last post of 2011

hi baby readers~
this shall be my last post in 2011~


so usually 'last post of the year' type of posts are filled with thousands of flashbacks and of course a bunch of new year resolutions~ i didn't make a post about it last year cos i was too busy being busy with something else i think..i left my blog on hiatus for months! >< i still feel so bad about it.probably lost readers at that time. :( 
but i did make one on 2009..and i think i achieved most of it except for the 'LOSE WEIGHT' part.omg i totally totally did not lose much weight..and guess what,my dad totally bought me a book about diet for me lol. he's been the one who's controlling what i eat for years.i think my mom doesn't even care haha.


this year i dont really think i will make a list of resolutions like i did in 2009..maybe just point out a few role models.and of course the must have 'memory lane'.. every year i have a love hate relationship with the year itself but this year i think i have more love for it than hate..
the things that made me love 2011:
-i graduated from highschool together with a bunch of really really close friends..i studied hard and finally got the score i've always wanted~
-i got to go to Taiwan for 3 months! where i met a lot of new friends,a few has become close friends that i think i will want to have for the rest of my life haha. and of course the new experiences i had there. unforgettable!
-i finally went to my first concert! and it was my fave group! SHINee World Concert SG 10.9.2011,the best day of 2011!!!
-and i was accepted to the college i enrolled in the US.i got my visa and will leave tomorrow. new start for a new year..


i have some friends questioning why i wanted to go to the US so soon..why not go on 5th Jan..i don't know either,it's not like i can't wait to leave,but i just felt that the sooner i got there the faster i can adapt.and it's not like i won't come back to this small island anymore.though it's small and kinda annoying at times,it's still where i spent the early years of my life!where i met a lot of people who became oh so important to me.


also i would like to dedicate this post to a few of my bebes who made me something i can bring before i left.
thank you so very much shery dessy and iwen for your heartfelt presents..it really means a lot that you guys actually spared time to make handmade stuffs for me. 

angela and jennifer,thanks for your presents as well!
i love those presents a lot,and relax,you guys will have the nicest souvenir when i come back haha!


and yes i have a policy that says,if you don't give me anything before i leave,you won't get anything when i come back. haha *i'm still deciding whether this is a joke or not* so beware ;p


i also had the hardest time of my 18 year life in 2011.the amount of stress i handled this year was so massive that 2011 is also the year i fell ill the most~i'm a strong baby you know,i hardly fall sick~but lately has been down with flu for so many times~
but compared to what i got,i think it's worth it..so 2011 i love you haha!




well,i said there are no resolutions but role models for 2012..so here i go..
my role models are SHINee.i know some of you might think 'oh gosh here goes another fangirl episode.' but no,the things you're about to read are heartfelt feelings of mine.
there was a random post on tumblr that made me decide that SHINee members are people who can be taken as role models.it was a post where i had to choose which members suits the following conditions,and the conditions were,'the member who you like most,the member who you want to be like,the member who is most like you' and so on..it actually took me some time to fill in the blanks to those questions.i was really thinking hard,especially the question about the member that was most alike to me and the one that i want to be like..
my answer to the member who was most alike to me was ONEW~!!
why him? well,even though i'm not completely like him,but the others were too far from my personality haha. i think his Onew Sangtae is something that i have in common with him..we just love to accidentally drop things and fall.

and also even when he speaks really well on variety shows,he will give other members a chance to show themselves.in some way i'm like that too*i think* haha


and for the member i want to be like,i answered Key at that time,but i think it's SHINee as a whole~!!
there's a bit of every member that i want to be like..
starting from the most precious leader ONEW..
i want to be down to earth like him, also to have great variety sense..he's basically the most witty talker in SHINee. i want to be witty and funny as well!! i think i'm too 'wooden' lol. i need to learn gags from him haha.
next is the charming main vocal JONGHYUN~~
i want to be relaxed like him, and still be like him when he use every bit of his strength and soul to do the things he love..he's really the type i would like to spend a long time together with. hahaha
then the almighty diva KEY!!!
he's been my role model since i saw him on Maknae Rebellion..he's basically everything i wanted to ever be. blunt at talking, able to speak whatever he want, he's good at almost everything he says he can do so he can be so cocky about it, and of course his daring yet fabulous fashion sense! 
after that, flaming charisma MINHO~
i want his competitiveness. to try to win every possible contest there is in this world. i need to be competitive like him,or else i would be left out by everyone else. haha
last but not least, baby maknae TAEMIN!
although sometimes he's just an awkward kid, i want to be like him when he's dancing on stage.he knew what he wants and gave his everything to do his best on stage..and for extra,i would also like to have his face very much haha.he's so pretty!




