im back~
and yeah it's a saturday and im spending my time here in my apt living room, writing my blog. i have such a wonderful life. idk if i want to add sarcasm here.. maybe not. im feeling quite good actually haha.
yeah apparently i ate enough and found a few cute pics of my babies so, im good. :D
first week of spring semester went okay i guess haha. not very excited about it tbh im not gonna lie im not a very enthusiastic student haha.
apparently the first month of 2013 is going to end soon! time is just running away from my reach... i have to work harder!! gogogo~!!
so, up to now, i guess my january has been an okay one.
apart from the jealousy pangs i get from seeing my friends interacting well with each other, im fine haha.
okay i really need to explain about this "jealousy" issue haha. im gonna write it here for people to see~
my jealousy is not the type that moulds itself into thoughts that's like "oh i wish they wouldn't be so close to each other" or "i hate it when they're close to each other"
it's more like the "i wish im as close to them as they're close to each other" type. cos tbh im the type of person that feels left out really easily. especially towards friends i actually care about.
i mean, to those i dont care, idgaf whether they want to invite me to hangouts or not. im not even that close to them..
but to friends that i rly care about, i really want to be close with everyone and if i see some being closer with each other more than me, i get this envy slash jealousy thing in my system.
honestly its bothering me a lot... im so clingy.... ;A;
i have issues lol
if i ask for a boyfriend seriously.. will you give me one?? lol
like the way i asked for a cute guy during my flight back to sg. cos oh yea i did get to sit beside a cute guy HAHA. you guys know how long i asked for one right??? i think i haven't wrote about that here haha. i'll tell you guys like NOW cos i just feel like it lol
lol jk im not gonna tell it to you guys cos it's actually nothing lol he's just super cute like 2AM's jinwoon looool okay maybe not. idk he's sitting beside me, not facing me, i cant stare like a creeper all the time ya know~ but yeah, all i did was peek at his laptop screen, peek at his name on his freaking documents and offer him some candy lol. IM SUCH A CREEP i cannot..... i cant help myself okay. it's such a bad habit tho. heh
and yeah i lent him my pen cos his friend is obviously a bit deaf, he was asking for a pen for 3 times and his friend didnt even react ugh. i just had to give him mine~ harhar~ im such a creep but i cant help it~ ughhh he said do you have a pen in freaking korean 3 times i just cant stand it when people get ignored. ofc he was shocked and probably thinks im creepy as fuck but yeah. like he's gonna remember me after that lol.
but my fave part is when he said bye to me at the airport~ it was so nice, i wish i had actually spoke to him more... but i was super intimidated by his friends tbh. i met one of his friends 3 times at the airport..... not a very good thing imo. heuk~ if only he was alone hahaha. but yeah that was my tiny wish that was granted lol. thank you~ :D
oh wow i ended up writing about it anyways lol.
so yeah that's my mini adventure on the plane back to sg~ transited in korea~~ i shld totally do that again next time i go back~ kkk
and this time maybe i'll actually
and i do realize that once i like someone or something, my brain can't stop telling me about it. so to my future person of interest i think i'll randomly confess to you as we're dating lol. that is, if i like you that much lol. i'll be like oh wow i like you so much haha. just like how i love my babies~ haha
btw i miss my bebes a lot!!! ><
i want to hangout more~ i feel like i dont hang out enough here sigh. what's with my life.... sometimes i feel like i dont have any friends here sigh haha. i should not be lamenting about this tbh but i just cant help it sighhh~
i need to find a new hobby i think.. oh wow i forgot about the jogging deal loool sorry dad. sorry body. like looool
im like really bored i'll make a mini resolution for 2013
i'll probably do my dishes more than before.. i am a bad housemate tbh im so messy. my room is like a hell hole. i mean i think hells are more organized in some way or form. mine is just like a shipwreck, yeah i think it fits better. haha.
and eat healthier maybe. to appease my dad and my body. wow. my mouth is so unhappy haha.
and probably start worrying whether i'm actually attractive or just plain gross. i mean, being single for almost 20 years now. im turning 20 this march idk i just think maybe, maybe it's time for me to worry about getting a bf? cos tbh people always say 20s are the fastest moving years of our life. so yeah.. i dont know. im just really nerdy and lame in real life loool. hahahahaha but i guess if i stay single for another 10 years it wont make much of a difference? lol idk~ my love life is still a ZERO. haha. maybe i'm just too gross for guys lol. ((shrugs))
maybe i need some male insight in this lol. i mean i dont think im asking too much out of a bf tbh.... or maybe i am and i don't rly notice. heh
im not exactly asking for someone who's like keulnim or jongin or ohmija. i just want someone who makes stupid jokes to make me laugh, someone who i can fight with over every little thing and by the end of the day would still hold my hands and admit that we're both stupid. tbh appearances... of course it would be nice if he's good looking, i mean let's be real people. but then again if he looks normal that'll be great too, cos i look normal too haha. but most importantly i need someone to keep me grounded when i have my head up in the clouds haha.
haha im asking a lot out of this lol. but from past experiences i found that i only get what i want after i ask for it. things aren't gonna pop out for you without you wanting it to pop out. so haha wish me luck~ ((winkwink)) im gonna go manhunting looool jk. maybe i dont need one yet?? hahah idk this indecisiveness is killing me i mean. i dont even know if i want it or not. lol. maybe just give me one when im mentally ready okk? haha
i probably have to go and buy myself a hair straightener.. my hair, looks absolutely stupid right now. heh. i shld've cut them shorter sigh sigh. im addicted to hair cutting loool
heh i spent so many portion of the blog talking about me trying to look for a guy loool THE THIRST IS SO OBVIOUS im so gonna die lol
heh oh sehun is just like all of us kai fans.
look at his smirk i just....
it's okay sehun, i'd do that too if i were u. haha. kai is just too irresistible~ not gay at all yo. i love ya
annyeong♡
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