how are you? :)

hi readers~ :)
i guess a few of you are starting to wonder how i'm doing right now, whether my problems in my previous post has been solved and so on.. so here i am keeping you guys updated :)


i have finally got into all the classes i need! yay *opens bottle of champagne green tea*
the big stones which was on my way has finally been moved, so are the boulders on my shoulders. now i just have to be really careful so that i won't trip on small stones :)


in the end, i told my parents all about my problems and the magical thing is that, starting from the day i told my parents, everything started to get better. although i got dropped off the waiting list for 2 classes,i got a class at the davis center instead. so no more arriving late at night from the main campus :D 


my parents are the cutest, sometimes i feel that their roles got swapped by accident haha. my dad would be the naggy one and my mom would be the more indifferent one. 
so i couldn't bear telling my problems to my dad at first, cos i know he would be ultra worried if he saw me cry, so i video called my mom and hope she will pass the message to my dad. my mom's reaction when she heard my stories is so relaxed, she said that if there's really no way that you can get the classes, just come back home and find another school. she also kept on joking with me.i felt really really relieved that day.
the next day my dad called me early in the morn *it was 8 am in indo* to ask about my condition, so i guess my mom did pass the message to him. he was a bit more anxious than my mom and i totally thought that it was the cutest >< *i'm such a bad daughter lol* 
this condition applies in almost any cases when me and my siblings are concerned. it's always my dad who tells me i have to lose weight, that i have to watch what i eat while my mom kinda let me eat whatever. sometimes me and dad are the ones who nags at mom when she's not watching what she eat. my mom's a choding ;p but she always says the most comforting words i'll ever hear :)




by the way i'm totally envious of you guys who got to spend the lunar new year at home. this is by far the saddest lunar new year i've ever spent in my almost 19 years of life! there was no LNY feel at all and i have to give so much yummy food a miss~! if i was still at home now i would probably gain a few kgs lol. and i would be able to bake tons of my famous cookies haha. 
i've been telling a few of my bebes to go to my home to 拜年.. i wonder if they have been to my house...hmm~ even tho i'm not at home but my mom is at home.you guys can always visit her okay? haha




ah i went shopping for groceries earlier today with my roommate~ we went to costco. i totally felt that everything here in the states come in super sizes, which is totally scary. i mean chips at the size of dog food bags? *__* even the shopping carts/trollies are bigger than the ones i usually see. i can actually fit inside the trolly... 
i ended up buying a pack of grapes and a bag of fruits and nuts which costs me $17 in total..so expensive >< am going to finish the fruits and nuts real slow, which is almost impossible cos i love to eat nuts. i inherited my love for nuts and oranges from my mom okay? ;p




since i'm talking about so many things might as well talk about everything in my mind now haha. so i haven't really got any close friends yet, nothing strange about that, cos i don't feel confident enough to speak to caucasians, cos i'm worried they might not get what i'm saying lmao. okay that was just an excuse, i just don't talk much in classes and classes are the only places to find friends. you can't possibly walk to a random person in the hallway and try to start a conversation... well, not that it's impossible but i'm not the type of person who does that haha. *another excuse* but i do join the international student club tho..i'm more comfortable mixing with international students cos i kinda feel that we're on the same boat[?] lol. 
ever since i came here i've been mistaken as a korean and japanese. well i'm not really offended by those people mistaking me as coming from those countries but i was offended by the guy who assumed that i'm a japanese and tried to start a conversation with me by saying konnichiwa. 

 if he only asked which country i was from instead of being such an ignorant person and start blabbering konnichiwa to me,i'd probably be nicer to him. and the worse part is that he's an asian as well. wow. amazingly enough this asian guy doesn't realise that asian countries aren't only china,japan or vietnam.  luckily for that guy i was in a good mood that day and just shook my head when he said konnichiwa to me. but then he said ni hao ma? to me in an attempt to keep the conversation going. oh for good sakes what the hell is this guy doing?? 

that guy is so hilariously ignorant that i can't even be bothered with him anymore. so i took my headset out and listened to my iphone to make him shut up. 
my message to that guy would be : bro if you thought that was a good way to start a conversation, you're wrong~! well unless you guessed correctly which country that person is from. but still, by doing that you look like a creep. i'm not even joking or being sarcastic. it's really creepy... 

