sad halloween... 50Q!

hi. it's halloween and my sad self is so sad and lonely cos i'm too old for trick or treating and no one invited me to any halloween party..... and both of my housemates are m.i.a wtf.

but yeah stats class is cancelled so i had the afternoon off for a rly nice nap. which is rly sad too imo.... but yeah the reason why my stats class was cancelled is bcos my lecturer is going trick or treating with his 2 year old omg isn't it the cutest thing ever. we were all aww-ing at class on monday lol. yeah 

i actually have an assignment to do for my writing class *this class' assignments are never-ending im so tired tbh*

and i'm bored as shit so imma answer these questions... it's kinda sad cos these questions are posted in tumblr for other ppl to put in your askbox lol. but whatever... let's do it as an activity to keep my sanity in check. and i don't really care if anyone wants to know anything about me... i just feel like sharing so deal with it ;p 

then i'll probably do my assignment 

50 Good Questions /lol/


1. what’s your favorite candle scent?

hmm..i dont think i have a favorite candle scent.. i never used one before...

2. what female celebrity do you wish was your sister?

hmm... i don't know. i've never wanted anyone to be my sister lol. but to have someone like yoon se-ah as a sister seems nice. haha. 

3. what male celebrity do you wish was your brother?

ngl sometimes i wished kim jonghyun was my brother lol.

4. how old do you think you’ll be when you get married?

idk tbh but looking at how i'm still single right now i think it's gonna be at least when i'm 25 lol.

5. do you know a hoarder?

i dont think so.. i would say that my cousin is a semi hoarder tho lol she has so much clothes and shoes and bags ohgod. hahaha

6. can you do a split?

no. i'm so stiff in the joints even my dad's joints are more flexible -__- i might die young lol. 

7. how old were you when you learned how to ride a bike?

hmm..6? or 7 i think. i still remember where i learnt it and who i learnt it from lol. 

8. how many oceans have you swam in?

oceans?? i don't swim in oceans but i do swim in seas... 

9. how many countries have you been to?

hmm.. at least 5. 

10. is anyone in your family in the army?

nope. never rly known any chinese indo who's in the military anyways... 

11. what would you name your daughter if you had one?

i never really thought about it but there was once when i wanted to name my daughter jane lol. but 2 janes in a house is never good.

12. what would you name your son if you had one?

this one i never thought about like never for once hahaha. i'll have to talk about it with my future husband lol.

13. what’s the worst grade you got on a test?

hmm.. i think it's 1 point smtg for a test with a full score of 10...... that's an absolute F

14. what was your favorite tv show when you were a child?

tom and jerry? haha. and wild thornberries and some random nickelodeon cartoons oh i miss the rugrats!

15. what did you dress up as on halloween when you were eight?

well.. we don't really celebrate halloween in indo... so.. haha. this is actually my first halloween and i'm spending it in such a sad way ugh

16. have you read any of the harry potter, hunger games or twilight series?

i will admit it. i read the twilight saga but not harry potter nor the hunger games. i'm not very proud of myself for that. smh

17. would you rather have an american accent or a british accent?

what is an american accent lol. but srsly who wld want an american accent when you can speak like a brit haha

18. did your mother go to college?

nope, but my dad did~

19. are your grandparents still married?

i guess so... i mean you can't divorce someone who's dead right?

20. have you ever taken karate lessons?

yes at school and i failed miserably to remember anything i learnt from that class fml

21. do you know who kermit the frog is?

yeah..

22. what’s the first amusement park you’ve been to?

hmm. genting highlands? idk i have this very blurry memory of going to a disneyland of some sort but idek if i really went to any disney before i was 5...

23. what language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in?

well i'm fluent in both english and indo and can speak mandarin in an okay way with a weird accent.. so maybe i'd like to be fluent in korean? just to make my life easier if i want to watch dramas lol

24. do you spell the color as grey or gray?

grey. 

25. is your father bald?

no my dad has fab hair idek how he did it......

26. do you know triplets?

does this question mean do i know what a triplet is or do i know any triplets?

