people, i mean, my bebes are probably going to question my life choices once they see him. and he got sososo tanned since summer ide. and guess what, he's wearing the same mint pants again with the same white top. and yes i'm starting to wonder how many pieces of clothing he actually owns cos i see him with those few pieces all the time. lol. well i'm not rly complaining tho since i like his mint pants so~ yeah. this is like a mini rant i'm typing so angrily it's not even supposed to be a rant. what am i doing rn... 

i was talking about this to jen and her reply was just "oh" i'm like oh okay then. :(  lol we really have so little things in common ide. but yeah i still love her cos she's the cutest and nicest thing everrrrr~ just that i find it a bit of a pity that we don't have more to talk about haha. 有點可惜。i usually have so much to talk about but yeah.... 

and yeah pls someone get me a bf so that i won't have to worry about how i look e.ve.ry.time i go out thanks. you know. they say girls get lazy when they alrd found a bf, bcos they don't have to look attractive to guys anymore lol. i wonder if it's true... well i'll probably be one of those types. like, the first month i'll look super pretty for him and then things just go downhill since then lol. i'm sorry future bf. and future hubby. but relax i'll still love you even if you grow old or smtg lol. 

and i realize that i have this tendency to like things that confuses me. well it's not rly me, but my brain. but i suppose it's the same? i don't know, i think i like people who are mentally challenging. lol. pls pay attention it's mentally challenging not mentally challenged. i mean, i'm already mentally challenged in some way and form i don't need someone with the same problems lol i need superior genes so that my offsprings can survive this crazy world. well my brain thinks confusing things are fun. mysterious things are fun too. things and ppl that i'd need my brain to help me figure out. 

well i'm just wondering whether anyone rly reads stuff in my blog or just close it up when they see the boring layout and after they check the pics out. pls just leave me a comment or something people. i want response manggg. this is a giddamnn blog not a diary. respond and i'll gladly reply if i have the time. :) i might be a bit crazy but i'm really a nice person. maybe abit socially awkward but yeah i'm nice.

and i freaking hate my new neighbors, they are noisy as fuck. 

why are girls so noisy. whyyyyyy~ stop talking and laughing loudly i feel like you're in my apt. invading my personal space. i want my old neighbors back. even though they have heavy steps but then are quiet. the girls living next door rn is really. getting on my nerves. i might burn their apt and burn something in their doorway someday. watch me. giggly girls. i'm so pissed right now i'm so in my rant mood. someone please feed me something sweet. 

annyeong♡

btw, i love onew. he's everyone's ideal type tbh. just saying.

hi... haven't been able to blog cos of the amount of assignments i have.

wish me luck people.

btw, i just got a new housemate~
and so far i rly like her~~ haha. she's interested in kpop too so i'm happy. lolol
what more can a fangirl ask for than having someone that shares the same interest~ 
so yeah. she's rly nice too so. i hope everything goes well hahaha

tmr is the first day for the fall semester in UCD~ have been waiting for it for ages lolol. 
and i'm still obsessed with the mint pants guy so yeah. i saw him twice today lol i'm a happy creeper. 

so yeah. just a quick update lol


annyeong♡

happy 22nd birthday Key!!!

yes it's that time of the year again :')  September 23rd!
i'm feeling a bit teary right now~ i can't believe that you're 22(21 internationally) this year! 
it feels just like yesterday, when i saw you in the A.Mi.Go MV and i fell for your cool rap~ 
yes, it's my almighty key's birthday :)

look at that beautiful face..
and yes i shall start my love confession and wishes *again* for key~ haha

first of all happy 22nd birthday my love~ 
i can't believe you're 22 already!! 4 years have passed so quickly since i knew you in 2008. 
thank you mr. and mrs. kim and of course key's dear grandma, for taking such good care of him, nurturing and teaching him so well that he matured into such an amazing person. especially key's grandma, i know how much he adores you, so thank you for all those years you spent in taking care of key :)

key~
i will never ever be able to stop admiring you. that beautiful face of yours. your pretty eyes that has that mischievous sparkle and looks extremely good with eyeliner. your high cheekbones which is the object of envy for a lot of people, how beautiful they make your face look when you smile. and of course your cute little nose and those pretty pink lips that makes fans go crazy when you smile or pout. also your cute ears which is filled with the coolest piercings ever~ 

you have the quirkiest and coolest fashion sense ever~ i always love those cute pieces you have.. well sometimes your love for fashion gets the better of you and the other boys ends up having to give up a lot of space for your clothes but i'm sure they'll understand haha. even if they don't you'll make them understand lol. 
and i love the way you make jjong your personal credit card haha. you can so see how jjong loves you so much he's willing to buy you anything you want haha. 