well i guess that's all haha. a little bit less than i expected but, it's enough haha.
and look! January is almost over~! so quick! i'll be going back to indo in no time! yey
i miss everyone back at home and also all my friends~ gyaaaa~~ can't wait for the time to go back home to come~ keke. 
oh by the way, those people whose name did not show up in my previous post when i was making the dedications, please don't feel that i didn't appreciate your help, it's just that i can't possibly list out your names one by one. i love you guys and girls okay? :) 




annyeong~ ♡

hi readers :)
i think this is my first post in 2012..is it?
i hope most of you guys had a really great start to this whole new year, cos i had quite a start myself..


yep,as some of you might already know, i started 2012 by being on a flight of 16 hours~ from Indonesia to uncle Sam's country, the States.
and first i would really like to say sorry to my friends who didn't even know that i'm here because i didn't tell you...honestly, it wasn't because i didn't want you guys to know,but i myself is quite shocked that i would be leaving indo that quick.. it wasn't intentional~ 
so please accept my apologies, you may leave some complaints in the comments section later..i will accept all your complaints without any complaints.........*does that even make sense*


i stay in a small town, Davis..maybe a lot of you guys never heard of it before.and it's winter so it's really cold..but then again, everywhere is cold if compared to indo lol.*inaccurate data*
so right now i'm staying at an apartment with 2 housemates..my cousin used to live here,but she moved out to let me stay here instead because she knows that her housemates are nice people and will take care of me if she's busy..
i'm really really thankful for her help, because i'm sure if she's not here to help me, things would be 1000 times harder..
i'm really happy and thankful that i have 2 really nice housemates..they share food with me all the time~just like my previous roommate in taiwan..am i blessed or what? haha


my college is at another city called Sacramento, which is the capital of california~ i bet you didn't know about that..just like i didn't until my cousin told me lol~
and because i have no car,i have to take the public transportation to get there..the public transportation here in america,if compared to those in asia,really suck.hahahaha. i mean,if i was to miss a bus, i might be 1 hour late for my classes because the bus only comes at every 1 hour.so the total of time i need to get to the college from where i stay is approx. 2 hours,but if you have a car,it will only take around 15-20 minutes.. but then again it's better than nothing~~






if any one of you are curious about how i'm doing here, i can say that it's not as smooth sailing as i thought it would be..
honestly,there's a really huge stone that's been trying to make me trip and fall..
so last week i went to the international student center at the college to do all the paperwork and preparation for the start of the term including registering for classes and taking assessment tests..and i was shocked when the staff told me that most of the classes are full.and the problem is,i have to get at least 12 units that term so that i can maintain my student visa..most classes have 3 units so i need to get at least 4 classes.if i fail to do that,the government would send me home..
when i heard about that,i went to autopilot mode,nodding to everything the staff said while my mind just ran wild..i kept thinking,"what??after all i went through just to get here,i might have to go home???" i just kept thinking about what to do and what to tell my parents.i almost broke into tears there and then.. at that time i had to take my assessment tests as well..i was so taken aback by the information that i have just received that i yelped a little when my cousin had to leave me as i was going to take my assessments.. it has been a long time since i felt a fear of that level that even a small thing like my cousin leaving the room made me feel so alone and anxious..it was as if i was trying to say please don't leave me alone..
the test was an english test and on the essay part i went blank for 10 mins while my mind was trying to think of the topic and at the same time suppress all the other problems i had in my mind..but in the end i finished the test..and i just go the results yesterday.it was quite good honestly..i'm proud of myself haha.


after the test i tried to search for classes to register in with the help of my cousin..it was so discouraging to see how many classes were full and at the end of the day i managed to get into 4 classes' waiting list..so far i've only been successful in getting into 1 class but the counselor i met yesterday told me i had around 75% chance of getting all the class i registered for.i just have to go to the classes even though i'm still at the waiting list,who knows if the professor might just let me enroll into his/her class..






