rant post, this is a rant post gdi

okay right now i'm half pissed half sad as fuck. 

so.. earlier this morning i woke to a tweet about someone recording tao singing ji's crayon. i thought oh did tao sing it in front of fans? so i clicked on the link and i heard an audio post of a really faint sound of someone singing and 2 girls whispering to each other. halfway thru the audio post i realized that the girls must be hanging out in front of a room or something, secretly recording it, cos they were worried about being caught. and i was really creeped out by it. 
well i am guilty too cos i actually tweeted "half cute half creepy.... they hung out outside of the boys' room??" cos i tot tao was rly cute. tho i didn't retweet the link cos i think it is creepy as fuck but i'm guilty of thinking that it's cute. and i'm sorry. i am very sorry. :(


little did i know in less than an hour things went so bad cos tao actually found out about it and was utterly pissed about it. 

and my heart just hurt. i basically couldn't even bring myself to smile. i just... i don't know. i always had a soft spot for tao. can't you guys see that he's a softie? it's easy to touch him and i bet it's as easy to make him angry and sad too. 
tbh when i saw the pics on exom's perf in shanghai i was sooooo happy cos the boys look like they were having the time of their lives~ they were all smiling brightly and especially tao. i felt that he was really happy in the pics. his smile look different. he was truly having the time of his life in that perf. being cute and flirty. just like kris, acting cute and stuff. my boys were having the time of their lives and suddenly a thing like this had to happen. 

there was a post about tao posting about what he felt about this recording incident and i can't guarantee that it's 100% true or not, i've learnt to take everything i see on the internet with a grain of salt. but if it's true, i can tell you tao is really pissed as fuck. 
i just don't know anymore. why some people just like to cross those invisible lines that's so sensitive. i mean fgs don't you people know what respect is? what privacy is? 
yes i know there will be people out there calling me out and telling me, "jane, fgs get real, i bet if you could, you'd do that too"  NO. let me tell you, NO I WON'T. i would not be as creepy as that and record sounds in the room. if i saw them in a public place i'd probably try taking pics and stuff, i'll admit it, but i will not do things such as recording them from outside of their hotel room. don't you think that it's common sense to respect other people's privacy? yeah yeah they are public figure and once they signed their contract they had already expected that they'll lose most of their privacy. but this?? i don't think any one of them signed up for this. having pictures taken almost 24/7 in public is hard enough. don't you think you need to give them some private space such as their own room???

ugh i'm just pissed as fuck right now. 
and if i have to beg you people i will, please just let the boys stay happy and safe. love, if done the wrong way, will end up hurting everyone. please love them in the right way. will you people be happy if the boys end up being hurt? what if one day they stop smiling for your fan photos? i know i always joke and complain about kris acting cool in airports, but i bet it's just him trying his best to look his best so that all your fan photos look nice... so please. don't hurt their feelings anymore. 


and i'm not just ranting this hard because it happened to tao. cos sasaengs have been doing creepy stuff to a lot of other idols and stuff but i just felt that enough is enough. 


if any of you guys think i'm being hypocritical please call me out. and i'll apologize to you personally if i think you are right and i was wrong.
really. i'll respect your opinion. only if it's worth my respect.



i shall zoom off to my stats class then. 


annyeong♡