hi readers :)
i think this is my first post in 2012..is it?
i hope most of you guys had a really great start to this whole new year, cos i had quite a start myself..


yep,as some of you might already know, i started 2012 by being on a flight of 16 hours~ from Indonesia to uncle Sam's country, the States.
and first i would really like to say sorry to my friends who didn't even know that i'm here because i didn't tell you...honestly, it wasn't because i didn't want you guys to know,but i myself is quite shocked that i would be leaving indo that quick.. it wasn't intentional~ 
so please accept my apologies, you may leave some complaints in the comments section later..i will accept all your complaints without any complaints.........*does that even make sense*


i stay in a small town, Davis..maybe a lot of you guys never heard of it before.and it's winter so it's really cold..but then again, everywhere is cold if compared to indo lol.*inaccurate data*
so right now i'm staying at an apartment with 2 housemates..my cousin used to live here,but she moved out to let me stay here instead because she knows that her housemates are nice people and will take care of me if she's busy..
i'm really really thankful for her help, because i'm sure if she's not here to help me, things would be 1000 times harder..
i'm really happy and thankful that i have 2 really nice housemates..they share food with me all the time~just like my previous roommate in taiwan..am i blessed or what? haha


my college is at another city called Sacramento, which is the capital of california~ i bet you didn't know about that..just like i didn't until my cousin told me lol~
and because i have no car,i have to take the public transportation to get there..the public transportation here in america,if compared to those in asia,really suck.hahahaha. i mean,if i was to miss a bus, i might be 1 hour late for my classes because the bus only comes at every 1 hour.so the total of time i need to get to the college from where i stay is approx. 2 hours,but if you have a car,it will only take around 15-20 minutes.. but then again it's better than nothing~~






if any one of you are curious about how i'm doing here, i can say that it's not as smooth sailing as i thought it would be..
honestly,there's a really huge stone that's been trying to make me trip and fall..
so last week i went to the international student center at the college to do all the paperwork and preparation for the start of the term including registering for classes and taking assessment tests..and i was shocked when the staff told me that most of the classes are full.and the problem is,i have to get at least 12 units that term so that i can maintain my student visa..most classes have 3 units so i need to get at least 4 classes.if i fail to do that,the government would send me home..
when i heard about that,i went to autopilot mode,nodding to everything the staff said while my mind just ran wild..i kept thinking,"what??after all i went through just to get here,i might have to go home???" i just kept thinking about what to do and what to tell my parents.i almost broke into tears there and then.. at that time i had to take my assessment tests as well..i was so taken aback by the information that i have just received that i yelped a little when my cousin had to leave me as i was going to take my assessments.. it has been a long time since i felt a fear of that level that even a small thing like my cousin leaving the room made me feel so alone and anxious..it was as if i was trying to say please don't leave me alone..
the test was an english test and on the essay part i went blank for 10 mins while my mind was trying to think of the topic and at the same time suppress all the other problems i had in my mind..but in the end i finished the test..and i just go the results yesterday.it was quite good honestly..i'm proud of myself haha.


after the test i tried to search for classes to register in with the help of my cousin..it was so discouraging to see how many classes were full and at the end of the day i managed to get into 4 classes' waiting list..so far i've only been successful in getting into 1 class but the counselor i met yesterday told me i had around 75% chance of getting all the class i registered for.i just have to go to the classes even though i'm still at the waiting list,who knows if the professor might just let me enroll into his/her class..






i haven't told my parents about all this..i'm still not sure whether it's the right thing to do,but i really don't want them to worry..i'm kinda waiting for things to get better before telling my parents about it.both my parents are busy and the time difference is really making it hard to contact them..i've only skype-d once with my mom and both of us cried once we saw each other's face.she video called me at around 1 or 2 days after i got the bad news from the college so it was really hard for me..i had so much to tell her but i just couldn't tell her..and because i'm so far from my parents the problems felt twice harder cos i can't complain about it to them anytime i want. 
i cried myself to sleep every night since i found out about the college problems..i just cried and cried..i would try to fill my brain with so many other things,i watched a lot of korean variety shows,but still,once i had nothing to do my brain just automatically think about the classes. it's so hard and tiring..but i was the one who chose to come here so i have to solve my own problems..
now,at this moment i still worry about this problem a lot,but not as much as i first did.i guess my brain finally dealt with the blow and starts to let me act rationally..






also in this post i would like to make dedications to people who have helped me went through the hardest week of my first month in 2012 by being there for me..
to shery,who spared a lot of time listening*or reading* to my complaints,stories,nonsense and reassured me that the problem would be over..i still bother her everyday by iMessage-ing her once i wake up haha~i love you bebe! ♡

to my cousin,dewi..if it weren't for her help i think i would not be able to do anything right now.thank you~ i really appreciate your help :) 

to robin,who chatted with me although he was busy..thank you~it means a lot to me when people spare time to listen to me~
to alex a.k.a xiaopang,and jeroen~ thank you for your encouragements~ we shall chat again on fb some time~haha
to the staffs at school,esp pat and monica, who helped me with a lot of the process of registration..thank you~you guys had made the process a lot easier for me to handle.
to my housemates,jen and lisa,who are so nice to me and made it easier for me to adapt to the new environment.thanks guys~ :D
also to my twitter buddies and bebes,thank you for being on twitter and tweeting with me~






i should videocall my parents.....maybe tell them about my problems here..i still think that it's not right to keep it from them..
well wish me luck readers~i'll keep updating my condition~or maybe sulk a little here..haha~






until the next post~
annyeong~~♡