RE.SOLUTION

2009 is ending...
can't believe how quick this year comes and go.
can't help but think about SHINee's song, Y.O.U
there was this sentence which says
""Years will come and years will go.
The good days and even the bad days""

 2009 is a year filled with joy, tears, anger, disappointment, success and love.
>joy...i really yearn for joy.every second,minute,hours,days.
>tears...those i shed, even after i tried to hold it in,i fought so hard to stop it from flowing.
>anger...there were times i was angry with many people.i hoped i could dig a hole and live in there for a week or so.just to forget how angry i was.
>disapointment...not much happened.and i hope i could maintain it.a heart cannot withstand too much disappointment.
>success...not big ones.small,simple ones.it makes me happy already.
>love...love my family and friends and those around me.i couldn't imagine a life without them.as for love for relationships..i don't really need it yet,i think.but sometimes i sure wish i could meet a prince charming.hhah

i had done flashbacks before.so i don't think i need another one.
but now i need resolutions for 2010.targets for the new year.

JANE'S NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
1. to lose WEIGHT
>losing weight was never my resolution.the reason now it's my resolution is because...i need to get in shape.being overweight is not good for my health.
>also another reason is...my love for FASHION.hhah.for the sake of KARL LAGERFELD,i shall lose weight to be able to wear his clothes nicely.hhaha.*crazy
2. to study harder
>it's not like i didn't study.but i need to study harder.for the sake of my brain and soul.*so drama*.
>ok.the truth is,my grades are not the best.so of course i need to study harder.hhah
3. to know what i WANT
>i never really knew what i wanted.i should really find some goals in life.
4. to be ultra CONFIDENT
>i'm not shy.just doesn't like to be in the lime light.i hate bright lights.hha
>ok.i'm just afraid that i will liek lose my head in front of a lot of people.i will liek embarassed myself.
5. to be TRUE to myself and everybody
>i ultra need that.i have been decieving myself for too long.trying to make myself believe that it's ok to do those things i don't like.
>i also need to say the truth.even if i really don't want to hear it.must not self hypnotize.bad habit.
6. to know more people
>expand my friend group.know many types of people.nice ones, jerks, bimbos, nerds.all of those.
7.to know how to TALK
>not just any talk.talk..it's the way i speak to everyone.how i put my words into sentences.not just crappy things out of my mouth.it's self controllllll
8. to have more SELF CONTROL
>d'uh.liek everybody needs that.i terribly need that.i can't really keep emotions to myself.bad.not good.devastating.*DRAMA.


those are my current resolutions.maybe will add some more later.
that might suffice for now.
i really want to type craps again.noooo.control yourself janeee.