proof ^^^^^^^
look at how excited key is ohgod. this is why i love jjongkey to bits haha. key's like the boyfriend who always tricks his boyfriend to buy expensive things for him lolol. key, i think you're abit too excited you're going to burst into confetti haha i bet you also love jjong as much and you wanna show all shawols how much jjong loves you lolol. yes now i'm officially jealous of you key~ 

of course those are not the only things that makes me love you more and more everyday.
the things that really made me fell for you was that time you show how almighty you are on makbanshi. that was really the moment when i fell for you so so hard. how you're so good at almost everything. 
i love your bratty immature personality and the fact that you are so straight forward you'll say anything that's on your mind no matter how the other person feels. a lot of people might be hurt by your blunt words but once they know you they'll know that those words don't mean any harm. it's just the way you are. you're someone who i'd love as a friend cos i know you'll always mean what you say. maybe that's why you're so popular among the other idols and female friends? lol.
of course you rapping skills, your girl group dancing skills, and your voice. i love your voice. i just like every single thing about you.

thank you for inspiring me in every way possible. you're my source of fashion inspiration, my source of courage too~ the one who taught me how to just be myself, do what i like, no matter what other people say, cos we're just cool like that. hahaha i still have a lot to learn tho. to be as thick skinned and to be more straight forward. 

well of course there are times when i wonder what on earth did i see in a guy like you but yeah. you're the best key, yes you are~

yes this is why i love you. yes people will question my life choices like all the time so. it's okay. i will still love you haha.



readers it's okay to question my life choices but if you diss my baby key i will

and key will say something like thisssss

and i wish that key will stay that way till he's 82 years old. he said he wants kids that look like him so i'll be waiting for your mini-mes key. the world will be a more fab place with more people like you hahaha.


so once again happy birthday to our almighty diva key!!! love you much i hope the 22nd year of your life will be more fabulous than the ones before :D


annyeong♡
*honestly not too satisfied with this post but. it will do*

exo-k's ideal type (sina interview 120918)

imma translate a part of the sina interview exo-k did earlier today~ 

only the part when they talked about their ideal type lolol. i'm too lazy to translate others so~

suho: i like girls with long hair, and it's better if she likes to read. i usually imagine a scene where the girl is sitting by the windowsill and tucking her hair behind her ears while reading a book.
*suho likes classic beauties lol. i love reading too but i don't sit by the windowsill cos i don't have one lol i just sit on the floor in weird sitting positions. not very classy lolol*

baekhyun: i like girls that looks good in jeans.

*baek... baek likes girl with good lower bodies obviously hahaha. to look good in jeans means you have to at least have a nice butt and pretty thighs*

kai: i like girls who are gentle and passionate/affectionate.

*keke simple kai who likes passionate girls~ i bet he'd love it if the girl has a lot of passion for dancing too~*

sehun: i like girls who are bright and cheerful, and also they must be clean and neat.

*that's probably the reason why ohmija likes sticking around luhan~ luhan is rly the cheerful and playful type haha~*

d.o: firstly the girl must be kind, and i hope when she eats, she will eat it very well(probably means a girl who knows how to appreciate food?) and she must like to eat.

*babysoo~ if you're looking for a girl who loves to eat, i can be your ideal type lolol~ i will eat whatever you cook for me tbh*

chanyeol: i prefer girls who like to smile/laugh

*are you trying to make a happy virus duo lol. your kids will be mini happy viruses lol*

the boys were really cute and cheerful and noisy during the interview~ i love it when they get noisy like that. reminds me of shinee on interviews keke.

quite a lot of inside info from kaisoo as well in the interview~

so kaisoo shares a room in the dorm so they like to watch variety shows and movies together at night. and to make it feel more like the movie theater they will buy popcorn and turn off all the lights. i was already losing my mind when they said that during the interview i mean, MY KAISOO FEELS MAAANGGG~ i mean, the two of them, in a dark room, lolol. *yaoi feels overload*

then when the interviewer asked babysoo if kai sings in the shower, he said instead of singing, kai dances in the shower lol. and there was once when babysoo walked in on kai when he was dancing in the shower omg!!! i mean i totally overlooked the dancing part i was like "OMG SOO SAW KAI NAKED WHILE DANCING, IN THE SHOWER" *more yaoi smut scenes mang* srsly kaisoo is killing me! kai's little re-enactment of the dance is so cute too~ kai said that he doesn't dance while showering all the time, only when he's really happy about something. soo is very lucky to have walked into the bathroom while kai was dancing lol. 