i haven't told my parents about all this..i'm still not sure whether it's the right thing to do,but i really don't want them to worry..i'm kinda waiting for things to get better before telling my parents about it.both my parents are busy and the time difference is really making it hard to contact them..i've only skype-d once with my mom and both of us cried once we saw each other's face.she video called me at around 1 or 2 days after i got the bad news from the college so it was really hard for me..i had so much to tell her but i just couldn't tell her..and because i'm so far from my parents the problems felt twice harder cos i can't complain about it to them anytime i want. 
i cried myself to sleep every night since i found out about the college problems..i just cried and cried..i would try to fill my brain with so many other things,i watched a lot of korean variety shows,but still,once i had nothing to do my brain just automatically think about the classes. it's so hard and tiring..but i was the one who chose to come here so i have to solve my own problems..
now,at this moment i still worry about this problem a lot,but not as much as i first did.i guess my brain finally dealt with the blow and starts to let me act rationally..






also in this post i would like to make dedications to people who have helped me went through the hardest week of my first month in 2012 by being there for me..
to shery,who spared a lot of time listening*or reading* to my complaints,stories,nonsense and reassured me that the problem would be over..i still bother her everyday by iMessage-ing her once i wake up haha~i love you bebe! ♡

to my cousin,dewi..if it weren't for her help i think i would not be able to do anything right now.thank you~ i really appreciate your help :) 

to robin,who chatted with me although he was busy..thank you~it means a lot to me when people spare time to listen to me~
to alex a.k.a xiaopang,and jeroen~ thank you for your encouragements~ we shall chat again on fb some time~haha
to the staffs at school,esp pat and monica, who helped me with a lot of the process of registration..thank you~you guys had made the process a lot easier for me to handle.
to my housemates,jen and lisa,who are so nice to me and made it easier for me to adapt to the new environment.thanks guys~ :D
also to my twitter buddies and bebes,thank you for being on twitter and tweeting with me~






i should videocall my parents.....maybe tell them about my problems here..i still think that it's not right to keep it from them..
well wish me luck readers~i'll keep updating my condition~or maybe sulk a little here..haha~






until the next post~
annyeong~~♡ 

last post of 2011

hi baby readers~
this shall be my last post in 2011~


so usually 'last post of the year' type of posts are filled with thousands of flashbacks and of course a bunch of new year resolutions~ i didn't make a post about it last year cos i was too busy being busy with something else i think..i left my blog on hiatus for months! >< i still feel so bad about it.probably lost readers at that time. :( 
but i did make one on 2009..and i think i achieved most of it except for the 'LOSE WEIGHT' part.omg i totally totally did not lose much weight..and guess what,my dad totally bought me a book about diet for me lol. he's been the one who's controlling what i eat for years.i think my mom doesn't even care haha.


this year i dont really think i will make a list of resolutions like i did in 2009..maybe just point out a few role models.and of course the must have 'memory lane'.. every year i have a love hate relationship with the year itself but this year i think i have more love for it than hate..
the things that made me love 2011:
-i graduated from highschool together with a bunch of really really close friends..i studied hard and finally got the score i've always wanted~
-i got to go to Taiwan for 3 months! where i met a lot of new friends,a few has become close friends that i think i will want to have for the rest of my life haha. and of course the new experiences i had there. unforgettable!
-i finally went to my first concert! and it was my fave group! SHINee World Concert SG 10.9.2011,the best day of 2011!!!
-and i was accepted to the college i enrolled in the US.i got my visa and will leave tomorrow. new start for a new year..


i have some friends questioning why i wanted to go to the US so soon..why not go on 5th Jan..i don't know either,it's not like i can't wait to leave,but i just felt that the sooner i got there the faster i can adapt.and it's not like i won't come back to this small island anymore.though it's small and kinda annoying at times,it's still where i spent the early years of my life!where i met a lot of people who became oh so important to me.


also i would like to dedicate this post to a few of my bebes who made me something i can bring before i left.
thank you so very much shery dessy and iwen for your heartfelt presents..it really means a lot that you guys actually spared time to make handmade stuffs for me. 

angela and jennifer,thanks for your presents as well!
i love those presents a lot,and relax,you guys will have the nicest souvenir when i come back haha!