so my target for 2012 -> to be more and more alike to my favorite idols! :D




and this is like the fangirl side note..
i'm totally trying to rediscover my love for minho..i guess if i was to like a group i have to love them equally..although i'm sure i'll still have more jjongkey pics in my folder..i cant help it they look so good ;p






hmm~i think i shall stop writing here~
running late for a BBQ party with my friends!






wishing all my readers a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
may all of your wishes come true in 2012!
see you guys next year!
annyeong~♡♡♡

Christmas Eve~ and it's Christmas by the time i post this.

hi darling readers..it's the favorite time of the year again!well,for some of you..
yes it's the night before Christmas,the night when Santa sneak into your rooms to put your presents..well,too bad my family doesn't believe in Santa,and Santa never give presents to non-believers.haha.
okay,i don't know whether it's true but seems quite legit for an excuse.let's not dash someone's dream and say that Santa does not exist is too busy~
another bad news is that i'm living in Indonesia and it definitely DOES NOT SNOW in here~ but then again i think God tried to send some snow here but it melted on the way cos it sure is raining right now. THANK YOU GOD~ ;*




i sure have a lot to say now that most of my old challenges are over~i'm going to level-up now~another new challenge awaits me.
first of all i would like to proudly announce that i have been accepted at the college i enrolled into and successfully obtained my visa from the embassy~i was ecstatic and still am very thankful to all the people who encouraged me and guided me along the way. including my cousin Dewi, Linda and my 3rd uncle~


might as well tell you guys the journey to obtaining my visa since i'm in the mood~
flew to jakarta on the 18th to get it,obviously,cos i live in a damn small island which is lucky to be near Singapore so that it's at least noticed..i used to have a hard time explaining where i live but then again i always say "it's a small island next to singapore." it sure saved me a lot of time.
so went there early Monday morn to queue,got inside the building and led to another place to queue..in total i had to queue 6 times in just 2-3 hours. but then i got a cute guy beside me in the queue all the time,he ended up seating next to me everytime even when we can choose our own seats without order. i really really wish for a cute guy sitting next to me on my flight..or at least someone who's quiet and minds their own business..babies are the worst.i'm sorry babies,no hard feelings.i just hate it when you cry.
and after 2 hours of queuing and less than 10 mins of interview i finally got my visa~~

after the visa, went shopping with my mom. i mean,we're at jakarta,how can we not shop! but then both mom and i were dead beat from waking up at 5am so we ended up going back to the place we stayed for a siesta~ sounds real nice,SIESTA..but honestly it's just a nap. siesta = nap. yes i love fancy words *don't hit me*
so we napped and went to Grand Indonesia for dinner.ate PIZZA~~~~~~~~~~~~yes i'm getting superdy duperdy excited for pizza haha.

and i got pics so that you can drool with me~~

the place is called pizza marzano.it's real cozy and it's just across kinokuniya~ *lols for my love of books*

this is my drink~ NU Lychee Tea or something like that.it's basically a Lychee flavored tea. loved it so much!i'm a tea addict and fruit teas are the best drinks evaaah~my mom ate one of the 2 lychees in the tea..i don't even remember what she ordered.haha

the salad whose name is too complicated to remember..honestly i didn't like it a lot.only liked the bread sticks,cos the salad has too much CHEESE.i can imagine both shery and dcy fainting after just taking one bite.it has goat cheese in it.even to a cheddar lover like me it's too much! ended up leaving a lot of cheese on the plate.mom said we totally wasted Rp 20.000 worth of cheese.sorry cheese.

another appetizer whose name i did not even try to remember but it sure tasted heavenly!it's basically bread/pizza base covered in mushroom slices and sauce.i need to have this again some day~

and the main lead pizzaaaaa~~ it's pizza with pepperoni,ground meat, mozzarella, an unknown herb*maybe basil?* and jalapeno peppers. okay i totally don't know whether it's jalapeno i was just making it up but it's chili. and it tasted real good~~
and if you honestly thought my mom and i finished all those, you must be out of your mind haha,cos that's what the waitresses thought when they saw what we ordered. as both my mom and i believe it's sinful to waste food*lol sinful* we asked the waitress to put it in a take away box~

the box was so cute i would have cut the top out and kept it if it wasn't dirty lol.forever obsessed with pretty things.


on Tuesday we went to ITC Mangga Dua, which means mango two in english.it's a shopping heaven for people who are looking for cheap yet pretty clothes.it's basically like Bugis Street in Singapore, only with a lot of cigarette smoke. honestly i think i just aged a lot faster there cos i inhaled so much cigarette smoke.and probably doubled my chance of dying out of lung cancer.omg. how i hate smokers.