then kai also said that at first soo's food was really good but lately it has got more and more simple, like bibimbap~ *for those who doesn't know what bibimbap is it's basically rice with some veggies and meat on top and you eat it by mixing everything. bibimbap literally means mixed rice* i was like kai pls, you get to eat food made by babysoo, don't complain haha~ and babysoo said that rather than liking to cook, he likes the moment where he gets to cook with all the other members~ so sweeeeet~~~ 

shall wait till someone upload the vid on YT~~~ shall watch it again hahaha

i'm posting this just bcos of all my feels ide. so yeah

forgive my messy translations and feels scattered everywhere.

annyeong♡

plus this is the first time i shed legit tears for exo. 
welcome to jane's little heart :) 
you're now holders of a membership card into jane's heart for an eternity haha.
17/9/2012 is a good day for exo...
a very good day indeed. :)

hurraaaay my boys just won an award!!!
exo-m babies won an award in china!!! exo won an award for the best costume as well!!
congrats to my babies
my 12 new babies who are still so young~ to win something like this means so much to you guys i bet.
i hope exo-k will win a daesang too later this year~ exo fans, hwaiting!!!
let's make exo the happiest rookie group this year~

and to my exo babies, chukhae!!
恭喜你們！什麼辛苦的事情或過程，現在應該會覺得超級值得的吧？ 有那麼多愛你們的飯！我也超愛你們的！ 雖然 如果比起愛SHINee的心 會有差，可是請理解我這個小小飯的心。。。 我認識你們前輩的日子比認識你們的多很多，所以愛他們的心也會比愛你們的心大多了 哈哈
可是現在你們才出道不到一年，以後要走得路還很長呢！一定要加油，要堅持下去！ 不可以放棄。以後會更辛苦，可是愛你們的飯也會更多。
希望橙橙和包子趕快學會中文！加油啦～～～
如果有一天我不再像今天的那麼愛你們，我一定還會支持你們的。因為你們現在是我的寶貝，以後也是我的寶貝，永遠都是我的寶貝。從當我的寶貝的那瞬間開始，就一定會當我一輩子的寶貝。

超級超級愛你們。 我最可愛 又傻 又蠢 的12個小寶貝。 我17個最愛的寶貝們，我不會拋棄你們的。 :)
너무 너무 사랑해요 내 보배들 나의 소중한 사람들이..
지금은 보배들, 앞으로 보배들, 영원히 보배들, 보배들 사랑해!!!



i love you!



annyeong♡
i'm really happy today :) thanks to you my babies and bebes ♥

"young female human" talk

hi so i'm back again... 
it's 5 pm right now and i've just officially wasted another saturday. harhar

i'm supposed to do my humanities reading but ugh i am so not interested in the iliad.. achilles.. 
and i'm still having my "moment" here. it hasn't gone away yet ugh for the love of god and all things sparkly.

i don't know i feel like people around me are kinda hinting at me to find a bf already.... i don't know i feel like my mom is soooo enthusiastic in this lol. mom. i'm still single. sadly i haven't got a bf. please don't spread any rumors about me getting a bf. it will be very hard for me to get a guy if people think that i'm already attached so.. yeah haha.
i feel like this is going to become sooo repetitive but yes i'm going to talk about guys and "ideal types" *whatever that is* and random girls stuff again. yup. why? cos i feel like it and i just dont want to read the iliad. unless zeus can give me a perfect namja, maybe i'll read the iliad.

