HI 2010!!!!

yeaaaaayy.
first official post in 2010.
happy new year to me.
happy new year to me.
happy new year,happy new year.
happy new year to me.

feeling quite ......... rite now.liek not really excited nor happy nor sad nor anything.
feels like any other night.
just a lot more noisier.and brighter.hha.
not really getting the feel.just feel so surreal.just couldn't believe it's not 2009 already.
it's 2010,jane.wake up.it's liek not 2009 already.

2009 really felt like a dream.so quick.so blurred.
a bit sad but also relieved that 2009 is officially last year.
sad.because i'll get older.hhahah.not a very good reason.
actually sad because i had a lot of fun in 2009.
relieved because at least the bad endings of 2009 will stay in 2009.
please don't let 2010 have a bad start.please.

anyway,this afternoon i watched a film on HBO.it was called 'THE HAPPENING'
it was waaaay COOOOL.personal opinion though.
it was a thriller.involving plants.*i was liek yay!a revenge from plants
it was about plants releasing some kind of neurotoxin's which makes human suicidal.
i was liek,'now you're scared huh,people.i mean plants don't attack u liek animals,they make u kill urself.how cool is that.hhah.
i myself was biased to plants in this case.i mean,we humans should really care for the Earth and plants.
and even though this film was nominated for worst movie or something like that.i really like it.hha.
mostly because of the plants.i really love plants.i mean,they will never hurt your feelings.hhah.

anyway.i truly wishes everyone a happy new year.
and i saw an E.L.F sending happy new year greeting to SUNGMIN on TV just now.hhah.
i'm kinda an E.L.F*SJ,Primadonna*FTI and fans of SHINee.*i dunno what they call their fans.hha.mian.
so i wish all my oppa's and 1 dongsaeng*that's TAEMIN. a happy new year.!!
wish u all the best in whatever u do.just don't break your fans' heart.hha

and to all my FRIENDS or as koreans say CHINGU, happy new year.
wish us all the best.i love u guys.endlessly.hhaha.
and to my FAM.love u.thanks for being with me since the day i breathed in this world.hha.
happy new year.

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RE.SOLUTION

2009 is ending...
can't believe how quick this year comes and go.
can't help but think about SHINee's song, Y.O.U
there was this sentence which says
""Years will come and years will go.
The good days and even the bad days""

 2009 is a year filled with joy, tears, anger, disappointment, success and love.
>joy...i really yearn for joy.every second,minute,hours,days.
>tears...those i shed, even after i tried to hold it in,i fought so hard to stop it from flowing.
>anger...there were times i was angry with many people.i hoped i could dig a hole and live in there for a week or so.just to forget how angry i was.
>disapointment...not much happened.and i hope i could maintain it.a heart cannot withstand too much disappointment.
>success...not big ones.small,simple ones.it makes me happy already.
>love...love my family and friends and those around me.i couldn't imagine a life without them.as for love for relationships..i don't really need it yet,i think.but sometimes i sure wish i could meet a prince charming.hhah

i had done flashbacks before.so i don't think i need another one.
but now i need resolutions for 2010.targets for the new year.

JANE'S NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
1. to lose WEIGHT
>losing weight was never my resolution.the reason now it's my resolution is because...i need to get in shape.being overweight is not good for my health.
>also another reason is...my love for FASHION.hhah.for the sake of KARL LAGERFELD,i shall lose weight to be able to wear his clothes nicely.hhaha.*crazy
2. to study harder
>it's not like i didn't study.but i need to study harder.for the sake of my brain and soul.*so drama*.
>ok.the truth is,my grades are not the best.so of course i need to study harder.hhah
3. to know what i WANT
>i never really knew what i wanted.i should really find some goals in life.
4. to be ultra CONFIDENT
>i'm not shy.just doesn't like to be in the lime light.i hate bright lights.hha
>ok.i'm just afraid that i will liek lose my head in front of a lot of people.i will liek embarassed myself.
5. to be TRUE to myself and everybody
>i ultra need that.i have been decieving myself for too long.trying to make myself believe that it's ok to do those things i don't like.
>i also need to say the truth.even if i really don't want to hear it.must not self hypnotize.bad habit.
6. to know more people
>expand my friend group.know many types of people.nice ones, jerks, bimbos, nerds.all of those.
7.to know how to TALK
>not just any talk.talk..it's the way i speak to everyone.how i put my words into sentences.not just crappy things out of my mouth.it's self controllllll
8. to have more SELF CONTROL
>d'uh.liek everybody needs that.i terribly need that.i can't really keep emotions to myself.bad.not good.devastating.*DRAMA.