27. do you prefer titanic or the notebook?

never seen the notebook before and i'm sick of titanic tbh hahaha it is aired on tv for almost every public holiday in indo i mean srsly indo.

28. have you ever had indian food?

yep i like it~~~~

29. what’s the name of your favorite restaurant?

i don't have a fave restaurant tbh i don't rly rank my food lol

30. have you ever been to olive garden?

nope. 

31. do you belong to any warehouse stores (costco, bj’s, etc.)?

do i belong to what? excuse you i belong to my parents.

32. what would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?

john? idk hahahaha 

33. if you have a nickname, what is it?

my nickname? i used to be called elin/aline however that's spelled lol. my maternal grandma used to call me that all the time idek why. and i was called "watermelon" when i was in taiwan.

34. who’s your favorite person in the world?

myself. haha! 

35. would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs?

hmm. idk. whichever one that has faster internet shall be where i choose

36. can you whistle?

i used to be able to but after i wore braces it's just gone like poof i'm so sad now i get annoyed whenever people whistle cos i can't. yes i'm that kind of a bitch lol

37. do you sleep with a nightlight?

no i need it to be super dark to be able to sleep

38. do you eat breakfast every morning?
yes. 

39. do you take any pills or medication daily?

nope, but i think i shld start taking vitamins daily...

40. what medical conditions do you have?
is fat a medical condition lol. hmm.. none of that i know of i think.. 

41. how many times have you been to the hospital?

not much and i would like to keep it that way

42. have you ever seen finding nemo?

like yeahhh i cried so much lol

43. where do you buy your jeans?
anywhere that sells jeans. i dont really go to shops that sells only jeans tho... it's so expensive....

44. what’s the last compliment you got?

i don't remember ohgod this is sad lolol

45. do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?

not really..especially if i woke up rushed

46. what flavor tea do you enjoy?
green tea!

47. how many pairs of shoes do you currently own?

the ones i have with me rn, 9 pairs. 

48. what religion will you raise your children to practice?

hmm... i have no answer for this tbh. haha. 

49. how old were you when you found out that santa wasn’t real?

pretty young probably, well i never really believed in santa at the first place tho. haha

50. why do you have a blog?

well first it was this thing i made with a few of my friends but up to this moment the only ones that are still updating their blogs are justi, and me. mostly. others are just quitting it cos their lives are taking over lol.

so yeah this is my 50 questions... maybe is should find a halloween edition question tag.. or maybe not. cos i have no answers for the questions.. 

and yeah cos i don't have any costumes and stuff i have no pics of costumes to share to you guys.. 

but last year on halloween i did a little eyeliner session with myself *lol whatever that is* and this is this year's version lol

so yeah that's my fab face people. i hope you readers aren't disappointed to see my beautiful face lol. is this what you guys expect my face to be? i mean yeah i had a pic on the profile but that's last year's pic lol. 

so whaddya think? do i look pretty or do i look like a pile of poop. im not even going to put a question mark there lol. 

yeah i'm still so totally bored and still really full tbh cos i went straight for a nap after lunch lol. and today is really cold.. i hope the kids who goes trick or treating won't get a cold~ >< and it's sad that i live in an apartment complex filled with college kids.... i want 5 year-olds to knock on my door with their cutest costumes *__* 

i should just do my assignment... 

aaaah this class is killing meeeeh~ killing me softly with its assignments.

so yeah whatever jane. 

in a nutshell happy halloween readers i hope you guys had a fun one!!! 

annyeong♡

hi people
im having a major headache right now but i just feel like having a little word vomit session before i sleep. just because.

