hello i'm back again... of course i'll be back cos yeah i've a feeling that i'll write another rant post today after my writing class hurhur. that class is killing me. it's killing everyone!!! ugh.
but yeah. im gonna struggle as hard as i can to make it through that class with a low B. i do not. i repeat, DO NOT want to take that class next semester i won't fucking do that even if i get a C. i will not let that class fuck me all over again. thank you.

so yeah to set myself in the mood let's do a bunch of questions first, i don't know why i just love doing these questions so much. sort of like a brain exercise maybe haha. i have a feeling this bunch of question will require some serious thinking tho... so yeah try do questions at times, condition your brain to think of the things that you never thought before~ you might discover something new about yourself haha

leggo~

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

i think it's looking into someone's eyes when they tell me how they feel. i feel like sometimes it's just too intense and i just have to look away. 

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

really angry? i don't really remember the times i was really angry.. but i think it was probably the time where block b was in the thai interview incident thingy. i was really angry at the people who wrote death threats and shit to block b. i just felt like how can you attack someone in that manner, even though they were at fault, people do not have the right to tell others to kill themselves. but i think i was more sad than angry tho... do i still feel that way? yeah i do. every time i see people leaving good bye notes i die a little inside, wondering if that person is still alive. that's why im always so angry when i see anons just telling people to kill themselves like who do you think you are to decide if someone should live or die.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

i'll probably call my dad. and thank him for everything, and that i'm sorry i have to leave first. 

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

i probably will tell some people, especially those who will be affected by my death. sort of like a preparation for them to live a life without me. the remaining days will be used to meet up with family and friends just hang out and chill, reminisce about old days. would i be afraid? i would be lying if i told you i won't be afraid. i'll probably use 1 week of that month to accept the fact that i'm dying. 

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

this is hard. love is so passionate yet so unstable. i feel like having trust is more reassuring but it can be boring as well. like yeah i trust you and you trust me, so? but to love without trust, is such a bold thing to do. to go chase and hold on to something that you're not even sure about. i'll probably choose love. yes it's a big gamble but i want to live a passionate life haha. 

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

i would take the time to at least ask someone to save the dog's life. i cannot walk away when i see a living thing struggling to keep its life just because i might lose my source of income. i would rather be hungry for days rather than be haunted by guilt for the rest of my life. 

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

i would rather be hurt by someone i love most. a bit contradictory to my answer in no.5 i know. but to be hurt by someone i trust means i'll lose this whole bridge i built with that person. and to have that bridge to just crumble into dust, it's a bit too much for me to handle. i think if someone i love hurt me, my love for that person will cut half the pain for me already. 

okay there's actually still a lot of questions...
but i'm too tired to continue.......... 




annyeong♡