but then again maybe not. maybe next time homer, maybe next time~

if anyone asks me what my stand in dating is right now i can tell you i'm not really interested in dating lately.. i don't know why....
yes, i do feel jelly when i see those lovey dovey couples but i don't know if i want that too...
plus i haven't had a crush in ages. i mean for real. my "romance" life is boring as hell i bet hell is a lot more interesting. ugh. talking about hell reminds me of dante's inferno.. another book i have to read for my humanities class ugh so much to read woman so much to read~


talking about crushes, i don't know i'm probably too old for crushes lol. how young are u supposed to be to have a crush tho? junior high? high school? mid 30s? i don't think i'm made for crushes lolol. i used to have a few of those back when i was at junior high i think... but i was too shy and insecure to make any moves lol. i'm still shy and insecure lolol. *says a me who asked a random guy for a pic in socal* lol
i don't know i just feel like a crush is called a "crush" cos it crushes your heart in the end lol. and you probably have to be very lucky to get a crush who actually crushes on you too. so, don't have crushes people lol. 
lately i found that instead of treating the guys i'm interested in as crushes, i think of them as targets.. i know it sounds weird coming from me but i personally think it's a whole lot better than having a crush haha.

well how the "target" thingy works is instead of you having a one-side love and pray to your gods *or not if you have none* that one day your crush will look at you, you go and make him a target, as someone who you try to attract. yeah in a nutshell it's just changing the passive "crushing" into the active "targeting" 

i mean yeah you'd have to be a little more thick skinned but you get a higher chance of getting the person of your interest so i guess it's kinda worth it haha. and your mindset changes too. you're not the one waiting for things to change, you're trying to change the situation. 
i'm not saying that i go and charge at the guy i like making things really obvious or just directly confessing.. srsly. do it subtly people. keep the class lol. don't make yourself look too easy[?] idk. it's rly easy to overdo it and turn into a creeper but i don't really mind looking creepy as long as i get noticed lol. getting noticed is always the first step~ 

i'm not sure about others but i think it's best to send signals from the eyes so eye contact is probably the next step that i would want to get~ it's always fun to do that. unless the target is really 白目*which means white eyes literally, but in this context it's used to describe a very clueless person who can't read signs* then there's nothing i can do. but i've tried sending signals thru my eyes and it worked so. haha. 
and please don't imagine it as if i keep on fluttering my eyes or wiggling my eyebrows, that is so.... ugh. hahhahaha. i don't even have a word for it lol. do it subtly lah~ with class lolol. subtle yet unforgettable. that's the hardest thing to achieve lol.

the best part in the whole dating experience in my opinion is either the first month or the "chasing" period. not that i've ever been in both but i just imagine it to be like that. the chasing period would be most fun i guess. you get nervous and stuff and first month is just the sweetest period where you just want to stick to each other every second haha. i kinda regret that i've never dated in high school. i wonder how it would feel lol. 


as for my ideal type, which never stops changing from time to time, is really ambiguous now haha.
i don't know.. as you age you'll forget about all the ideals and go for the feel instead hahahaha. but if i really had to pick out a certain type i could still say a few that i like about some people.
i really appreciate it when someone pays attention to details, someone who's observant. i also like those who have guts. i feel like i need a gutsy person to complement me haha. and people who put effort into making things. i think it's really cute. no frivolous words or expensive things needed. just a small handwritten card would be enough to make me smile the whole day. and i probably need someone who's trusting. i will give him the same amount of trust back too. but LDR can never work for me. i am too fickle minded to be left without the body of my bf lol. if something's not in front of my eyes all the time, i might forget about it completely. applies to bfs too lol. i need to be constantly reminded so yeah~ please tell me from time to time that you love me haha. they say action speaks louder than words but words are important too! i don't need someone who's gentle all the time, he can be a bit careless, which i think is cute if done adequately lol. but i would really prefer someone who's attentive. haha. i want to play the careless part lol. i also love love love people who have really weird sense of humor! the quirkier the better haha, especially if the jokes make people side-eye them hahaha. i personally don't like greasy guys, they are too oily to my liking lol.
if i was to pick one of my biases as the closest to my liking i would choose kim jonghyun. his personality is really amazing. something that i really want for my future bf to have lol. he's quirky enough to my liking, his jokes are the ones that makes people want to hit him on the face because it's just that weird. his short burst of tempers on variety shows are really manly imo haha i like manly men. the way he's so sarcastic about things, i think it will make things really interesting rather than having someone who smiles and says "yes it's really nice" to everything. very very playful yet at times so serious. whenever he performs on stage you can see how much he appreciates his fans. he'd do everything he can for the fans because he knows how much they love him and he wants to show his love too. in his own quirky and special way. just love that point a lot. also, he's fearless. he says whatever he want. just like Key. the first thing Key had that attracted me was his straight forwardness and his guts. but key, rather than being the type of guy i like, is closer to a person i look up to and want to become. at times where i need to speak in public or do new things, meet new people, i'd always always channel my inner Key lol. having Key as a best friend would be the best thing someone like me can have lol. 