and yes i have a policy that says,if you don't give me anything before i leave,you won't get anything when i come back. haha *i'm still deciding whether this is a joke or not* so beware ;p


i also had the hardest time of my 18 year life in 2011.the amount of stress i handled this year was so massive that 2011 is also the year i fell ill the most~i'm a strong baby you know,i hardly fall sick~but lately has been down with flu for so many times~
but compared to what i got,i think it's worth it..so 2011 i love you haha!




well,i said there are no resolutions but role models for 2012..so here i go..
my role models are SHINee.i know some of you might think 'oh gosh here goes another fangirl episode.' but no,the things you're about to read are heartfelt feelings of mine.
there was a random post on tumblr that made me decide that SHINee members are people who can be taken as role models.it was a post where i had to choose which members suits the following conditions,and the conditions were,'the member who you like most,the member who you want to be like,the member who is most like you' and so on..it actually took me some time to fill in the blanks to those questions.i was really thinking hard,especially the question about the member that was most alike to me and the one that i want to be like..
my answer to the member who was most alike to me was ONEW~!!
why him? well,even though i'm not completely like him,but the others were too far from my personality haha. i think his Onew Sangtae is something that i have in common with him..we just love to accidentally drop things and fall.

and also even when he speaks really well on variety shows,he will give other members a chance to show themselves.in some way i'm like that too*i think* haha


and for the member i want to be like,i answered Key at that time,but i think it's SHINee as a whole~!!
there's a bit of every member that i want to be like..
starting from the most precious leader ONEW..
i want to be down to earth like him, also to have great variety sense..he's basically the most witty talker in SHINee. i want to be witty and funny as well!! i think i'm too 'wooden' lol. i need to learn gags from him haha.
next is the charming main vocal JONGHYUN~~
i want to be relaxed like him, and still be like him when he use every bit of his strength and soul to do the things he love..he's really the type i would like to spend a long time together with. hahaha
then the almighty diva KEY!!!
he's been my role model since i saw him on Maknae Rebellion..he's basically everything i wanted to ever be. blunt at talking, able to speak whatever he want, he's good at almost everything he says he can do so he can be so cocky about it, and of course his daring yet fabulous fashion sense! 
after that, flaming charisma MINHO~
i want his competitiveness. to try to win every possible contest there is in this world. i need to be competitive like him,or else i would be left out by everyone else. haha
last but not least, baby maknae TAEMIN!
although sometimes he's just an awkward kid, i want to be like him when he's dancing on stage.he knew what he wants and gave his everything to do his best on stage..and for extra,i would also like to have his face very much haha.he's so pretty!




so my target for 2012 -> to be more and more alike to my favorite idols! :D




and this is like the fangirl side note..
i'm totally trying to rediscover my love for minho..i guess if i was to like a group i have to love them equally..although i'm sure i'll still have more jjongkey pics in my folder..i cant help it they look so good ;p






hmm~i think i shall stop writing here~
running late for a BBQ party with my friends!






wishing all my readers a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
may all of your wishes come true in 2012!
see you guys next year!
annyeong~♡♡♡

Christmas Eve~ and it's Christmas by the time i post this.

hi darling readers..it's the favorite time of the year again!well,for some of you..
yes it's the night before Christmas,the night when Santa sneak into your rooms to put your presents..well,too bad my family doesn't believe in Santa,and Santa never give presents to non-believers.haha.
okay,i don't know whether it's true but seems quite legit for an excuse.let's not dash someone's dream and say that Santa does not exist is too busy~
another bad news is that i'm living in Indonesia and it definitely DOES NOT SNOW in here~ but then again i think God tried to send some snow here but it melted on the way cos it sure is raining right now. THANK YOU GOD~ ;*




i sure have a lot to say now that most of my old challenges are over~i'm going to level-up now~another new challenge awaits me.
first of all i would like to proudly announce that i have been accepted at the college i enrolled into and successfully obtained my visa from the embassy~i was ecstatic and still am very thankful to all the people who encouraged me and guided me along the way. including my cousin Dewi, Linda and my 3rd uncle~