those are my current resolutions.maybe will add some more later.
that might suffice for now.
i really want to type craps again.noooo.control yourself janeee.

sad news

fiuhh.back at home now.
home sweet home.
must be wondering where i have been.
i won't say anything about it yet though,not in the mood to talk about the trip yet.

do u still remember,i have an assignment from my friend, DWIKI, to make lyrics.
and i haven't even started yet.
i was*and still am* liek.omigosh.what the hell shall i do.?liek.i haven't even started yet.
liek i have 0 experience in love and blablablas.he said,it's easy.liek 5 minutes and u'll be done.i was liek.so why didn't u write it yourself.but he said.just write,it's easy.
now i'm liek.omigosh i so regret that i agreed to do it for him.i need help...

to tell u the truth..i don't even know how to write songs.in english that is.the reason is...
i haven't listened to an english song liek for a few weeks.u want a lyric in korean.?
or mandarin.?or japanese.?

this sounds so much like a confession.........
omigosh now i'm crazy.
and i think i know why.
it's because of SUPER JUNIOR.
my oppas...what should i do if u are gone.?
will i lose my mind?
i was liek ultra depressed when i heard HANKYUNG was leaving SJ.
i wanted to cry so much.it's so depressing.SJ must remain 13.
even though i'm not some crazy fangirlish type of a person, i will still feel liek ultra sad if SJ is disbanded.
what will happen to all the E.L.F.s if u leave.?
i want to cry so much right now...
kinda stupid.but who cares.

maybe HANKYUNG can be my inspiration for the lyrics.
nice idea...but i still want to cry thinking of him.
why is SME so unfair to such a kindhearted guy.kinda hate SME rite now.
HANKYUNG liek contributed a lot to SJM.liek...liek.....a lotttt.lott
*sobs.
and i guess HEECHUL will be sobbing too if that happens.liek..HANKYUNG is his brother or something.they are liek so close.
i can't imagine how HEECHUL would be.liek throwing every single thing in the house into pieces in rage.migosh.scary.
both oppas that i love.*sobs

ok.now i dunno what to write anymore...
drowning in sadness.*so DRAMA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONEW~

happy birthday to SHINee's Leader Onew.
i really love your voice.i think u got better at singing lately.
hhah.
an adult already.must take care of your dongsaengs.
hahahahha.
especially KEY.*bias. hahahhaha.
but i think it's KEY umma who takes care of everyone.hahahha.
nevertheless, wish ONEW all the best.and wish SHINee all the best.
hhaha.

am watching SHINee's JoJo performance on youtube.
it was a performance on 091211.@ MuBank.
mm.i love that song.but the clothes they were wearing...not good.
the dance was not the best either.but i don't really think the song needs a dance anyway.hahahah
i loved MINHO's hair though.hha.NICE.
i think he grew taller. -_______-
such a tall kid.184 and still growing.others are left behind.hha.
*envy.envy *_*
where can i find a guy that tall here.?o where o where can he be.???
i'm kinda waiting for the SHINee Girl performance.
i love that song alottt.more than JoJo.

today i tried my new BOURJOIS VOLUME CLUBBING MASCARA.

nice.my lashes looks so thick.hha.
love it a lot.but still love my MAJOLICA MAJORCA.
it looks more natural.hha.
i'm still searching for more mascaras.my eyelashes are close to bald.
hhaha.so thin.
i so envy those with thick lashes.no need for mascara.hhahah.
i feel kinda naked sometimes if i don't use my mascara when i go out with my friends.hha.
a strange notion.hha.

source: mh1209

credit: weareshining

MINHO sure got big eyes.

hhah.i think sometimes he will fear that it will pop out from it's frame.hahahha

source: mh1209

credit: weareshining

look at the tall MINHO.hha.
but his hair is too long.need haircut.hha.
i love it when he wears clothes like these.makes him look taller.hahahah.
 
i was supposed to talk about ONEW.hha
but i talked a lot about MINHO insted.*mian.
mm.what i like about ONEW.?
his smile.hha.his white teeth.
i think he's the type of person who is kind and loveable.
not like KEY.the drama queen and sometimes annoying type.hahhaha
 
i found out that MINHO is good at mimicking other people's voices.
hahahahah.nice.
 
that's all for today then.i think..
must take a bath then got MANDARIN course.*ahh.nooo
and then study PHYSICS...*aaaaahh.nooo...