if you ask me about outer appearances.. i would say it doesn't matter too much anymore haha. i know i like my oppars with hot bods but yeah i don't use that standard in real life. i know where that invisible line is haha. i don't have the body of a model so i won't really have the guts to want an abercrombie model-bodied guy lolol. it'd of course be nice if i could have one but yeah let's be realistic~ hahaha. bodies might not be very important to me but of course personal style is important to me hahaha. as someone who once wanted to be a fashion designer i may not have the best style out there but i still have a bit of my expectations left hahaha. simple fashion would be good as long as they know how to pick their basic pieces properly. some guys have a lot of trouble with colors so i really appreciate it when guys pick some basic pieces with special or uncommon colors. fail-proof way to wear things like that is to match it with a black or white piece. you can never go wrong with black and white if you want to wear something with an uncommon color. like that mint pants guy i've been interested in since spring, he always wears that pair of mint pants with a white top. and only once when he wore it with a grey wifebeater/tank top/sleeveless top *whatever you call it*. which still looks good. he has good taste lol. and bcos i'm a shoe fanatic i really really pay a lot of attention to a guy's shoes so if you had good shoes i would probably like you as a person lolol. okay maybe not that easy but i'd give you a lot of points for nice shoes especially ones that match the outfit~ ugh i love love it~ hahahah i hate hate it when guys decide to wear nice clothes and then just match with a pair of "whatever" footwear. imma kill you and burn your shoes lolol. i'm a bit anal when it comes to shoes, it's just me. haha. some girls don't care so guys who are reading this please remember this is me. not all girls. 

but yeah guys when a girl says she likes guys who wears a particular piece of clothing, for exampe, she said "i like it when guys wear v-neck white tops" it doesn't mean it applies to every guy. it probably meant she likes guys who looks good in v-neck white tops. not guys in general, who wears v-neck white tops. so yeah. learn the female human language, it will benefit you a lot haha. 


ooh i wrote a lot... since it's 1 am now hahaha
i took such a long time to write all this shit instead of reading the iliad..i'll have to spend my sunday with achilles then..... no. just no. TT 

and i don't know whether i'll be going to KCON but i hope i will.... or my iew bebe will set me on fire. 

i am such a capricious human haha. i don't even know what to do with myself anymore. i think i need like a bf or a life instructor of some kind maybe. haha. just someone to set my life straight lolol. 


wish me luck readers.. once i survive this semester i'll be going home. for 3 weeks only tho lolol winter break~! i'm not going back to indo for good lolol. 

look at freaking ohmija he's so on crack i should give him less pocket money. *i think i'm the one who's on crack*

i miss asia so fucking muchhh i miss singapore's malls a lot like a lot the malls here are just too wide i prefer the crowded asian malls the more people the better. north america is too freaking big and wide ugh. 
/rants/

so. 




annyeong♡
*i think imma do more of the "young female human" talk since i have so much crap in my brain*

my "moment"

hi readers~
i'm having random attacks of "moments" right now.
i think i'm losing my sanity~~~ but then again i think you guys all know i never had much to begin with..

just wanna talk about some stuffs that happened on these few days..
so thursday was obviously a "good" day..
i was greeted by a girlxgirl couple kissing in the middle of campus~ i actually enjoyed the view lol
one of the girls actually sat across of me on the light rail~ now i've seen both guyxguy kissing and girlxgirl kissing. but both are just the soft pecks type of kiss not the full blown make out session type so it's okay i guess haha. 
then the day went by quite normally i guess... idk. but i feel a bit burdened by my anthropology assignment tho. i need to interview strangers ugh my social awkwardnessss TT
but yeah i think i'll survive it lol.

then on my way back i was on the same light rail with a bunch of high school kids.. i suddenly felt as if i lost my energy lol. am i really that old? i mean i only left high school last year~ but i lost all my vigor already. i never had much to begin with tho so. idk. i feel old like old. ugh it's too early to feel that way but i just can't help it~ plus 2 of them who stood across of me complimented my tee, which honestly made me wonder what they were staring before they figured out that there's a clown's face on my tee since the clown's eyes were on my boobs so yeah i think they might be staring at my nonexistent boobs for quite some time before figuring things out so... idk. the black kid was kinda cute tho lolol. he smiled and said bye to me when he got off the light rail. i like polite cute kids. haha
when i was walking to the bus stop at downtown sac, an outrageous thing happened. 
so there was this old guy who was getting off the light rail and he had a luggage and a box. bcos he can't carry both he decided to throw his stuffs out of the light rail before getting off. but before he had the chance to get off the door closed on him and the light rail just went off. i was so shocked~ then there were these bunch of guys who were hanging out, who just ran to the luggage and box and decided to carry it away. i don't even know what happened in the end but boy i feel bad for that old guy if those guys decided to just take his stuff away. /smh/

