summer sessions ha!

hi people~ 
i know i haven't been writing a lot these weeks.. and i've been lazing around by answering random questions i found instead of writing stuff properly.. i shall accept everything you throw to me right now..... i am not very sorry~ well i had no excuse tho. my summer session wasn't busy at all. srsly. one class. and it's a psychology intro class. easy breezy~ waiting for my A to show up yay~ 

so in a nutshell, summer session was fun. and very very hot. but i survived YAY. 6 weeks of psychology is done. can't wait for my next psyc class tbh. i loved it! i love my lecturer too~ his humor is... offensive? lol idk. i like offensive stuff so haha.
it's a 10am class and the thing that motivated me to wake up and go to class everyday was not the class itself lol. yes, honestly i'm not that into the class cos the beginning of the class is like senior high bio all over again. i'm like nooooo~ i think we learnt too much bio in high school. srsly indo. haha.
the thing that motivated me to wake up each day to catch that bus at 9:35 is *drumrolls* cute guyssss. lol. yeaaah... as if there's anything else that can motivate me as much, well besides food and sleep that is. 
i know this probably bores some of my readers to the max but i don't care. this is my blog ;p i am a mean blog-owner i know. but there's this one guy that is so interesting. i am very attracted to him, like very. from my observation skill i concluded that he was taking an art related class and he likes orange color. and he could be a deep sleeper or he has really unmanageable hair cos he has the cutest bed hair ever~ plus he wears his aviators every single day to the point that even when i meet him almost every other day for 6 weeks i've only been able to see his eyes twice. and his lips. his lips. haha. i guess i was most drawn to his lips. cos he has lips like Dalmatian's Simon Park's~ 

well this is Simon Park Junho~ look at those lips haha~ well the cute guy in the bus had those lips too~ and i cant stop staring. i really can't stop. and i guess i didn't care whether he ever noticed that i was looking at him cos i can't see where his eyes are looking under those aviators. 
well too bad last week was the last day i could meet him in the bus cos our summer session just ended... last day i met him was last tuesday cos i skipped class on both wednesday and thursday to go to socal lol. don't worry i already asked my lecturer and he let me drop my final YAY for dr.T!
on that last day thank god i was able to get into the same bus as he is as it was always real packed in the morn that unitrans have 2 bus go to our area. and on that last day i decided to be shameless and just stare at him for the last time thru out the whole bus ride. and he wasn't wearing his aviators that day /yay/ so i played a glance stealing game with him. i bet he knew that i was staring at him cos he was standing right in front of me facing my direction, trapped between other students in the bus while i'm sitting there just looking at his face for the longest time ever lol. and cos it was the last day, i decided to just take the chance to save his face in my brain. that guy actually has really nice eyes too, deep double eyelids and long eyelashes. he should just lose those aviators haha. 
he's just such a cute guy. ide. i should try dig up more info about him but i can't~~~ i have 0 lead. so case closed. his cute bed hair tho. so fluffy~ haha. i wish i could see him smile tho~ he never smiles cos he's constantly being sleepy in the bus. 
// simon park's jawline tho. uhuh. best! aaaah simon park is so hot ide his abs omggggg // 

END OF SUMMER SESSION "ATTRACTION AT FIRST SIGHT" STORY lol
there's no such thing as love at first sight. love doesn't work that way haha. 

SIMON PARK IS SO HOT IDE OHMYGOD SOMEONE STOP ME


hmm... what else is there to talk about....... 
so yeah i went to socal last tuesday night. i rode the bus for 10 freaking hours cos i'm cool like that lol. okay no cos i have no money for the flight. 2nd time going to socal and this time i stayed at my aunt's place! plus went to Disneyland and Universal Studios for the first time. it was reaaaally fun~ i wish i came with my bebes. and i went to 85º cafe and bakery again~ i was so hoping to be able to meet matthew again and boy was i disappointed cos i didnt see him there despite going there twice in 5 days! sucked hard but i guess he's not working there anymore cos i saw the other guy with a tattoo on the back of his neck who i saw the last time but i just couldn't see matthew ugh! i miss his face and eyes lol. but yeah i'm kinda obsessed with cute guys so. haha.
apart from that little disappointment, the whole 5 day trip was fun!!! yeah ate a lot of good food too~ i am a very happy person. i know i should upload some pics but forgive me or not i'm not in a mood to upload pics~ so let it pass for this time okay 
oh yeah i had someone draw a caricature of me and it's hella cute even tho i don't think it looks like me~ haha. i'm very happy that the guy drew me with a rly thin face i'm like hell yeahhhhh hahaha. too bad i'm not that thin irl lol. 

i love it tho~ haha. didn't know that i have eyes as big as that either lol~ thank you for drawing my eyes that big and my face that thin haha~


ohgod i can stare at simon for hours................ /creys/
lol random spazzing. i'm tumblr-ing right now excuse me.


what else shall i talk about......
oh yeah. relationships. i guess.... isn't it the most wanted topic? where people talk about their relationships, their bf/gf.. too bad i have none! lol.
well my relatives have been hinting about it to me as well... my uncle at the bay area suddenly asked my cousin whether i have a bf. then my aunt at socal asked me the same thing when i was there. i'm like wutttt? srsly where do they get thoughts like that from~ -__-
another aunt said that college is the time where you self advertise yourself.. trust me, i'm trying quite hard already. people who tells you to wait for your love to come is just trying to kick you out of the game. srsly. send signals out or you'll stay invisible. hahaha. yeah, some people are lucky to find one by waiting but life is no k-drama where prince charming will always fall for the female lead. sometimes the evil supporting lead will get the prince instead lol. i'm sound so bitter about this lol.
idk... sometimes when i see people dating i'm like so envious but then when i think about it i don't think i'm ready to be in a relationship. cos i change my mind every 5 minutes. what if i decided i don't really like that guy that much i just wanted him to be mine. will i be able to look at one guy only. for the rest of my life. like that one single guy. will i be able to love him that much. what if that guy breaks my heart. i'm not ready to let a person mess with my life that hard yet. it's so risky aaaah why am i so whiny and scared right now. ide. 
i blame you people who always runs to me whenever you have troubles with your relationship srsly. lol okay no i don't blame you guys, you can still run to me whenever you have problems. i love you people so i am willing to listen to you guys. haha. remember i love you lol

i don't know lah~ i'm so used to sharing my love with so many people. and also cast my eyes at so many people at once. what if i can't stop doing that. and want every guy i find attractive. 
my future bf, please love me and my boys and babies and oppars. :D it comes as a package. buy one get a lot free. i will let you spazz over snsd and other girl groups too. i don't mind lol. i spazz over them too lol.

well since i got my first legit guyxgirl hug already i'm waiting for my first legit kiss lol. i wonder if it really feels like what people say. i want to have my first club experience too lol. but i have to wait till i'm 21 i guess haha~ my mom won't exactly be happy about it but whatever i have to try it once. haha. 





i guess that's all for this post..idk what else to say. maybe i'll do an "exo: confessions of a fangirl" next lol. something you guys would want to skip reading lol. 
byebyeeee