this is a pic i took before i went shopping..well pardon me for the weird colour of the pic,i used my baby phone to take it.i was actually able to go out with braided fringe for the first time in my life.now that i cut my fringe i have to wait for another few months.

ate rujak there~ well for those who don't know what rujak is,it's basically fruit slices covered in sauce made from peanuts and something else i don't know.haha. usually there are cucumbers,mangoes,papaya,pineapple,jambu air*or java/wax apple in english*,bengkoang*or jicama* and other varieties of fruits according to your liking. well mostly the fruits are either sour,juicy,crunchy or bland.


on the last day,went to southern jakarta to fetch my passport from a fedex building and ended up getting stuck 2 hours in the traffic.i totally slept on the car.i wonder how people in jakarta survive being stuck in hours of traffic everyday. went to Mangga Dua to get my lil sis' dress and departed to the airport.but we ended up getting stuck in the traffic inside the mall.it's a gridlock.was stuck for more than 15mins without moving a metre..so frustrating when we had to catch a plane. omg. the driver was actually more frustrated than both me and my mom was. fortunately we arrived at the airport right in time.had to run a bit, my legs were sore cos my backpack was so heavy~~ and got home safely too~






and today went out with my high school classmates..it's like a mini reunion.

this is how i looked today~with my new fringe~~ hi thereee~ i can't stop looking at myself after i got that new fringe.i fell in love with myself all over again.why am i so into myself haha~ i took some pics with my friends as well and i'm still waiting for them to upload it like forevahh~so pls be patient while i go steal some pics from their facebooks lol.


and i got good news from one of my babes, jcy~ whose new blog i recently mentioned in one of my posts. well,she finally found her slave mr. right~ congratulations to her~! i hope they will last long and fulfill her mothers wish. haha.
i hope i'll find one of my own someday :D anyone who's interested can leave a comment under this post lol.






well i think that's all~
and for those who wants to know when i'll be leaving for the states,it's on new year's day~so wish me luck on getting a cute guy sitting beside me on the flight!


메리그리스마스~!! ♡ ☃♡ ☃
MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!!

12.9 date~

hi readers~!!
i'm in a good mood right now~


had a date with iwen,shery and dcy~ ofc my lil bro tagged along too.
we watched Breaking Dawn *finally*
cos i read the novel before, there were no surprises while watching the movie.well the sound effect and music was really really good though.gave me the chills haha


after the movie we decided to get something to eat cos it was dinner time.
and we went to a newly opened patbingsoo shop~ it's next to Bank BRI at Penuin. well,my batam readers can go check it out some time~ haha

the shop's front.

the inside of the shop. i personally like the colours they choose for the interior. it looks real fresh with orange, white, beige, and lime green. 

the machine with the cow pattern is the ice shaving machine..it shaves blocks of ice but not like the regular 'ice gunung' we have here, the block of ice was something like frozen yoghurt,so when it's shaved the texture is like sorbet~

 the mango patbingsoo~ it's really yummy! and looks pretty too~~

 the chocolate one~ the choc's texture is a bit coarser than the mango's.i think it has more water in it~ still,it's really yummy~~

 personally love the mango more than the choco~ it's smoother and tastes like real mango, sweet with a touch of sour~ yum! 

the other flavours~ well yes the price is a little bit steep,but if you share it with friends it won't be a problem and after you taste it,it'll be worth the price you pay~ i would really like to try the peanut flavour~maybe it'll taste like frozen peanut butter? haha.




and i bought a new pair of scissors~~yeahh~~

cute isn't it~it doesn't look like the normal scissors we usually use and i fell for it once i saw it! finally,my fingers won't hurt even if i have to cut tons of stuffs~this is like a dream come true cos my thumb always hurts when i cut too much stuffs using the normal scissors~well it needs a few practices to master it cos it's kinda wobbly without the thumb support.but i can handle that haha~




and there's a good news and a bad news..
the good news is i'm accepted at the college.*finally* yeah.this yeah is sooo half-heartedly screamed..cos the bad news is now i got so little time to prep for the visa..i really do hope to get the visa asap..the orientation is on Jan 10th. cos the news came after i thought i would be rejected so i was a bit taken by surprise..now i feel more worried than happy..i hope i can sleep tonight :( 
so wish me all the luck i can have,readers~!!!