okay so i had a fun saturday. 
went to watch my housemate's badminton tournament~ good job jen!!! and when i was seeing all of them all i could think of is jum and how she'd love to be sitting with me watching all those badminton matches lol. 
and i had something in mind it just slipped right off wow. hahaha.
well yeah and one of jen's friends look exactly like my little cousin thierry who's just 8 this year but he looks totally like the grown up version of thierry ide he's like so cute!!! i can't stop internally smiling at his face ide. im such a creepo. 
and one of jen's opponents looked like a LQ ver of jaypark lololol 

and yeah went to the corn maze today it was fun i guess lol but i was kinda sad cos nothing scary happened.... but yeah whatever lolol


btw lately i've been so annoyed by some fandom's fans. yeah. i am so sick of their antics it's driving me crazy it's like the worst fandom i've ever seen. if you thought the ones in the past was bad, well guess what this new one is crazy. idk if it's bcos of the age group or something like that but it's just driving me crazy how some of them are just ughhh. 
i just want to facepalm everytime is see some of their posts ugh was i like that too in some point of my fangirl life? or im just as annoying as they are and i can't see that? idek. 
and my neighbors i can never stop ranting about my neighbors this year imma fucking kill one of them this year ide. 



so yeah saturday was pretty chill. and i still want to kill my neighbors so. 
a few more days to halloween. 
happy halloweens people. there's a lot of people walking around downtown in costumes earlier~ 
and look at the card someone made for halloween

i don't even know what kind of creepy animal or costume that is and that's a very ratchet looking broom and look at the moon and the unimpressed sun and that stupid explanation for it. i bet he just drew the sun first and then he was like "shit it's supposed to be night time, better make something up" thus the unimpressed sun. jFc kris you are so fucking talented i just fucking love you so much. lolol. i don't even know which part is the sarcasm anymore but yeah. it's in the SM blood no one can fucking draw less artistically than that. it's all yunho's fault i knew it. naturalistic art is so yesterday for SM. i still cannot with the broom btw kris. why do i even like you. what did god make you with????? like some kind of special atoms or what ohmygoodlord what is kris wu fucking fan. 
i want to be made that way in my next life. lol. 

and yeah i google myself up from time to time... just to see what things pop up.. and this blog is one of them so... idk maybe one day i'd have to delete this blog lol. watch me get famous and delete this blog readers lolol mark my words~~ bookmark them if you like. 

okay i think i really need to sleep now. delirious me is here.

love this gif just becos it looks like lulu and chen are kissing oyeah~



annyeong♡

late night kris feels ide

hi it's 2am on a saturday yes it's my normal writing time but yeah excuse me cos i'm just here to dump my feels for a while cos i just can't sleep before i dump some of my feels.

so yeah this is all because of this post
http://fidottt.tumblr.com/post/34397435617/when-kris-was-ask-about-exo-fans-our
fucking all because of kris lol. i always have this random kris-feels-in-the-guts moment ide
but yeah. look at that freaking asshole i just adore him so much
i just love love love how he answered the question but aside from that just look at his face. it's a mix of simple happiness and pure smugness ide. i actually really like his smug expressions it's just so adorable and punch worthy hahaha. to me, that's what makes kris so attractive haha. 
i don't know why but i just like it when guys know they look good. especially if they express it with a hint of smugness. tbh i think confidence is sexy really sexy. as long as it's not over-done lol. over-confident people makes me want to kick them in the crotch sometimes lol. but adequate confidence is just ughhhh~ 

but yeah kris' body language is just so irresistibly attractive~ even though sometimes he makes me cringe cos he's soooo awkward hahaha. especially when he tries too hard to act tough or cool haha. 
sometimes i do wonder what good karma did he do in the past to get such superior qualities lolol. what am i doing to myself. but yeah haha


honestly i love everybody for different reasons, i don't use a single standard for everybody. if i did i probably won't have much friends cos i'd be hating on almost everybody lol. so yeah if you can actually make me hate you, congratulations you probably have a lot of haters lol. 


and im kinda addicted to watching modern family now lolol i think it's rly funny for some reasons i don't know hahaha.
i kinda wasted my friday too... by doing nothing but complain about being so bored haha. i have no one to go out with how sad is that but when people ask me out i'll be like oh no i have a lot of assignments. i'm such a bitch srsly. 
i think it's the infp in me lol. i did so many different tests online and all the results were infp... i don't really know if it's a good thing beinf an infp but yeah maybe i should go take more tests lol.
but the descriptions fits me quite well.... but who knows, my perception might be skewed lolol.