FLASHBACK.*woooshhhh

it's the last day of the 2nd week in the last month of 2009.
i couldn't believe how quick time was passing.
in a blink of an eye a year has gone.
i still remember that i spent the last seconds of 2008 at ocarina with ayu and sheila.
2009 was a very quick year.but i have got a lot of memories in my head.sad ones and happy ones.

i think i need a quick recap of what i did this year.
mm.first day of 2009.spent with ayu,sheila,and my family.
then a lot of blurred images of school...
then chinese new year.short hair.spent in tg balai and tg pinang.
then a lot of blablabla from teachers.then final exams.
then i was officialy a student in the science class.
then.first day of science class.13 students in my class.
david,dwiki,hanung,helsa,abeng,me,jessy,jum,justi,rizki,rubby,shirley,shirling.
this list of names sure establishes that this class was going to be a strange and quirky one.
then after a few weeks in that class.helsa left us to go to malay.
i was like TT^TT
she asked me to go with her.i said maybe...
then class continued.problems come and go.
we got closer and closer to each other.went out frequently.
a lot of hahahahahah.
then first term exam.
first week of first term exam.
i was quite proud of myself actually.
i got 83 for my math.yippe.i passed my own target of getting higher scores than 80.
but it was a close shave though.so i need to work harder.FIGHTING.!!!
then i got 74 for chem.i was liek 'wow.i can get a 74 for a test that was hard like hell.good job,jane.you've done yourself proud.'
but the good news belonged to me only.
my dear friend dwiki, apparently got bad news.
his scores for math is the lowest in class.
and his chem is only average.
he looked superduperly depressed when he saw his scores.
i was liek.'my gosh.whatever shall u do.mybe switch course to the social class.?'
he was liek.'whatevershallido?'and not listening anymore.
*the story is based on half fact and half imagination of my deary brain.hha
then for the other subjects.still no news.so i guess no news is good news then.
hha.
then yesterday.baked tonnes*which meant 2 jars* of cookies.
gave one box for birthday boy robin.it was his 18th birthday*i think.
and a few days ago.on 9th dec was our -FLAMING CHARISMA- CHOI MINHO's 18th(19th in korea) birthday.
생일 축하합니다
then tommorow.is -TOFU LEADER- ONEW's 20th(21st in korean) birthday.
and then on 17th is JAEJIN's 17th(18th in korean) birthday.hurray.
last day of exams also.double happiness.
extremely happy.will go out with dear SHERY to celebrate it.hha

yesterday FT Island was in singapore.
waiihhh.so sad.
i finally understand what people meant by so near yet so far.
although people usually use that phrase to explain love i used it to explain me and FT Island.
JAEJIN...HONGKI...JONGHOON...SEUNGHYUN...MINHWAN....
$85.got no money....my parents will never give me the money to wacth a concert.
i will cheer myself up by downloading tons of songs.hha

credits : morishita7 @ photobucket.com

i was browsing seunghyun's pics when i saw this one.
i think that seunghyun's smile looks a bit like lee seung gi's.
the same kind of teeth,i think.and also same chubby cheeks too.hha

i was randomly thinking again.what if i meet someone who looks exactly like me.
hha.that would be nice.
and also if i had a friend who has a name just like me.
then if i saw her somewhere i would shout out my own name.
hha.so strange.

mm.i think that's it for today then.
will post more if i have time before the HOLIDAYSSS.
wohooooo.
:DDDDD

but now i have to study my BIOLOGY.
ahhhh.noooooooooo.......*falling back into reality
DDDDD:

AHHH.THE END IS NEAR.

YEPP.the end of 2009 is near.
and so is the end of the first semester of year 11.
TT^TT
the final exam is coming.*panicks
must study super hard.!!!!
math...trigonometry.aaahhhh.my head will burst into a million pieces just thinking about it.

must make presentation now.
ahhh.don't know what topic to present.
maybe i'll present about Jean-Charles de Castelbajac.
i always loved his artworks.or i should say designs.
<3<3<3

nadya called just now.talked about some unimportant things.but at least i can be a listener for her.
she seems to be so stressed.i hope she will be fine.
miss her so much.let's meet this december.hha
<33333

then.another problem that bugs me right now.
is my STUPID SCHOOL.arrgghhh.
how could they do thatt.?
there are no b.indo teacher at school.in my class the teacher is replaced by my karate teacher.
*so SE MO.!!?
what will happen to those grade 12 and 9 students.
their fate is undescribable.*is it even a word.?

mm.then...i need to write lyrics for my dearest friend, dwiki -jaejin-*?!!* febrian.
what kind of lyrics shall i make.no inspiration.my brain is so DEAD.
DDDD:

wish me good luck for my exam then.
i think that's all i can say for now.