CHINESE NEW YEAR.VALENTINE

hey.back again.at last.hha
it's chinese new year's eve.
omo.another year has passed so quickly.
and also it's valentine's day's eve.
double happiness,i guess.
but i think this year,both occasion lack of the feel.liek...i don't feel the festivity of CNY nor the love of valentine.
anyway.as i'm writing this post,my family is playing fireworks outside.
i always loved fireworks until last year that is.some one actually got burnt by a firework which went out of course in front of my own eyes.and beside that,i had a very weird dream about fireworks a few weeks ago,which adds to my fear to fireworks.

then about valentine.i guess i have a confession to make.
i think i fell in love.hhaha.
which is really unexpected.from a girl like me who never really cared about the affair of the heart.
i think i fell in love with a friend of mine.which makes it worse.i don't know how to show him my feelings.it's really awkward.i'm blushing already.hha
i think i'm crazy.........when he doesn't text me i feel like something's missing.
it's the first time i feel needed by another person who tells me everything he feels.
i really like that feeling.the feel of being needed.the feeling of being important.hha
*ok.i'm starting to get weirder.i guess i sh'd stop now.

anyway.am very annoyed rite now.
i lost my red stocking.which i need to wear tomorrow.!!!
i guess i need to have a back up set of clothes.
panicpanicpanicpanic

anyway......
i really want to have a dream date with members of K-Boybands.hha
if i had to pick one from SJ,which is really hard,i guess i'd pick SIWON.or TEUKIE.or KYUHYUN.but i don't think i want to pick EUNHYUK.he's such a miser.hahahhaha.*kidding
from SHINee,i will pick KEY.hha.without a doubt i guess.
then.from MBLAQ,CHEONDOONG.hhah.i love him a lot.hha
from FT ISLAND,HONGKI.SS501's HYUNJOONG or YOUNGSAENG.
then..i dunno anymore.hha.

and..dwiki's birthday is around the corner.
am thinking what gift should i give him.
was asking for suggestions when rizki told me that dwiki is kinda obsessed with pianos and keyboards right now,and he wants a keytar.
i was liek.ok,where in the world should i find the money for the keytar???
am i supposed to starve liek a year.?hha
anyway.i would rather buy shoes for myself.hahahah.

so i guess that's all for today.bye.and see u next time.loved ones.hha