then when i finally got on the bus i decided to check my bag and found out that my apt key wasnt in my bag.. i didn't even freak out i was just like crap did i leave it at home so i texted my roommate and cousin. turned out i left my key on the front door. just stuck to the keyhole. very good jane, very good indeed... thank god no one took it. ugh my pretty cat charm is on that key i need that charm. 

all in all thursday was an interesting day~ 
and a tiring one indeed. the moment i got to the apt i just slept for 2 hours straight..



and yeah one of my friends asked me to go to the KCON USA with her.
i want to go but i'm having second thoughts i dont even know why... i'd get to meet exo-m, b.a.p, 4minute, and nu'est live and probably get their autographs too.
but i don't know i'm not that excited hahaha. i bet if shinee was one of the performers i'd fly to socal if i had to lol. i don't know i'm so confused why are you so confused jane. why?

am i finally really getting tired of kpop? when i told my friends i'm going to quit kpop all of them had the same reaction. impossible. every one of them said that it's impossible lol. i guess i have to agree.. i'm just having a "moment" here i guess haha. 


idk mang idk~ i'm just confused. and tired. i kept on having dreams about traveling these days. always in airports, harbors, just anywhere except here in davis. i think my brain just can't wait to go home already...
i bet you want a holiday brain. i know you do. 


plus plus plus a SHOUTOUT FOR MY BEBE IEW BEBE I LOVE YOU SFM LOL 

i'll tell you once i decide whether i'm going to kcon bebe. i'll tell u~~






so. 

annyeong ♡

*my latest obsession lee hyunwoo why are you so cute* 

hurhur

hey i'm back with more Q&As cos i am in no mood to write stuff properly..

right now the only thing in my head is the date that i'll be back home... i just can't wait to go back. like. i want to be back right now. 

the flight is confirmed and i bet i've written about this in one of my previous post but i shall write it again..

i'll be going back to indo on a flight from SF on dec 23rd and will be arriving at indo at 1am on christmas. yeah time difference totally ate dec 24th hurhur i lost a day just like that. but it's alright i'll be flying with santa so yeah. 

anyone remotely interested in picking me up from changi at 1 am. pls contact me thru anyways possible. *by that i mean twitter or fb or my phone* 

by the way i removed my blog link from my fb... because of reasons i cannot elaborate... it's too dangerous :) 

so yeah let's start answering some random questions again. i bet i have a lot to say~

leggo~

01. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
the person i like? which one? haha. okay i'll just tell you about the guy i'm interested in right now since i don't think i like him. like is such a serious word. so, that guy's nickname is mint pants guy, cos i honestly don't know his real name. i dont even think he knows that i exist but yeah i started liking him bcos of his mint pants lol. and the fact that the first time i met him, he was helping his friend with a task so yeah. very interested in him. but idk if i like him or not haha

02. what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
my fat is bothering me lol. okay no. nothing on my body is bothering me too much..maybe my brain abit but yeah nothing else.

03. what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
kai is so fucking hot i want to hug him so freaking bad. lol

04. what are you listening to?

L'Arc~en~Ciel's MY HEAR DRAWS A DREAM... i miss them from time to time so haha~ 

05. what’s something you’re not looking forward to?
i'm not looking forward to my writing classes cos i suck hard at writing stuff ugh. why do i even own a blog, why do you guys even read my posts ohgodwhy...

06. where do you think your best friend is right now?
which best friend. i have a lot okay. they are everywhere.

07. have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
i kissed myself lol ::forever alone::

08. sex on the first date?
no. i don't think things shld escalate that quickly

09. kiss on the first date?
hmm... a light peck should be okay. no tongues on first dates pls unless you knew each other waaaay long before you dated. that's a maybe.

10. is there one person you want to be with right now?
i want to be with... i can't pick only one of my bebes or my 17 kids... so..... idk. ugh. so no there's no ONE person i want to be with i want to be with a group of people 

11. are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
i can't say that i'm truly happy but, yeah i'm contented i think.. 