okay i shall sleep now, gonna watch jen's tournament tmr~ 




annyeong♡

young female human talk part 2!

oh hi readers im doing an update at this hour haha im not going crazy nor skipping class~
my anthro class has been cancelled but i was already reaching the campus so fml im at the library rn tho and i brought my laptop so yeahhh at least i have my laptop with me.
i wasn't even planning to bring my laptop but this morning just got a sudden urge to bring it with me haha. i shld go be a psychic, not a psychologist lolol.

so yeah that's my intro to why i'm writing this shit early at 10 am. lolol usually i write late at night~
hmm.. what shld we talk about tho... shall we make this "young female human talk pt.2"??? yes a sequel~
i feel like talking about friendzone and everything in between~ i am so sick of people for using that term all the time i mean. get over it pls lolol~ 
so yeah i've been kinda fed up by this whole thing and recently a friend of mine has got into this whole episode with her crush, and one of my bebe also has this mini episode with hers and both episodes sounds so similar i just felt like talking about it haha. 
disclaimer: to my friend and that bebe of mine, i'm not calling you out or anything about your episode. i love you still, but i just wanted to write about what i think, so, no offense hahahahaha. i wish you all the luck with your episode kekeke.


so the reason i feel like talking about it is cos it somehow seems to me that some people wants to date people but has no intentions of being their friends. i mean, yeah i get how when you get attracted to someone you want to date him/her but what if that person already has someone else in mind, or is already attached? do you just say "oh well, no chance with you so bye bye, i'm not even gonna be your friend anymore" when you are already friends with them and have talked to them and stuff.

okay i think it'll be different if it's just a random crush on a random person you met. and you found out that that person is already attached and you say "okay whatever, bye" it's different cos you haven't actually started anything yet so no strings attached. good bye is good bye. cos you aren't even friends with each other so i guess it's fine if you want to just forget about everything. there's actually nothing to forget too tbh. lol.

but if you are already friends, talked a few times and stuff and at least know each other exists, don't you think it's a bit weird when you found out that the person you're attracted to is already attached, you just don't feel like being their friends anymore? okay i might get that you are heartbroken or something along that but why would u want to stop being their friends as well? it just feels to me like the only motive you got close to that person is just to date him/her. so when there's no chance for you people to be together you just quit everything?
and oh yeah i'm just being miss smartypants rn. so tell me what you people actually think about this. probably cos "i've never been in love before" and those kind of shit. if i was to do that to every crush of mine i'd have very little friends rn. lol. im so sarcastic at this hour ide. 

but srsly if any of you people think i'm just being a stuck up bitch who knows nothing about falling in love and dating and heartbreak by saying all these, just tell me. maybe you can help me change my views..? haha. i doubt it but you can try lol



ohoh btw something great happened last night~~
i actually found mint pants guy's fb!!! pmsl~

^that was literally my face when i found it. cos damn it was kinda unexpected and expected in a way idk how to explain it lolol. but yeah it's not fate, it's a mix of what i call "superior observation skills, good common sense, and a bit truckload of luck" hahaha. i was kinda expecting to find someone from that page and i found him omggg i can't believe my luck~ hahaha
but yeah it's confirmed that my mint pants guy is attached and his gf is a cutiepie~ so it's kinda game over lolol. it was fun tho haha now it's time to look for simon's real name lolol. im sorry but it's just a hobby of mine giving names to random people i met that i'm attracted to. pls dont tell me i'm the only one, cos it's so fun ppl~ it's like a game tbh, "trying to find out more about that person" game. hahahhaha
i'd still want to be friends with mint pants guy tho if i had a chance, he seems like a really chill and fun person, the reason why i was attracted to him in the first place lol.

so that's the end of my episode with mint pants guy~ it was a good one imo. had fun seeing him in random places, wearing those same pants almost all the time lolol. 
i'm going to find simon's real name now it's my next goal lolol~ i cant seem to see the name on his student id the letters are too small >< pls let his name be a simple one lolol dont stump me with super long name on id card i won't be able to see it lol.