might as well tell you guys the journey to obtaining my visa since i'm in the mood~
flew to jakarta on the 18th to get it,obviously,cos i live in a damn small island which is lucky to be near Singapore so that it's at least noticed..i used to have a hard time explaining where i live but then again i always say "it's a small island next to singapore." it sure saved me a lot of time.
so went there early Monday morn to queue,got inside the building and led to another place to queue..in total i had to queue 6 times in just 2-3 hours. but then i got a cute guy beside me in the queue all the time,he ended up seating next to me everytime even when we can choose our own seats without order. i really really wish for a cute guy sitting next to me on my flight..or at least someone who's quiet and minds their own business..babies are the worst.i'm sorry babies,no hard feelings.i just hate it when you cry.
and after 2 hours of queuing and less than 10 mins of interview i finally got my visa~~

after the visa, went shopping with my mom. i mean,we're at jakarta,how can we not shop! but then both mom and i were dead beat from waking up at 5am so we ended up going back to the place we stayed for a siesta~ sounds real nice,SIESTA..but honestly it's just a nap. siesta = nap. yes i love fancy words *don't hit me*
so we napped and went to Grand Indonesia for dinner.ate PIZZA~~~~~~~~~~~~yes i'm getting superdy duperdy excited for pizza haha.

and i got pics so that you can drool with me~~

the place is called pizza marzano.it's real cozy and it's just across kinokuniya~ *lols for my love of books*

this is my drink~ NU Lychee Tea or something like that.it's basically a Lychee flavored tea. loved it so much!i'm a tea addict and fruit teas are the best drinks evaaah~my mom ate one of the 2 lychees in the tea..i don't even remember what she ordered.haha

the salad whose name is too complicated to remember..honestly i didn't like it a lot.only liked the bread sticks,cos the salad has too much CHEESE.i can imagine both shery and dcy fainting after just taking one bite.it has goat cheese in it.even to a cheddar lover like me it's too much! ended up leaving a lot of cheese on the plate.mom said we totally wasted Rp 20.000 worth of cheese.sorry cheese.

another appetizer whose name i did not even try to remember but it sure tasted heavenly!it's basically bread/pizza base covered in mushroom slices and sauce.i need to have this again some day~

and the main lead pizzaaaaa~~ it's pizza with pepperoni,ground meat, mozzarella, an unknown herb*maybe basil?* and jalapeno peppers. okay i totally don't know whether it's jalapeno i was just making it up but it's chili. and it tasted real good~~
and if you honestly thought my mom and i finished all those, you must be out of your mind haha,cos that's what the waitresses thought when they saw what we ordered. as both my mom and i believe it's sinful to waste food*lol sinful* we asked the waitress to put it in a take away box~

the box was so cute i would have cut the top out and kept it if it wasn't dirty lol.forever obsessed with pretty things.


on Tuesday we went to ITC Mangga Dua, which means mango two in english.it's a shopping heaven for people who are looking for cheap yet pretty clothes.it's basically like Bugis Street in Singapore, only with a lot of cigarette smoke. honestly i think i just aged a lot faster there cos i inhaled so much cigarette smoke.and probably doubled my chance of dying out of lung cancer.omg. how i hate smokers.

this is a pic i took before i went shopping..well pardon me for the weird colour of the pic,i used my baby phone to take it.i was actually able to go out with braided fringe for the first time in my life.now that i cut my fringe i have to wait for another few months.

ate rujak there~ well for those who don't know what rujak is,it's basically fruit slices covered in sauce made from peanuts and something else i don't know.haha. usually there are cucumbers,mangoes,papaya,pineapple,jambu air*or java/wax apple in english*,bengkoang*or jicama* and other varieties of fruits according to your liking. well mostly the fruits are either sour,juicy,crunchy or bland.


on the last day,went to southern jakarta to fetch my passport from a fedex building and ended up getting stuck 2 hours in the traffic.i totally slept on the car.i wonder how people in jakarta survive being stuck in hours of traffic everyday. went to Mangga Dua to get my lil sis' dress and departed to the airport.but we ended up getting stuck in the traffic inside the mall.it's a gridlock.was stuck for more than 15mins without moving a metre..so frustrating when we had to catch a plane. omg. the driver was actually more frustrated than both me and my mom was. fortunately we arrived at the airport right in time.had to run a bit, my legs were sore cos my backpack was so heavy~~ and got home safely too~






and today went out with my high school classmates..it's like a mini reunion.