annyeong~☂ 

hey readers :) 
it's SHINee's Flaming Charisma Minho's birthday~ :) 
honestly he's one of my least fave member but whatever.i don't think i even have much of his pics in my SHINee folder..i mean 85% of the pics are of course jjongkey's,and the other 10% are full member pics..on2min only have 5% to share among themselves,with onew taking the 3% XD
okay i know i'm very very biased towards jjongkey~ too bad,i can't do a thing about it. but i must say when i saw minho live at SWCSG, i can't help but be attracted to his charisma. yes it's hard but i must admit,he does have charisma thought it doesn't rly show on screen nor in pictures..some of his pics are just ugh. but when i saw him live,he was like UNFFF~ 
but jjong is unf on or off screen so,whatever. haha
also~~ not to forget, a pic of him so that you people who don't know him shall see what who he is.

the moment i saw him on the concert,i knew it was an 8-pack even though i saw it from very far away~ *__* i can really get used to this haha~






hmm...there's actually quite a lot i can share about..but not quite in the mood..
shall just share a bit of what i did last week-end?


so on Sunday,went to MM for late lunch at Black Canyon~ 

 my green tea frappe~ i'm a green tea addict, well, any kind of tea actually~it was yummy!

 mango salad with bean sprouts, lettuce, chicken chunks..really appetizing..i would recommend it to everyone who likes sour and spicy food~

main course, chicken teriyaki steak.. well it's a bit too salty for me to like it..and i didn't even have to use the sauce~ the steak itself is of a standard size but with the fries and toast, i was sooo full~ ><


that day was also the last day of the batik exhibition held at MM, so, guess what, me and my lil sis, Jovita gave a go at making our own batik. well of course it's not like the real thing but still, it's lots of fun haha.

look at my lil sis, so serious~ haha




later that day i also made this!

so the whole kit came with a blank bag, paints, and stencils..so i just stenciled the letters there~ cute right? ;p i can make one for you if you're interested,as long as you provide the materials for me :D cos honestly it's kinda hard to find arts and crafts material in this island..




this is random,but i think one of the reasons why i like jjong a lot is because of his skinships~ cos i love skinships too~ i do imagine that jjong's future partner will be lucky cos jjong gives a lot of skinships~ ♥ 






well that's all~ i'm waiting for a fellow blogger of mine to update her blog.omg she's like soooo busy she can't even find time to blog. tsk.
do visit her blog~ give her some love!
looking forward to my date with my bebes, iwen,shery and dcy. going for a movies and food hunt~ exciiteeeeddd~~


annyeong~♡

hello darling readers.
yes i'm sorry for abandoning my blog for so long..i'm just sucked in too deep into my problems i find no mood to blog and that i didn't even touch my laptop for 2 weeks straight.


well first of all i'm going to ramble about my problems~
so first of all i just found out that the college DID NOT receive the mail containing my IELTS results.and i just found out 2 days ago cos my uncle called them for me to ask them about my enrollment. and yeah,it took them 1 month and a phone call to tell me that they never received any emails nor the mail i sent them. do you know how frustrated i am when i heard this news i almost just want to sit on the ground and cry but sadly i was not at home at that moment thus i just felt like i wanted to just die. so i couldn't sleep for 2 nights straight and now i feel like i'm going to be ill any moment. 


i feel so dead inside to be honest like what i built has crumbled down into nothing..
but then i shall once again put my faith to God.i believe that if i'm not fated to go to that college,that means God has other plans for me. 
and thankfully my parents are the easygoing types.they are quite okay if i can't make it to the US..as long as i tried my best they will support me in whatever i choose. something i need to thank God for too~ 
well if the worst had too happen,which is i can't make it to the college, i shall just find new activities for myself while i find another college for myself..


what worries me the most right now is my thoughts when i knew about the whole thing. i scared myself to be honest. cos what i thought about at first was NOT what am i going to do about not being able to attend college but how am i going to explain to people why i'm not in college yet. not what to do about the problem,but how am i going to face others when they find out that i'm not going to be able to go to college. for a moment it seemed like my 'face' is going to be more important than my education. for a moment i did not even think about what consequences will the whole thing bring,but the embarrassment i will go through when people ask me when i will be going to college. i realised that i care more about what others think of me than what i think of myself. and it's so deep rooted and i didn't even know when it started. when something happens the first thing that flashes through my mind is "what will they thing about me?" "will they despise me if i did that?" i really don't know what to do about this,but i do think that it's a serious matter and if i don't fix it soon i'll soon get problems.
for more than a month i haven't been able to sleep well and it's seriously affecting my health. and the stress is causing my self confidence decrease a lot.i feel totally insecure without make up right now.even with make up on,i don't feel like taking selcas anymore..waeee??? there was a time when i absolutely love myself..now i have no 'glow' tsk. 






hmm... i was supposed to blog about what i did yesterday.. but forget it i have no mood at all and it's almost 2am..shall play in tumblr for a while then go to sleep~


annyeong~ ☀ <- a sun to energize myself~ huphah!