and oh i wanted to talk about hyuna too lolol
her new mv is cute and hot as hell at the same time i adore hyuna sfm. i don't get why people kept on hating her~ like okay if you don't like that style don't listen to her or watch her mv then~ srsly people. if you want to listen to hyuna don't expect her to sound like ailee. we all know that hyuna is not the strongest on her vocals. i love hyuna for her stage presence, dance and appearance~ i mean, i have different biases for different things~ and stop calling her a slut okay, and to those saying "but she's only 20/21" so when is the right age? 30? 40?
srsly. i know at times i wished she had another image, like strong and sexy instead of cute and sexy but tbh hyuna does cute and sexy really well~ so just love her or just don't listen to her if you dont like it. 
p.s someone i know called her a trash i was actually kinda offended haha i just didn't expect her to be so harsh with her choice of words haha. at first she was asking me about how the mv is, and my answer was a simple "hmm i think it's what you'd expect from hyuna" which is really ambiguous cos i was trying to see what she'd reply me. and she just kinda laughed abit and said that comment. i was like "wow. hold on. wat?" but just smiled to her lolol. guess now i found another side of her hahahaha. and for many occasions she questioned my love for shinee cos apparently to her "they are so gay" lolol okay. fyi, i like gay stuff so deal with it. and she likes manry groups but manry groups also got otps and 2pm is the manriest group they also do girl group covers hahahahah. so idk i'm just being bitter about it lol. why am i ranting about this in the smallest font ever. cos it's only worth such little attention lol

ah my girl crushes, i'd go gay for hyuna and amber and jia and fei and many more omg~
but don't worry i still like guys de okay hahahaha

just look at her~~~

the last gif omggg~ i'd kill to be able to pull off that look when i'm biting my lip hahahah
i'll probably look like shit if i did that lolol. but yeah just look at her how can you not like her~ omggg



and okay confession of a fangirl
i'm actually kinda unhappy now that almost everyone knows about kpop... idk i kinda want it to stay exclusive for fans who rly like kpop for what kpop is and not those people who only like it just because they think one of the member of a particular group is hot and then diss everyone else... /sigh/ it's one of the reasons why i wasn't particularly happy about psy getting famous so suddenly...
maybe i'm just starting to get too old for this shit. i just hoped that there are more mature fans cos lately it's just been a whirlwind of crazy fans i'm kinda sick of it. but i can't bring myself to quit when there are girls as attractive as hyuna performing ugh~ fml why am i so attracted to pretty things


so rn im waiting for my friend to come so i can go to the toilet without having to bring all my possessions with me omg hahahha~ 
btw i should've known that my anthro lecturer would cancel class cos i had the biggest urge to leave my anthro textbook at the apt to bring my laptop. tsk. i shld learn to read signs from my brain more. 


so yeah that's all for now~ shall talk about more stuff later or someday or yeah. 
btw shoutout for my friend and fellow blogger justi! check his blog out won't you
and another shoutout for my friend who's also really good at music~ check his works out people~~




annyeong♡

layers like onions

hi readers :)
okay so it seems like i don't have any shoot i do have some assignments i just forgot but yeah imma do this quick update just cos i feel like it~
so leggo~

LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE
Name: jane
Eye Color: black
Hair Style/Color: mid length and black~ i've been wanting to dye my hair brownish red but maybe not haha
Height: 172[?] cm. well that's the last time i measured my height and it's like. years ago lol. so idk
Clothing style: simple and slightly to the feminine side[?] idk. i can't seem to be able to bring out the boyish feel, i'll just look like i'm lazy as fuck if i tried to dress up boyishly. ;__; it's so cool tho.
Best physical feature: hmm..my height? lol. idk. i like my eyes too~ 

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
Your fears: being left out, having no one to count on. and heights,well mostly cos im afraid i might fall and die lol
Your guilty pleasure: staying in my room reading yaoi fics lolololololol now everyone knows that i read that stuff lololol but i just cant resist it~~~ *__* 

Ambitions for the future: /sigh/ idk. marry someone good?? lolol my dad will burn me if he paid all these money for my education just to see me get married. hmm~ i want to work in the criminology department like analyzing crime perpetrators especially those psychotic ones ohyea~ have i told you that i adore hannibal lecter lolol. 