12. is there something you would like to say to someone?
to mint pant guy : hey it would be nice if you could notice me one day and smile to me and we can exchange phone numbers or something i'm really interested in you and your cute blank face when you drive and your voice. okay i'm a creeper i know but yeah. nice to meet you lol 

13. what are five things you did today?
ohgod. i ate, tweet-ed, watched drama, chatted with my cousin and washed my dishes. 

14. would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
have them over.. well both works actually, as long as i have my laptop with me hurhur

15. what is your favorite kind of gum?
the regular kind[?] idk but i'm not a fan of gum balls. 

16. are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
i dont even have an ex hurhur. 

17. what is on your wrists right now?
a bracelet slash hair band thingy that looks like a phone cord. my iew bebe gave it to me lol

18. ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
oh yeah. flirted with him even though i know he'd never be mine lol.

19. does anyone have strong feelings for you?

shouldn't you be asking them instead of me?

20. are you slowly drifting away from someone?
hmm.. i do feel so.. but i hope i was only thinking too much... i don't want to have to repeat all those stupid things. ugh.

21. have you ever wasted your time on someone?
probably yes.

22. can you do the alphabet in sign language?
nope. i wish i can. maybe i shld enroll to a sign language class next term?

23. how have you felt today?
quite relaxed and regretting it abit now cos i feel like my day is soooo unproductive ugh wasted another saturday hurhur

24. you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
hmm.. i'd probably buy clothes with it. or maybe save it for my albums?

25. what is wrong with you right now?
nothing much just that i'm abit too excited about going back home which wont happen in 4 months hurhur

26. is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
probably myself.. i don't know.. i never expected people to do things for me so.. 

27. would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
jamba juice~ i'm not a fan of coffee nor caffeine

28. why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
because i have no ex to be in love with haha. 

29. how late did you stay up last night and why?
3? bcos my cousin went back at around 2:30.. 

30. when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
talked? a long time ago i think... we tweet and chat and whatsapp all the time tho haha

31. what were you doing an hour ago?
hmm... watching a drama. my ajusshiii~~~

32. what are you looking forward to in the next month?
october? probably halloween haha

33. are you wearing jeans right now?

nope

34. are you a patient person?
not really. i can act like i'm patient but i would be cursing inside haha

35. do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
yep if i really really really like the person i'm dating. and i do hope that i can cos i want to get married haha

36. favorite color?
currently in love with all shades of blue and mint! mint!!! mint pants lol

37. did you have a dream last night?
yep a weird one too.. buying stuff in the supermarket with my indo friends. in a very old supermarket back at home too lol. i miss home toooooo much!

38. are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
beach pants lol. i wear beach pants to sleep. problem?

39. if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
kris.. or kai? i can't decide haha 

40. do you love anyone who is not related to you?
yes i love my bebes and my 17 kids a lot.

41. if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
yes. just tell me if you like me or hate me or love me or want me to die just tell me i'm so curious of what people think of me i don't even....

42. do you like meeting new people?
not really..... unless they're all good looking guys,i'd say yessss

43. are you afraid of falling in love?
probably.. romantic love.. platonic love and love towards my bebes and 17 kids are different. those love i love fearlessly haha.

44. ever self-harmed or starved yourself?
yes. i was an idiot back then. i promised myself i would never hurt myself ever again. 

45. has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

yes. :) 

46. have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

yes. so freaking many times. so worried that i'm not good enough for this or that. worried that i might disappoint someone. 

okay that's all.... i'm soooo not in the mood to do any writing ugh but i have to at least get a B in my writing class.. my GPA.. ughhh janeee keep your head together you have to survive this shit. 

sorry but i think i agree with you jane....

i will be in deepshit if i don't get better scores from now on~ jane keep your shit together.

by the way i bought a rly cute white dress yesterday hurhur i am so happy i am always happy when i go shopping haha. 

and i decided that i will never ever wear any bright colored pants cos they make my thighs look so thick i think i wanted to cry when i tried those creamy pink colored pants yesterday 

just so you know almost half of my wardrobe is filled with f21 clothes thanks to the fact that davis only has f21... i am so unfashionable i dont even...... well at least the clothes fit me so yeah i have nothing to complain... 

i think i need to sleep now.. a lot of essay to do tmr i might cry abit....

cutiepie leehyunwoo sending you guys off look at that stupid grin

annyeong♡