i actually have a few papers i have to start writing but yeah i choose to blog instead just because i can lol.
i really really really love Zion.T /just sayin/ haha thanks to dalmatian's simon!! i just love songs featuring Zion.T sfm~ that groovy rnb voice of his omg. haha.
people should listen to more of k-indie, k-rnb and k-hiphop and just leave k-pop already lol. listen to more urban zakapa, busker busker, primary, leessang, dynamicduo, primary, simon-d, Zion.T, geeks.
lolol. this is so random lolol. but yeah. k-pop isn't really for the ears, it's for the eyes so. haha. just sayin
and yeah fuck kris lolol he's giving me all the feels again with that electric blue scarf, ponytail that looks like it's on fire, specs and that cute alpaca plushie ohgod i really want to kill him.
it's so funny how almost every kris stan i know always express their love to kris by telling him to go fuck himself, to get out, telling him that he's not even cute, that he's an asshole and all sorts of insult lol. that's just how much we love kris huh.
i like how kris stans express their love. /tough love/ lol
so on the previous post i answered 7 questions.. and this is the rest of it~ gogogo
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
this all depends on whether i like him/her back. if i do then everything might go well and we'll just get together or something.. but if i don't like him/her in the same way, i'll probably try and explain how i feel. i just hope i won't be a coward and just evade the whole thing altogether...
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
the last person i know that passed away was my grandma. and if i could give her another hour, i probably would not. i know it sounds selfish but she was already very sick. i do honestly feel that if i gave her another hour to her life, i would just be giving her another hour of agonizing pain. *omg i can't believe i'm tearing up just by the thought of this :( *
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
i probably want to have a friend like me. i don't know i feel like i'm an awesome friend lolol well at least that's how my friends make me feel about myself. i love you guys :D
11. Does love = sex?
i don't think so. i mean, i love all my bebes sfm i always tell them how much i love them but i do not want to have sex with them haha. it doesn't just apply to my girl bebes. even to my boy friends in high school. i love them all sfm but they're all like my brothers haha. sex is more of a lust thing i think haha.
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
this is hard. but i don't think i would offer to leave the company. or maybe i will? if i was still living alone maybe i won't.. but if i already have a family and there's another source of income for my house i'll probably offer to leave. and probably get a tongue lashing from my dad. /shrugs/
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
i don't think i am the type who would opt to say what i felt if i knew it would hurt the other person. i tend to just avoid the whole issue..... so i don't remember having to say what i honestly felt to a person.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
i think it's when i don't love them back. i'm a big softie i just can't bring myself to reject people much. i'm such a coward i feel like killing someone. i don't know, i've been like that since i was small i guess, or at east that's what my mom says, i always avoid hurting other people's feelings. even for trivial stuff. haha
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
i think it would be giving up a relationship with someone. not the bf/gf relationship but just any relationship such as friendship that i've built up for years with someone. it would be so hard to lose that because it means that i will mean nothing to that person and that person will mean nothing to me. all those years of knowing each other, those memories will suddenly mean nothing. it will leave such a big gap in my life.
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
it must've been one of my bebes haha. either iew, shery or dessy. i've known iew since she was born lol so she's like part sister, part best bebe, part daughter. i've known shery for more than 10 years too i think, and she's also part sister part best bebe. the only reason i don't treat her like a daughter is that i treat her almost like a twin or a body part cos we think so similarly lol. i've only gotten close to dessy in recent years like maybe 2-3? but yeah she's such a cutiepie my part best bebe part sister part daughter cos i'm a big umma lolol.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
last month? october... i probably would stop myself from spending so much money on shopping i feel like dying now cos i feel so insecure with so little money in my account.
18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
this is like what i go through every single night minus the rain probably cos it doesn't rain much but yeah halloween night was exactly like that! it was dark and raining outside, and different neighbors kept on walking back and forth outside. i don't think i need anyone with me lol. maybe my laptop. hahaha. is this question supposed to ask me about who i wish i could have with me when i'm scared?
19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
no. 1. because i don't know how to do CPR. end of story.
21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
ohgod can i just jump with them. either way it's going to be wrong no matter who i save.
omg INTERLUDE TIME
okay i'm just having the biggest KIMJONGIN feel ever~ ohgod someone spare me haha.
kim jongin is a kitty cat if luhan is a little deer lol. and i just love his little nosw that doesn't seem to fit anywhere in his face at first but when he smiles it all makes sense haha.
and i'm listening to john legend's PDA i really like this song i mean if someone said "let's make love" to me the way john legend sings it i'd probably say yes lolol. we just don't care we just don't care we just don't care~
22. Are you old fashioned?
hmm. in some way? i don't know. i don't really think so tho... i wld say that i'm open for new ideas but i may not agree or do them.
23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
hard question lol. i kinda hate how i always expect something back now. i mean, not always in material ways but i do things to get acknowledgement, praise, it just sucks. i dont think i've done anything purely for the sake of doing it lately. sigh.
24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
guarantee of broken heart? that sucks but i'll probably choose that than never loving at all haha. i think to never experience love at all might suck more~
25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
i wish i could have a secure future. i don't know, i want a stable job that i love, maybe a family. i want to have kids and teach them everything they should know.
and yeah i don't rly like that maxstep song l. i just didn't get the song i didn't get what sm was thinking when they picked the clothes for those poor souls....
but i love snsd's flower power~ butterfly butta spider~
okay i always love pretty girls anyways lol. i used to hate pretty girls cos i envy them but now i'm like hell yeah pretty girls~ i think i might have been staring at pretty girls too much it's starting to get creepy. but yeah some girls are mean as hell, they give you that condescending look. ide. i don't give people condescending looks unless they do it first lol. im not a big meanie i love people. and i stare a lot. it's just a habit im sorry for the people that are freaked out by me..... teehee.
oh wow i totally forgot to publish this post lol. i started writing it around 2 pm.
and yeah i absolutely did nothing for today imma die tomorrow i can already feel it coming my way. my academic death.
and that guy actually asked for my number. i dont know if i'm overthinking it but i don't feel comfortable giving my number to anyone i barely know. i mean we only met twice. i feel really uncomfortable, like he's moving too fast to my liking. i know i might be over thinking it. i mean who knows if it's just a friendly gesture. but idk. it's moving way too fast for my pace, i feel very cornered right now. i don't like it when i'm not in control...
i have a feeling that he'll be texting every now and then. i don't like it. i don't know you that well. why can't we just keep it on fb? if i say no will he think that i'm a stuck up bitch? but then again if he does then he can go fuck himself cos i have the right to say no.
sigh. we'll just play the evasion card then jane.. our fave card. that fucking card that we should've burnt long ago.
you know what i just decided i'll ignore that msg and act like i didn't even receive it in the first place. cos fuck that.
i'll just be the bitch this time. i'll be a lot happier this way, compared to if i had to ignore his text every single time.
ohgod i can't believe im spending so much time thinking about this shit. i'll just do my humanities hw first then bye people.
annyeong♡
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