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
Your first thoughts waking up: "oh hi goodmorning i need 5 more minutes pls" *snooze alarm* 
What you think about most: why am i so confused???? like srsly im always so confused ide
What you think about before bed: "mhmm pillow and bolster why are you so fluffy and comfy lemme hug you and let's sleep. oh i wish i had someone to hug me to sleep. ohgod pls let me wake up on time tmr." lolol
You think your best quality is: i think and act like an umma for my bebes lol. idk that's what they say they like about me lolol

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?
Single or group dates: having an actual person to date lol. ok no. but srsly idk. it depends, if u want a fun date then group dates are better but if u want romantic ones ofc single date is better haha
To be loved or respected: loved. 
Beauty or brains: can't i have both? lol. probably brains. beauty is ephemeral~
Dogs or cats: hmm.... cats. but i love dogs too but. idk. hahahha.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Lie: yep. any type of lies i can think of, at least once. 
Believe in yourself: not as much as i want to.. but there are times when i am the only one i can believe in.
Believe in love: hell yeah haha
Want someone: i want many people i don't just want someone lol

LAYER SIX: EVER?
Been on stage: yes
Done drugs: panadol? lol.  
Changed who you were to fit in: yes. but then i quit. haha. it's too tiring~

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
Favorite color: rn it's mint! still obsessed~~
Favorite animal: jellyfish don't ask me why. lol. 
Favorite movie: don't make me pick one haha
Favorite game: mm......... haha idk dress up games lmao. to satisfy the fashion stylist in me lolol.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE
Day your next birthday will be: 14 march it's a thursdayyy
How old will you be: omg. im gonna be 20 >< omg omg omg odg im gonna be 20 it's too sooon i'm not readyyyy TT
Age you lost your virginity: hahahhah idk im still a virgin~ 
Does age matter: depends on the context. but i don't really think it matters much after all it's just a number right? lol

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
Best personality: attentive[?] i like it when people focus and pay attention, that means they're into what they're doing and will thus be doing their best~
Best eye color: doesn't really matter as long as it's "alive" i mean, idk how to explain it just eyes that don't look dead[?] lolol idk hahahha
Best hair color: hmm. whatever color is okay for me. not for my mom tho lolol
Best thing to do with a partner: sitting on the couch on a lazy day just talking about everything. i kinda like intellectual people that has that emotional part too~ just talk about anything to me, i love listening to people, it tells me a lot about them haha

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I love you i love everyone i fucking love everything lol. okay no i love people who love me~ and i love beautiful things
I hide the bad things i want to say about you. and probably write it out on a piece of paper and crumple it as if i'm crumpling your soul lol 
I miss *i cant believe im saying this but* high school! lolol i actually miss the times i had during high school and my fucking lovely friends who are like my familyyyy~
I wish i would not give so much fucks to things that don't deserve my attention haha. i just care too much i want to please everyone. stop jane stop.

okay if any of u are wondering who this is, this is the grandfather and father of all your SMTOWN oppars okay. he's the source of the grease look at that face and that heart omg leesooman ajusshi stopit hahahha

btw i got a book in the mail and i didnt even order it..... the name of the sender is rly familiar tho i think i ordered a book from him before but idk i havent ordered any books for months, i feel rly bad to the person who needed that book tho. but idk how to return it do i return it to ebay or amazon how to tell??? *__*
but it's legal for me to keep the book so. sorry. please dont curse me... curse ivan the person who sent it to me.. 

and it's been so cold these 2 days. it's officially fall~~~ 
and the leaves are all turning yellow and orange~ so pretty but so cold~ and it's so dark now.
my days feel a lot shorter now cos the sun comes out so late and goes down so quickly ugh.

but okay stop i think if i continue imma turn this into a rant post lolol~




annyeong♡