i know it's late and random but i just want to get this off my head lol

i'm just so so so attracted to oh sehun lately. he's gotten more and more attractive.
his pink lips his eye-smile his bony body his stoic face his cute hair his awkward body wave his cute little butt.

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just look at him idek why im so fucking attracted to him lately but just take a look at him. 
so freaking attractive. i don't know.. yeah he's not all sexy and seductive like how that asshole kai is. but he's just ughhh. i dont even know whyyyy. he wasn't one of my biases from exo in the beginning. im just waiting for it to be suho's turn to grab my attention.. that grampa really has nothing that appeals to me. i hope there's a "yet"... yeah he's good looking and kind and idk what else but i feel that he's so banal.. so boring.. so kind. so nice. so... i don't know hahaha. not that im only attracted to "bad boys" but i just want him to have more personality[?] idk. but trust me im not a hater... haha. or maybe i am and just won't admit it? lol. no i don't have the heart to hate grampa, he's suho okayyy~  
maybe it's just my taste. i don't know.. since my ultimate bias is jjongkey and both of them have really "big" personalities esp key that diva. maybe i'm just too used to people with "presence" lol. 

and yeah i'm probably in love with the image of my biases. /delusional/ is the word haha. i've long accepted the fact that i'm a delusional bitch and i'm always in love with the image of a person~ esp idols so. yeah. haha. but please remember altho i'm in love with my baby idols i'm never ever thinking about dating them so. yeah i know that line. haha. 

and talking about images, i always have this picture in my head about the type of personality each of my biases have. 
if i went to the same school with them then suho would be that really nice senior who'd help you every single time you're in some shit. but he won't be the one i'm in love with cos i'm busy having a crush with some other guy lolol. and then chanyeol and baekhyun would be the trouble maker duo who play ridiculous jokes and tricks to other students. do kyungsoo my babysoo would be that nice kid in class who's also my best friend-slash-nanny, reminding me that i should do my assignments and stuff. kai would be that really hot kid in the dance group or some clique which is so unreachable lol but then he'd actually be a rly awkward and shy person. 
then you have kris the senior who's also the leader of some kind of gang at school haha. someone every male student looks up to and every female students want as a boyfriend lolol. then luhan and xiumin will be the seniors from the school's soccer team, and like to show off their bromance lolol. yixing would be the really quiet guy who is really good in music, the one who you'll find in random spots at school with his guitar, singing by himself. chen would be the pervy troll classmate hahaha, i don't know why but he's always portrayed that way lol. i think it suits him tho, and the troll part has alrd been proven so haha. and tao will be that really cool guy who's really good in sports and martial arts omggg~ but then he's secretly a big softie and crybaby who just loves to use his aegyo against everyone lol. 

yeah that's how great and useless my brain is. i freaking love my brain ever since i learnt how to use it well haha. but it keeps getting mad at me from time to time for not listening to it so. yeah haha.




and yeah my housemate is constantly asking why i like shinee that much cos she thinks they're too gay for her... well.... what she doesn't know is that i happen to really like gay stuff so. yeah haha. she's a 2pm fan and tbh 2pm is a bit too manly for me lolol. 

annyeong♡