this is how i looked today~with my new fringe~~ hi thereee~ i can't stop looking at myself after i got that new fringe.i fell in love with myself all over again.why am i so into myself haha~ i took some pics with my friends as well and i'm still waiting for them to upload it like forevahh~so pls be patient while i go steal some pics from their facebooks lol.


and i got good news from one of my babes, jcy~ whose new blog i recently mentioned in one of my posts. well,she finally found her slave mr. right~ congratulations to her~! i hope they will last long and fulfill her mothers wish. haha.
i hope i'll find one of my own someday :D anyone who's interested can leave a comment under this post lol.






well i think that's all~
and for those who wants to know when i'll be leaving for the states,it's on new year's day~so wish me luck on getting a cute guy sitting beside me on the flight!


메리그리스마스~!! ♡ ☃♡ ☃
MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!!

12.9 date~

hi readers~!!
i'm in a good mood right now~


had a date with iwen,shery and dcy~ ofc my lil bro tagged along too.
we watched Breaking Dawn *finally*
cos i read the novel before, there were no surprises while watching the movie.well the sound effect and music was really really good though.gave me the chills haha


after the movie we decided to get something to eat cos it was dinner time.
and we went to a newly opened patbingsoo shop~ it's next to Bank BRI at Penuin. well,my batam readers can go check it out some time~ haha

the shop's front.

the inside of the shop. i personally like the colours they choose for the interior. it looks real fresh with orange, white, beige, and lime green. 

the machine with the cow pattern is the ice shaving machine..it shaves blocks of ice but not like the regular 'ice gunung' we have here, the block of ice was something like frozen yoghurt,so when it's shaved the texture is like sorbet~

 the mango patbingsoo~ it's really yummy! and looks pretty too~~

 the chocolate one~ the choc's texture is a bit coarser than the mango's.i think it has more water in it~ still,it's really yummy~~

 personally love the mango more than the choco~ it's smoother and tastes like real mango, sweet with a touch of sour~ yum! 

the other flavours~ well yes the price is a little bit steep,but if you share it with friends it won't be a problem and after you taste it,it'll be worth the price you pay~ i would really like to try the peanut flavour~maybe it'll taste like frozen peanut butter? haha.




and i bought a new pair of scissors~~yeahh~~

cute isn't it~it doesn't look like the normal scissors we usually use and i fell for it once i saw it! finally,my fingers won't hurt even if i have to cut tons of stuffs~this is like a dream come true cos my thumb always hurts when i cut too much stuffs using the normal scissors~well it needs a few practices to master it cos it's kinda wobbly without the thumb support.but i can handle that haha~




and there's a good news and a bad news..
the good news is i'm accepted at the college.*finally* yeah.this yeah is sooo half-heartedly screamed..cos the bad news is now i got so little time to prep for the visa..i really do hope to get the visa asap..the orientation is on Jan 10th. cos the news came after i thought i would be rejected so i was a bit taken by surprise..now i feel more worried than happy..i hope i can sleep tonight :( 
so wish me all the luck i can have,readers~!!!




annyeong~☂ 

hey readers :) 
it's SHINee's Flaming Charisma Minho's birthday~ :) 
honestly he's one of my least fave member but whatever.i don't think i even have much of his pics in my SHINee folder..i mean 85% of the pics are of course jjongkey's,and the other 10% are full member pics..on2min only have 5% to share among themselves,with onew taking the 3% XD
okay i know i'm very very biased towards jjongkey~ too bad,i can't do a thing about it. but i must say when i saw minho live at SWCSG, i can't help but be attracted to his charisma. yes it's hard but i must admit,he does have charisma thought it doesn't rly show on screen nor in pictures..some of his pics are just ugh. but when i saw him live,he was like UNFFF~ 
but jjong is unf on or off screen so,whatever. haha
also~~ not to forget, a pic of him so that you people who don't know him shall see what who he is.

