hi~ im at the main campus library rn waiting for my class to start.. 

thursdays are always a little bit chill cos it's the last day of class of the week. 

the library is super crowded tho. i wonder why... 

and yeah it's the penultimate month of 2012 already like how fast is that!!!

i will save my 2012 feels for my "end of year" post where i put 2012 in a nutshell lol and it will be a huuuuggeee nutshell cos obviously 2012 gave me so much feels in my guts..

today's really cold tho. probably bcos it rained last night and this early morn. i felt really sad when it rained last night.. i was like noooooo~~ what about those kids who are going trick or treating TT i hope they had fun tho cos i think it rained kinda early ><

but it was sad also cos no kids live in my apartment complex.. i think i talked about this in my post last night lol. im starting to get repetitive here.

first day of november... november is for sure going to be a very busy month i don't even want to think about it.. i have so many papers due im going to cry now. i don't even know if i want to eat in n out anymore later omg what am i doing to myself. seriously. i think im getting worse up here in my head lately..

so i've been deciding what merch to buy for SMTOWNSG and im like fuck i can't decide. and it's so ridiculous cos i'm doing it as if it's the biggest decision of my fucking existence wtf jane. 

i don't know what to do with myself anymore... i don't even know what classes i'm going to take in spring fml. my priorities are so mixed up rn. all i know is that i cannot and will never take a psyc research class together with an english writing class. i might go crazy if i have papers due in the same week. and someone will probably die cos i can't bear to hang myself. i dont have a rope that's strong enough anyways so... 

and i have this little rock in my head rn... i wonder if i'm just over analyzing or shit. but yeah.. i hate to reject people so i would rather stop it before it starts but what if i'm just overthinking it?? sometimes im too good at guessing people's intention i wish i was more gullible or stupid whichever is better so that i can be like oh okay that's good. 

and i think my observation skill is a bit too good lol. managed to find out who that certain person was talking about with minimal clues... warning to my future bf if i can even get one please don't try to cheat....... i'll probably find out about if one way or another so if you're sick of me we can sit down and talk about it. maybe smash a plate or two and leave as two happy people. just don't cheat on me. you will break my kokoro and i will probably attempt to break your neck. or burn your car. whichever one is easier.

or maybe i'll get a gf lolol. okay no. maybe not. i don't really need a human being who's prettier than me being in such close proximity lolol but i have so many girl crushes tho~ my mom will totally flip if she read this

i don't know. hahahaha. everyone would flip actually if i told them i want a gf lolol. 

i don't know i feel like i lose all my guts when i think about dating and stuff. i'm such a noob lol. what if im actually scared to date lolol. well my teenage years is gonna end in a few months.... and i still have no dating experience... i don't know maybe i'm just making too much out of it cos ppl keep on telling me that i'm not actually missing much haha. still i envy people who has gf/bf sometimes lol.

but yeah sometimes it just pisses me off to see those people who tweets about love and blah blah blah like all the fucking time. i don't care about your love life tbh my twitter shld be filled with my kpop stuff not about you missing your fucking girlfriend or boyfriend or you wishing that there's some guy out there that could understand you. ugh. im so sick of that. and the thing is i cant unfollow them cos they're my friends lol. i am going to offend you by saying this and i do care about you but i don't care about what you feel towards your bf/gf/crush. i mean it's okay to like talk about them sometimes but not all the time pls.

and those people who always RT love quotes like get away from me lolol. this is turning into a rant post lolol. but yeah if there's anything i hate more than people who complains about their love life on twitter, it's those who RT love quotes all the fricken time, talking about how a boy should act or how a girl should act to find "true love" like that's all bull. stop listening to what the world has to say about how you should act. just act like how you deem right and makes your life happy. i think disney princesses has brainwashed half of us into waiting for our one true love. come on. let's all be mulan. fight for the people we love. haha. i can't believe im ranting about disney too now lol.

it's time for class now~~~ probably gonna rant some more tonight lol.

but yeah i love you people~ i really do. haha

annyeong♡