the moment i saw him on the concert,i knew it was an 8-pack even though i saw it from very far away~ *__* i can really get used to this haha~






hmm...there's actually quite a lot i can share about..but not quite in the mood..
shall just share a bit of what i did last week-end?


so on Sunday,went to MM for late lunch at Black Canyon~ 

 my green tea frappe~ i'm a green tea addict, well, any kind of tea actually~it was yummy!

 mango salad with bean sprouts, lettuce, chicken chunks..really appetizing..i would recommend it to everyone who likes sour and spicy food~

main course, chicken teriyaki steak.. well it's a bit too salty for me to like it..and i didn't even have to use the sauce~ the steak itself is of a standard size but with the fries and toast, i was sooo full~ ><


that day was also the last day of the batik exhibition held at MM, so, guess what, me and my lil sis, Jovita gave a go at making our own batik. well of course it's not like the real thing but still, it's lots of fun haha.

look at my lil sis, so serious~ haha




later that day i also made this!

so the whole kit came with a blank bag, paints, and stencils..so i just stenciled the letters there~ cute right? ;p i can make one for you if you're interested,as long as you provide the materials for me :D cos honestly it's kinda hard to find arts and crafts material in this island..




this is random,but i think one of the reasons why i like jjong a lot is because of his skinships~ cos i love skinships too~ i do imagine that jjong's future partner will be lucky cos jjong gives a lot of skinships~ ♥ 






well that's all~ i'm waiting for a fellow blogger of mine to update her blog.omg she's like soooo busy she can't even find time to blog. tsk.
do visit her blog~ give her some love!
looking forward to my date with my bebes, iwen,shery and dcy. going for a movies and food hunt~ exciiteeeeddd~~


annyeong~♡

hello darling readers.
yes i'm sorry for abandoning my blog for so long..i'm just sucked in too deep into my problems i find no mood to blog and that i didn't even touch my laptop for 2 weeks straight.


well first of all i'm going to ramble about my problems~
so first of all i just found out that the college DID NOT receive the mail containing my IELTS results.and i just found out 2 days ago cos my uncle called them for me to ask them about my enrollment. and yeah,it took them 1 month and a phone call to tell me that they never received any emails nor the mail i sent them. do you know how frustrated i am when i heard this news i almost just want to sit on the ground and cry but sadly i was not at home at that moment thus i just felt like i wanted to just die. so i couldn't sleep for 2 nights straight and now i feel like i'm going to be ill any moment. 


i feel so dead inside to be honest like what i built has crumbled down into nothing..
but then i shall once again put my faith to God.i believe that if i'm not fated to go to that college,that means God has other plans for me. 
and thankfully my parents are the easygoing types.they are quite okay if i can't make it to the US..as long as i tried my best they will support me in whatever i choose. something i need to thank God for too~ 
well if the worst had too happen,which is i can't make it to the college, i shall just find new activities for myself while i find another college for myself..


what worries me the most right now is my thoughts when i knew about the whole thing. i scared myself to be honest. cos what i thought about at first was NOT what am i going to do about not being able to attend college but how am i going to explain to people why i'm not in college yet. not what to do about the problem,but how am i going to face others when they find out that i'm not going to be able to go to college. for a moment it seemed like my 'face' is going to be more important than my education. for a moment i did not even think about what consequences will the whole thing bring,but the embarrassment i will go through when people ask me when i will be going to college. i realised that i care more about what others think of me than what i think of myself. and it's so deep rooted and i didn't even know when it started. when something happens the first thing that flashes through my mind is "what will they thing about me?" "will they despise me if i did that?" i really don't know what to do about this,but i do think that it's a serious matter and if i don't fix it soon i'll soon get problems.
for more than a month i haven't been able to sleep well and it's seriously affecting my health. and the stress is causing my self confidence decrease a lot.i feel totally insecure without make up right now.even with make up on,i don't feel like taking selcas anymore..waeee??? there was a time when i absolutely love myself..now i have no 'glow' tsk. 






hmm... i was supposed to blog about what i did yesterday.. but forget it i have no mood at all and it's almost 2am..shall play in tumblr for a while then go to sleep~


annyeong~ ☀ <- a sun to energize myself~ huphah!